seriously don't worry im fine. my biggest issue is worrying about it spreading. im not scared of dying im just scared of having to do the thing where you get bald. im not doing that. my hair is like, the one thing that makes me confident so id rather just die than go bald

Man, that stinks... Hope you get out of it alright.

also im probably not doing that bc they dont know if it spread yet. im gonna get it checked on thursday. depending on what happens idk when the surgery will be. they said within 4 weeks so that can be any time.

its just an inconvenience that its happening now because im going to a machine girl concert in pa (hmu if u going :smiling_imp) in 2 weeks and then my bday is a few weeks after if i gotta spend that in the hospital i gonna be pissed even though i spend it in my room every year anyway

not scared of dying just scared of missing that concert or going bald. id be pumped if i die though.

if i was laying in the casket bald as hell id be embarassed. i would just write on my death will that they shouldnt hold a funeral. imagine people crying over a bald kid. id be laughing but embarassed as hell

oh im also implying this will kill me. it probably wont. there's like less than a 4% chance i'll die, but things are never in my favor. so im going to bump that up to a 40%. im pulling these numbers from past experiences.

if dokodemo dot neocities goes 2 monnths without an update assume i died but i'll probably tell yall because im def gonna bring my laptop to the hospital when im going in for surgery. im not watching hospital television no fuckin way.

probably going to delete this thread when i regret it. im def going into a psychosis bc of unrelated reasons but yeah just thought id mention that . feel free to make cancer jokes around me its funny

I'm so sorry to hear that :( sending you well wishes for a speedy recovery <3

that's awful, best luck and wishes to you

so sorry to hear this, good luck with your check on thursday & wishing you a speedy and comprehensive recovery x

I hope you get to keep your hair (and stop the cancer.)

shit, that sucks. hope you recover soon

i'm sorry to hear that, sending you good thoughts <3 hope you recover quickly!

aweh now i feel bad @everyone-who-replied it sounds like a bigger deal than it actually is. as i said, it wont kill me. the only thing that will be annoying is having hospital visits for the rest of my life. no clue how frequent but i hate the hospital! anyway anyway thanks for kind words but i really dont need them. im more concerned over not being able to update my site depending on how this whole thing goes.

i wish you a quick recovery... even if it wont kill you it still sounds scary :(

im so sorry to hear this. i wish you a speedy recovery and most importantly try not to dwell too much on it. if you are on fb then find some support groups, they really make the difference. Im going through this with my mom as well. its just shock, it will pass after a few weeks. i'll be thinking of you! fingers crossed it doesnt spread ♥ feel free to msg me anytime on discord (or here)

hope you feel better soon! and good luck with the surgery ❤

That's such scary news... I'm glad that you must have gotten to it early? I wish you a speedy surgery and recovery <3

even if it won’t kill you I’m so sorry man, I wish you a speedy recovery and I hope you can go to your concert!! good luck with surgery and your hair!

I'm so sorry this is happening to you!!! Hoping for the best for you.

im glad u seemed to catch it early... however regular hospital visits are definitely a bummer. i never had to take any long hospital stays in my life (luckily) but i understand how stressful (and even just boring) they could be. im glad youll be okay and hope you can recover quickly and dont have to take too many visits <3

Get well soon man, even if it’s not that serious rn take care of yourself

I know how it must feel. I have an elderly relative who's recovered from a serious stage of cancer after surgery and chemotherapy. You have even stronger chances. I wish you a fast recovery; please stay safe.

good luck (you'll probably be fine especially if you catch it early)

Thats absoloutely terrible, even if you're not too worried about it its still a horrible thing to happen :[ Please take time to yourself, your health is the most important thing above all else

Sorry to hear that. Wishing you a fast recovery and I hope you can get well soon!