Hi, hmmm, It's hard to come up with something to say when I've felt the same way a lot recently. Your illustrations remind me a bit of intaglio work I did in college. I love digital painting too even though I'm not very good at it. Is you .lol extension really $40 a year? My .cafe one costs $60 and I've been thinking about switching because it's so expensive. I dislike my panic attacks too by the way.

I'm okay not having my own horse though. I'm severely allergic and am terrified of riding them. I used to play an old Barbie Horse Riding CD Rom game when I was younger though. That was fun.

Your pixel Cliques page reminds me of the song Pearl Diving by Auri.

@stoneroad thank you! and no i believe this domain was like 1.99 bc antikrist.com was like 1k or something expensive like that plus .lol fits me more tbh haha. and omg i loved barbie horse riding! i played the crap out of that game when i was a kid haha <3

respect, condolences, and encouragement on your hard time - internet strangers appreciate you and wish you so much goodness. if it would bring you back to a better place and time, you should know that the internet archive has many many vintage computer games available, including some of the Barbie horse-riding series. it got me through a rough winter last year. <3 sending good vibes your way.

We've never spoken before, but I've been feeling the same way a lot recently and I really appreciate your work on your site. For me what helps me the most is video games and engaging in creative hobbies outside of the internet (arts and crafts and all that jazz). I've been trying out making comics again lately, which is also really helpful.

I've found joining creative writing or journaling with my drawings to be most helpful when it comes to comics. You're pretty talented when it comes to illustration, maybe give that a try. If nothing else, you're trying out new things. Best of luck <3