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onlytrichromatic
5 months ago
God I felt that. I felt similarly frustrated and conflicted a couple years ago because autistic friends and accquaintances would basically often tell me "damn dude you sound kinda autistic". Then yeah same thing doing test and whatnot and thinking maybe I'd have an answer to "what the fuck is wrong with me". But ultimately I'm kinda in the same boat, there doesn't seem to be a reason to agonize over it or pursue a--
onlytrichromatic
5 months ago
--diagnosis. And at the end of the day I no longer care to find an answer to "what the fuck is wrong with me". Basically just hey its find that my brain is not quite normal, I'll just learn to live with it I guess. Hope you can be forgiving as you said :3
palmistshouse
5 months ago
I have kind of the opposite problem, I was diagnosed with autism as a small child and I’ve had people tell me I’m not autistic (including some of my own family members) because I don’t fit their very antiquated and narrow view of the condition..
benny1548132
5 months ago
i'm autistic. first i was self-diagnosed, then i got a "real" diagnosis because...i dunno, my parents constantly insulted me, calling me "Aspy," but also called me "too smart/charismatic/funny" for autism; i wanted to prove i was right for once. i'm normally never that specific about it because i think i could/do have other stuff going on, too, but i'm also fully anti-psych, i hate the DSM-5, etc. but i will share my
benny1548132
5 months ago
diagnoses with you -- not all of them, god, again, i consider most of the microlabels useless and/or only useful for the people/places that want to dehumanize us; i saw you immediately associate autism with deficiency, i do recommend being more forgiving of yourself -- but that one. as a marker of solidarity
garfriend
5 months ago
I’m in the EXACT place especially after I got medicated for my anxiety. I don’t plan on seeking a diagnosis either because of the American political climate. I worry that people would treat me differently if I was diagnosed also :/
oscarspage
5 months ago
Thank you, everybody. It's a relief to hear that others feel this and to hear it from another side. @benny1548132 I share your rejection of diagnoses and I apologize for the association with "deficiency". I think I resisted the possibility for so long because my family would use it as an insult. I guess me not wanting to admit they might be ""right""
oopsiedoodle
5 months ago
Thanks for sharing this. It's something I've been exploring myself for the past year or so. All of the self-assessments say yes. I haven't asked many people what they think because I find it kind of embarrassing to ask. I don't think I need to know for sure, but the thought has helped me advocate for myself. I've been prioritizing my downtime to recharge outside of work lately and it's helped immensely.
oopsiedoodle
5 months ago
And I guess in some sense, the possibility of being autistic also helped me let myself off the hook on some things. Like, I was beating myself up about not getting promoted at work this past year. And it’s not that I think autistic people shouldn’t be in leadership roles, but I’m recognizing that I just don’t have the personality they’re looking for and never will. It’s simultaneously freeing and disappointing.
oopsiedoodle
5 months ago
Thanks for sharing the lovely song. Hope things start to look brighter for you
garfriend
5 months ago
I’m in a similar place dwelling on past relationships good or bad. I didn’t prioritize myself and my wellbeing back then. I found myself in harmful situations because of it. I’m glad that you are prioritizing yourself. You are the most important person to yourself no matter how much you may love someone else. I hope the boat folk treat you well tho!!!!
devhank
6 months ago
oh which things do you like? My artworks, my origami models or my crochet models?
palmistshouse
7 months ago
I'd share my full thoughts on the matter too but I fear sounding too much like a boomer Luddite. I will say that social medias do impact how humans interact with each other in a majorly negative way and it sucks.
sanji
7 months ago
my thoughts really go out to you. it's honestly one of the most stressful things you can go through to go through just waiting for some stupid 'special paper' with a 'special stamp' to come in the mail even without the entire government shutdown. hopefully new doors open up for you before long :((
palmistshouse
7 months ago
from the bottom of my heart, wishing you the best of luck with whatever happens
oscarspage
7 months ago
The worst part is quitting nicotine for the trial. The front of my brain feels funny
stupied
7 months ago
as much as i love art, i really can't see myself fully committing to it but thank you anyways (^_^)
limovars
7 months ago
the karaokeing and honeymoon crashing sound like nice memories to look back on in the future :')
oscarspage
8 months ago
Thank you very much :), I recommend seeing Tosca if you ever get the chance! I really enjoy your characters and the way you draw faces.
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