capyhaus
1 week ago
It went from "I can't maintain this site because of bad memories" to "I can't maintain this site because I'm constantly at work and too physically fatigued to sit at my desk". I can't even answer Discord DMs or emails timely anymore.
nobodylovesme
1 week ago
Been there, I usually noted down what I wanted to update and updated on the weekends (or way too late into the night). But, you shouldn't feel the obligation to update. Keep it at your own pace, y'know?
sakana
1 week ago
As someone in the same position, you can't. Not consistently, anyway, unless you move it up your priority list.
helianthus-fields
6 days ago
been trying to figure this out myself. 11ty makes it more accessible to an extent as i can write everything in md files and transfer over to the site when i have energy. however ive just come to accept its more a weekend thing
capyhaus
6 days ago
Man the crazy part is I don't have weekends because my schedule varies by week LOL... I try to chip at something when I'm not doing errands on days off but it feels Joever. My convention vacation in a few weeks is guaranteed to lead to new material though.
capyhaus
2 weeks ago
I'm debating on making a Bsky alt to post these on because that site is too safe edgy.
capyhaus
2 weeks ago
Work has me very very tired. If I could go back to having the hope and love I did on Christmas 2023, I would in a heartbeat :(
capyhaus
3 weeks ago
I have briefly returned for the old man zoomer's birthday. I have a long page in progress related to year of the fire horse. Otherwise I work 40hr weeks now and have a fun vacation happening next month. Don't be dumb or I'll shoot you.
capyhaus
3 weeks ago
KP, I am not leaving you hanging. I was going to answer the email but am suffering from food poisoning.
capyhaus
1 month ago
I missed work today due to physical exhaustion, so I tried to set up a deployable Git repo to make uploading/deleting images easier. I couldn't understand the instructions and just stopped.
capyhaus
1 month ago
I've alluded to this before, but I'm going to get into it again. I don't think I'm going to update this site as much as I did 2-3 years ago. The elephant in the room is obvious. Years ago I had multiple friend groups and a partner to motivate me, I don't have that anymore. After I lost that I was thrust into a family-financial issue and I'm juggling trying to make offline friends and work full time.
capyhaus
1 month ago
I'm this close to giving up on the former, honestly. I have a hotel room reserved for a con in June, but I'm so fucking tired of life and various bullshit, I went back to social media. And not gonna lie, this community often irritates me so much. It discourages me to work on a site I have little physical energy for and only 3 people will see.
capyhaus
1 month ago
Having a zoomer spiel onto an unrelated status update last month and getting schizo emails convinving me to delete my site and get into crypto reminded me why I stopped checking here. (Don't tone police me, I don't care.) And I'm also tired of pretending my last relationship ended on good terms when it fucked me up. It's nobody's problem but mine, but it's another reason I avoid NC.
capyhaus
1 month ago
I'm turning off profile comments for awhile because it frustrates me and I don't like how the activity feed is diet Twitter. The guestbook and email is open but I'm slower to respond and less patient for random soapboxing. It's frusting how much I self-censor only for other people to mindlessly rant at me.
capyhaus
1 month ago
I came out of the book with a whole new conclusion about the disorder itself. The book is very sad at times and could use a new edition to discuss ADHD post-pandemic but it completely blew my mind.
lindentea
1 month ago
omg Sifl & Olly!!! i obsessively watched that as a teen, had so many episodes taped (amidst a pile of music videos)!
capyhaus
2 months ago
I'm also tired of people taking venting over not wanting to maintain this site as an opening into pushing me to delete it. Neocities does not take up a portion of my life. I don't devote my time to it.
capyhaus
2 months ago
This is a random thing to post at 4am but I'm having sleeping problems and this is the last thing I want to be awoken by, lol.
I'm on it as a commissioner and it's very good, could use some tweaks but it's in progress. Mostly MLP people so far but if you sell merchandise or do commissions it's worth applying to.