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swiftred updated trauma corner

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niicespiice 5 months ago

yes, why is it that writing is so painful and solitary..?

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swiftred updated trauma corner

5 months ago

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a-blue-in-a-sea-of-reds 5 months ago

Congrats on persevering through the anxiety to pay your parking ticket in person, Swift. ☺️

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swiftred 5 months ago

Thank you so much!!

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niicespiice 5 months ago

78: i feel it's kind of messed up that you lost a friend just because you didn't mail a thing. if they were your friend then why didn't they just..... ask? i guess i don't have the full context here though😭

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swiftred 5 months ago

@niicespiice yeah, to be fair, there was more to the story and other factors. Ghosting isn’t the healthiest coping strategy anyway, and you’re right, I wish they would’ve expressed that to me before! Because I didn’t know they felt that way until afterwards.

swiftred

5 months ago

It feels more impersonal to do it this way than to thank everyone individually and, at the same time, that is an unsustainable practice! So, thank you to everyone who's followed my site as of recently and especially to those of you who have engaged with it at any point! It continues to mean the world to me =)

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doffy updated LOCUST

5 months ago

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tevito 5 months ago

i will never not be in love with whatever you design. damn

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swiftred updated trauma corner

5 months ago

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miela583 5 months ago

Posting regularly leads to a lot of.... I don't want to say bad, but maybe posts that aren't quite top level, but I still think it's important. Certainly I finish a lot like "christ, that was terrible, such a whiny day," while that's not a reaction I'd have to anyone else's writing. If writing is a habit, though, I think it becomes a more natural outlet for whatever the writer might need.

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swiftred 5 months ago

I agree completely! I also tend to feel specifically whiny sometimes, and I also wouldn't/don't judge others as hard as I judge myself.

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niicespiice 5 months ago

the reddit thing.. i am also guilty of it.. help...

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doffy updated LOCUST

6 months ago

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swiftred updated trauma corner

6 months ago

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swiftred 6 months ago

a wild pokemon appears

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firozah 6 months ago

i love the ds design so much, looks so good gr8 job

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swiftred 6 months ago

thank you!! I cannot take credit, it's a template by kwaamfan.neocities.org!! I've really enjoyed the format

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pixelglade 6 months ago

Data entry is a pretty chill job to have, I used to have one where I could work from home often it was pretty good.

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badgraph1csghost 6 months ago

when i first got my drivers license, i decided to test how many fingers i could leave on the steering wheel and still have drivers wave back. it was fun to see grown-up men in huge pickups do a 2-finger salute when i would just raise my pinky (ofc i was 16 back then and 16yo's are always doing weird stuff like that)

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swiftred 6 months ago

@badgraph1csghost that's really cute, lol!!!

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fabstarotcorner updated Fabs' Shop

6 months ago

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swiftred updated trauma corner

6 months ago

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niicespiice 6 months ago

ngl i'm still grieving a YOUTUBER getting rid of their channel. multiple years ago at this point. MULTIPLE YEARS AGO A YOUTUBER DELETED THEIR CHANNEL AND LITERALLY HAS A NEW ONE NOW AND I@M STILL GRIEVING IT. this is socially weird and in fact considered "immoral!"

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outofatuan updated out of atuan

6 months ago

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swiftred updated trauma corner

6 months ago

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badgraph1csghost 6 months ago

"being imperfect won't kill you", that's one i've been trying to internalise for actual decades. I'm getting there I think, i'm more tolerant of my own imperfections now than i was when i was 16 i guess, so that's something.

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ocrevol 6 months ago

haven't watched lain yet but this site (https://www.cjas.org/~leng/lain.htm) supposedly explains most of what happens pretty in-depth

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thedrey updated The Drey

6 months ago

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swiftred updated trauma corner

6 months ago

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badgraph1csghost 6 months ago

re: 65. data entry was the best job i've ever had. i could power through a stack of paperwork, listen to my playlists, go to the printer every so often, it was exactly what my brain needed! :3

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swiftred updated trauma corner

6 months ago

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transferns 6 months ago

omg i completely agree. fuck doulingo. their ads make me so annoyed.

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badgraph1csghost 6 months ago

yardwork is the exact reason why i've been living in flats for most of my life. if grass is present, it is dealt with by SOMEONE ELSE.

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swiftred 6 months ago

Extremely real. I kinda got roped into doing it, lol, with the caveat I can’t with 70°F+ temps. Were it up to me, I’d be okay living my whole life without a yard.

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miela583 6 months ago

Not an insightful comment, but cat!!!!!!!

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niicespiice 6 months ago

whats the duolingo ai usage??? but yeah i dont like duolingo, its trying way too hard to be cool buyt then it's just Lame. it doesn't terach people important skills and tricks them into thinking they're learning. and then people treat it as some kind of "definitive learning tool" despite how much the true learning communities say it's bad. ahhhhhh

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niicespiice 6 months ago

very common sign of "But funny corporation haha!!!!!!" ahhh i hate it so much. also the streak thing reeks of Addiction Culture where youre like "b-bububut what about my INSTAGRAM REELS???"

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swiftred 6 months ago

@miela583 cat!! 💜💜 the sweetest cat there ever was, even …

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sneekrealm 6 months ago

deleted my duol*ngo account the other week... >:-)

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damian-96 6 months ago

i first joined duolingo like 8 years ago when it was new and still p fun. i've cancelled all paying subscriptions to them now in favour of Busuu, where i've learned better in 2 years than the other 8... currently, for my brain, i'm trying to get to a certain streak, then i'm going to delete it.

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swiftred updated trauma corner

6 months ago

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swiftred 6 months ago

I think it'd be kind of funny to have a page full of conversations and quotes I eavesdropped on. Some people say the strangest things lol 😭

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bearlythere 6 months ago

Love 58. Lately I've been making "bad decisions" (small things) on purpose just to try to familiarize myself with healthy ways of coping in those moments. I used to panic more, usually now I'm able to tell myself it will all work out in the end. Also, I'd love to see an eavesdropping/quotes page.

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ocrevol 6 months ago

had a conversation about this today (lol), there are very few decisions you can make that will actually ruin your life forever, being stuck in decision paralysis and not doing anything as a result is usually worse for you than any mistake you can feasibly make (lotta modifiers needed to make sure nobody reads this and decides to rob a bank)(normal fear)

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niicespiice 6 months ago

basically all of my friends seem to be struggling with this - even me to an extent - we just sit around Not Doing Anything, because we forgot, and then it's too late so we hope someone else will fix it for us. instead of owning up and actually fixing it ourselves huhuhghgahghhg. running away

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badgraph1csghost 6 months ago

Re: 59. I hate how people want you to turn your favourite things into a side hustle. It was so hard unlearning that (i'm still having trouble with it) and just creating things for the sake of creation. I refuse to sacrifice my passions on the altar of capitalism!

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ocrevol 6 months ago

re:59 the thing about running a small business is that while it can be very fulfilling to work for yourself it generally becomes more of a full-time job than a regular full-time job would be, also yeah sometimes you just straight up don't want to, there's no getting around it work is work no matter what

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niicespiice 6 months ago

"five year plan??" wait what actually is that?? is that a thing?? also yeah i hate the "you should sell your art" thing. it's annoying because it's implying i think it's morally okay to sell art. at this point i don't think it is - because art is inherintly part of speech/communication. it's like trying to sell an emotion or a word. you shouldn't do this

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swiftred 6 months ago

@niicespiice, re: "five year plan," or rather, I'm asked, "Where do you see yourself in 5 years?" and I'm like, "I dunno???? I don't even know where I see myself tomorrow!!"

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ocrevol 6 months ago

"brother idk where I see myself in 5 hours are you srs rn"

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niicespiice 6 months ago

DO MOST PEOPLE KNOW WHERE THEY SEE THEMSELVES IN 5 YEARS???? I DONT THINK THEY DO??? RIGHT????

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a-blue-in-a-sea-of-reds swiftred

6 months ago

Thanks so much for following my website and signing my guestbook, SwiftRed! 😊 I’m glad you enjoyed my post, “My Autistic Perspective on Online Social Anxieties,” and am touched that you even linked to it in your microblog post, “Posting fanfiction and the terrifying prospect of being seen.” It’s good to know I’m not the only one who experiences such anxieties when posting updates online. 😌

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a-blue-in-a-sea-of-reds 6 months ago

Speaking of your microblog, I thought your post, “Villains & Gratefulness,” was powerful and well-written (and illustrated). 👏 I look forward to further exploring your cool website! 👍

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swiftred 6 months ago

Thank you for the kind messages and the follow. It’s very, very meaningful to me! I look forward to exploring your cool 😎 website as well.

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swiftred updated trauma corner

6 months ago

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swiftred 6 months ago

the autistic urge to fret about misrepresenting myself 🧍‍♂️ Feeling profoundly ineloquent and agitated today

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transferns 6 months ago

i'm not transmasc but i feel like finding my spot in the furry fandom (lol) was actually one of the best things that i've done for my gender tbh. the amount of under-represented trans bodies i've seen drawn by some furry artists is actually so amazing. and i'm sure it's the same for some non-furry artists out there too.

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transferns 6 months ago

on another note, personally, when i see an older trans person, it actually makes me happier than anything else. something about seeing a trans person just survive and love life is so nice and they always seem so happy in their bodies (whether that be with the aged or trans parts)

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swiftred 6 months ago

@transferns omg, I forgot to even mention/consider trans representation in art! Do you care if I screencap your first comment and tack it on the end of the post?

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transferns 6 months ago

not at all!! i'd love for you to!

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swiftred 6 months ago

Thank you so much 😊 I've added it in.

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niicespiice 6 months ago

55 hits home like. sometimes when random people online are sexist, like saying "gg man" i feel affirmed, but then they say something like "or woman idk" and even though it's technically being more inclusive, i'll be damned if it doesn't feel like a stab in the chest 😭😭 random sexist stranger perks (???)

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swiftred 6 months ago

@niicespiice omg, "gg man" goes incredibly hard, very affirming for me personally

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thedrey updated The Drey

6 months ago