i felt that way until i started making fun things that are actually fun

i go back and forth from this feeling, I wish i knew what to say to 'fix' this but unfortunately If i did i'd be extremely wealthy and have giant tits, hope you're well <333

kinda stuck there myself. none of my forms of expression are making me feel anything but doom :(

I feel you... It's often just mental illness (anhedonia) and not a fixed state, but things are so hard to manage lately.

me and my friends are going to a renfair the day after halloween! we're just gonna watch movies the night of :)

I'm going camping at a place that does a Halloween party. excited to decorate my tent!

Halloween doesn't exist in my country, so I'll just be getting an extra scary T shot

also been getting into POSTAL lately and having a lot of fun with that, beat both portal games...lalalalala

and that is probably where/how neocities would be targeted if kyle was forced to go under a NSFW ban that would inevitably affect trans women more for Reasons you probably are very well aware of by now

although since kyle alr accept bitcoin donation maybe he'd just cut off the credit cards and switch to payment methods that don't require getting choked out by an amurrican "totally a company and not puppet of the amerisreali forces of evil"

commit c984251 is the most troubling change. obvs not knowing what the admin console looked like before my fears may be unfounded, but it looks to me like the refactor made it easier to shadowban by marking as nsfw. i cant find any indication that a confirmation is required on the admin side to mark the site.

unless there's a rampant porn spam problem on this host i dont know about, no-confirm shadowbanning makes it easy to dismiss a site without thinking about it too much. this action isn't shown in the ban list either afaik so it becomes a "needle in a haystack" situation (viz. the responsibility of the affected webmaster) if a false or malicious marking is made

so yes, trans women getting forced out of the supporter tier will happen as a matter of course, but kyle has set the admin console up for tumblr-level corruption, and that's why i removed links to neocities' main site from my homepage. it doesn't follow to suggest this host as a place to set up a website, just for some admin in a hufflepuff scarf to drop the axe on them after the first word.

Kyle's stance has remained consistent. https://divinicide.neocities.org/media/kylensfw.png