sorry folks it's been pretty hard to feel creative and happy when living in ENDLESS FINANCIAL SCRAPE RUSTYBLOOD HELLWORLD but you know how it goes, barely afford to eat to barely be able to work to barely afford to eat to barely be able to work to walk home and hope that an eagle flying overhead will drop a couple hundreds on me or somethin
im currently selling my art at markets to try and make any money and its just a cycle of paying for a market to make money at a market or buying something i need for the market and im really sick of spending money so i can make money anskdhkf
a cool thing about fantasy worlds is you can write for hours and make all kinds of cool stuff and then someone says can i read it and youre like no it looks like wikipedia.
Floating still in the ocean water, just to feel the waves. just to feel the sunlight just to feel the curious fish nibble at my fingers just to feel the deep, cold, dark below. just to feel the water lap against my face. just to feel the body sinking. just to feel the surface take me. just to feel the air trapped in my nose. just to feel the light fade above. just to feel the air die in my lungs. just to feel alive.
capitalism and the internet has ruined sex and intimacy and now everyone is a selfish misogynist or a fortress fighting off dick pics and all i want is to hold someone and stroke her hair and fuck and kiss and cry and feel our bodies melt together and say things i could never say to anyone else because the words only belong to us and i dont want some tech company having any say in how we meet or talk or fuck
(ssshhh, i don't wanna upset the weirdos with my words)
im currently selling my art at markets to try and make any money and its just a cycle of paying for a market to make money at a market or buying something i need for the market and im really sick of spending money so i can make money anskdhkf