i kind of want to share some of the things that i have made -- fiction, doodles, music, etc. -- but i have no idea where i would put them, if it would be safe for me to share them (my paintings aren't safe to share, yet), and if it would make me seem fake, sterile, or professional. i'm also just terrified of people liking my work and it gets consumed and that goes to my head and i become like the people i hate
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i love my website. not because it's good or anything but because it's a safe place (relatively, i know) (but it's the only space i can even pretend is safe) for me to express myself and meet people as myself without needing to mask who i am. i love this stupid little website. i love you guys. i love that some of you seem to like me. some of you have emailed me. i don't even know why. i don't think i deserve it
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i fucking hate liberal artists & writers. i mean, no, i don't really hate them, hatred is perhaps too strong & non-fluid an emotion....but i just experienced my poetry prof. telling us all to think about what's going on in the world (i.e. invasion, genocide, murder) and write about it from the perspective of a disinterested witness.
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new blog + poll attached. it's a new thing i am trying out this post and probably never again but who knows
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problem: i burnt a CD using Verbatim CDs and some program that came with the drive i got. my computer can't read all the data for the titles/artists and stuff but it will play the music. my CD player won't play the music. any fixes? i forgot the name of the program after deleting it because it wasn't working but my CD player is a Jensen made in 2023
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onlytrichromatic
2 days ago
I have tips!!! Take em or leave em. 1. Don't bother with the other program just use windows media player (the old one not the new one). 2. The metadata often doesn't work so tbh don't worry about it as long as the music plays. 3. As for the CD player not player, what format are you burning in? Sometimes the burn speed can fuck it up too if its too fast
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onlytrichromatic
1 day ago
at least in WMP, it should be in burn settings. its to the right of the little burning menu column thing
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benny1548132
1 day ago
i changed to WMP and slowed the burn speed to its slowest, and it's still not playing! i am so so sad about this
getting real into the four humors tonight. yes the medical stuff was largely bullshit but i think the personality/seasonal/life cycle stuff was close to...something. something interesting and helpful for unintended reasons if not intended reasons. what humor do you think you are? i think i'm phlegmatic, at least right now
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benny1548132
4 days ago
i thought sanguine at first, but i changed it to phlegmatic; i am friendly, but not very happy
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new blog, again
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badgraph1csghost
1 week ago
"you're not being abused, you're not losing your agency", they said as they began to abusively take away your agency.
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i cannot make myself sound disinterested, i am not just a witness, and i am not going to turn bloody violence into a completed assignment. fuck you
there's another word for "disinterested witness". it's "fascist". possibly also "bootlicker".
if it was me id do the assignment but make my distaste clear. "i saw a woman get shot and didn't care" is a pretty damning indictment of a person or society. maybe your professor is a cringe lib but i feel like you can get some commentary in there and make your professor feel like an asshole at the same time
ya that's a strange assignment... I wonder if you could flesh out the reason this person is disinterested. Instead of YOU being disinterested i suppose
i ended up writing the poem, and reading it out loud, with my face showing, i wanted him to see i was pissed. unfortunately, this accomplished nothing, he complimented me but i know i didn't actually affect anything, and i learned there is an ex-special forces soldier in this class who did & is everything i was speaking against. and now i feel scared
i resent that i did end up turning this bloody violence into a completed assignment, and i'm so sorry, too, but if i didn't, my grades would be too low, my mother would know, and i would probably be punished. jfc, i gotta get out of here