I have briefly returned for the old man zoomer's birthday. I have a long page in progress related to year of the fire horse. Otherwise I work 40hr weeks now and have a fun vacation happening next month. Don't be dumb or I'll shoot you.

KP, I am not leaving you hanging. I was going to answer the email but am suffering from food poisoning.

I missed work today due to physical exhaustion, so I tried to set up a deployable Git repo to make uploading/deleting images easier. I couldn't understand the instructions and just stopped.

I've alluded to this before, but I'm going to get into it again. I don't think I'm going to update this site as much as I did 2-3 years ago. The elephant in the room is obvious. Years ago I had multiple friend groups and a partner to motivate me, I don't have that anymore. After I lost that I was thrust into a family-financial issue and I'm juggling trying to make offline friends and work full time.

I'm this close to giving up on the former, honestly. I have a hotel room reserved for a con in June, but I'm so fucking tired of life and various bullshit, I went back to social media. And not gonna lie, this community often irritates me so much. It discourages me to work on a site I have little physical energy for and only 3 people will see.

Having a zoomer spiel onto an unrelated status update last month and getting schizo emails convinving me to delete my site and get into crypto reminded me why I stopped checking here. (Don't tone police me, I don't care.) And I'm also tired of pretending my last relationship ended on good terms when it fucked me up. It's nobody's problem but mine, but it's another reason I avoid NC.

I'm turning off profile comments for awhile because it frustrates me and I don't like how the activity feed is diet Twitter. The guestbook and email is open but I'm slower to respond and less patient for random soapboxing. It's frusting how much I self-censor only for other people to mindlessly rant at me.

I have never known peace since that party.

omg Sifl & Olly!!! i obsessively watched that as a teen, had so many episodes taped (amidst a pile of music videos)!

The layout for my convention photo album sucks ass, but I'd rather blow my brains out than mess around with HTML. At least the Javascript galleries have a scrollbox now.

I know I also promised a new page, but I haven't had time to finish it. I'm not the same person I was when I fell in love with Neocities 4 years ago. I have two drafts that are over 1k words and finishing either is like pushing a boulder over a hill.

TFF starts tomorrow. You may or may not see that new image at the hotel tomorrow? Come find Capy!

I also had a new rune in progress, but it's very long and kind of "meaty" so... it unfortunately won't be finished or published before the con :/ Ironic, since last month's con inspired it.

TFF is next weekend... Here's hoping I'll have a story as crazy as Harmonycon's.