And if you look at yourself hard enough, you'll realize that you already are. :)
HOLY SHIT YES........................................... IM GOING THERE....................................................... FUCK YES
You are not stupid. It is normal to be confused about things that do not seem clear. Sometimes it takes a lot of patience to understand something.
Hang in there. Keep up those fluids.
Feel better soon! I also humbly agree with @macrev's suggestion of staying hydrated.