I really wish I had something meaningful and encouraging to reply to this. I understand how you feel. I also relate to both Pomni and Jax, (and actually also Ribbit) I saw the last episode at the movie and as soon as Ribbit said the thing about her parents being devout mormons I cried and did not stop until the whole thing was over. I guess I have mentally protected myself by staying in denial about Jax's abstraction

because the whole thing cut too close to home. I haven't really let myself think about it much more than "well Lee is alive", and I also got really unwell (not related - because of a medication change) the day I saw it so I didn't have a real chance to think about it or process it and I haven't watched it again yet bc I know it will be a lot. But you are right. Jax ≠ Lee. I suppose.. I was trying to cling to hope in

the fact that Jax abstraction didn't seem to leave so I didn't really read it as suicide? I don't know, as I said, I haven't really thought about it properly, I do see where you're coming from, it is heartbreaking to lose another trans sister. All in all, I hope you are doing okay

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i really am not good at media analysis -__-

Upon reflection: too little, too late. If they had truly wanted to make [REDACTED] transfem, they had all this time to do it, but instead they waited until the character was functionally dead. Yeah great.

If it helps reassure you, I can't entirely speak on it because I'm not transfemme, but having watched the finale with multiple people, there was 0% chance any of us would have known if my cousin didnt coincidentally check the wiki after the movie and go "Huh? [Spoilers] is [spoilers]?"