i hate heart palpations (it's fine i'm fine it's just chronic illness stuff)
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i'll get outta here one day, right, guys? right?
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asterion
2 days ago
It depends upon what you mean by "here." Neocities? Your geographic location? Your socio-economic status? A large cardboard box?
damn i love scrolling through websites like Hot Topic or even Depop and being like haha cool...i don't have to buy that...i can get or find a blank & make my own version with paint &/or scissors...and then i remember, i'm not 'allowed' to touch spray paint anymore and i haven't felt creative like that in a year
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benny1548132
2 days ago
once i'm able to do this kind of thing again i absolutely will. i won't share what i make for myself because i don't want to show anything i wear on here, but i will tell you guys i'm doing it again. & how happy it will (probably) make me
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had a nightmare last night one of my mother's friends was chasing me through a house that wasn't the one i live in, shouting my [deadname] over and over swearing she wanted to help me, but when i said not to call me that & i needed time to myself she didn't listen. she kept chasing me, and when i tried hiding in a closet, she pried the fucking door open, still shouting. i didn't have a good grip on the door
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benny1548132
4 days ago
and my fingernails were breaking and my fingers hurt like shit but that just made me angrier, and the angrier i got the less seriously she took me, and in not a long time at all, she got the door open. i don't remember anything after that. i guess i woke up. it was frankly a gross nightmare to have because it's so fucking accurate. she wouldn't literally chase me because she's too old lol but the rest is very her
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thank you to virtually-isolated, pirahxcx, onlytrichromatic, and thecountrybat for directly or indirectly helping me figure out something with iframes. my new index looks great, i think, and my opinion is the only one that matters. i am very grateful
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USA is evil
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benny1548132
1 week ago
and so are you ngl and so am i. anyone worrying about a future nuclear war or the future of amerikkka or its citizens than for the 83+ iranians that were murdered today is evil. does anyone want to take me by the hand and we can work together to be less evil or are you all just going to chalk this up to schizoposting
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benny1548132
1 week ago
and it didn't even start today, we've been starving people over there with sanctions for years
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benny1548132
1 week ago
i know i'm an asshole to remind everyone that the USA is evil & has always been, but i'll be that asshole. i know i may not have the right to be because it's not my country being bombed, but i'm so fucking pissed off
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someones-insane
1 week ago
i'm pissed off at the news as well. the USA is incredibly stupid, vile, and other unkind words that i know better than to say here. youd have to be on some columbian speedball to think this makes anybody happier
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i wish there was a way i could tune into cable (TV) occasionally without having to pay for it or connect some kind of account. just so i could see what people who watch cable are watching these days
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oscarspage
1 week ago
mostly ED pills, hair loss treatments, and gambling ads. TV is awful the rare times I catch it
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i love watching Windows Powershell work. i feel like a genius hacker when in fact i am just updating a program in a very simple way lmfao. but how it looks and functions does bring me great joy. i am almost sexually attracted to watching it
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will installing grapheneOS onto my new (used) phone fuck up my computer?
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benny1548132
1 week ago
https://grapheneos.org/install/web i'm reading this and believe it or not i'm stupid enough to be a little lost on which steps i specifically need to follow, and what will happen to the computer i'm using to install grapheneOS.
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benny1548132
1 week ago
i'd follow all the steps, but the phone i'm getting comes unlocked, so i don't think i need to do that part.
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i hate money -- i mean, i hate needing money, i hate capitalism -- but i love cash. the feel & smell of it. if there was a cologne that made me smell like cash i'd wear that shit 24/7
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Tc of urself!! may God bless you