i don't know how many of you even know this page exists but i updated it to fix grammar https://benny1548132.nekoweb.org/a-graveyard.html
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i really miss my most insane friends. the group of people i had a few months ago who were all disabled & kinky & weird & fun. i boycotted / am boycotting Discord, sure, but i offered up Matrix, Signal, or just texting me since many of them had my number, and none of them followed up. i think about those people a lot. they were great
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benny1548132
1 week ago
well, except for that last part. but i would get incredible memes and posts about their plushies and their hobbies and useful information about medication and methods for recovery, anti-psych stuff, too, and we'd play Ponytown and different drawing games together. we also watched Nosferatu together
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benny1548132
1 week ago
too bad a few revealed themselves to be Zionists, and the rest were / are...apparently glued to Discord so strongly it's comparable to a human fly trap
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i also added a status 'widget' to my website, but it's something i made, so it's not connected to status.cafe
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the redirection script has been added
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benny1548132
1 week ago
well. i'm kind of not. i'm changing hosts, yeah, but i'll still post on here and stuff
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i'm moving to nekoweb for my host because they don't allow AI/data scrapers, but i'm going to use a redirection script to take you there from my neocities (thank you barndoors) so we can all pretend i still have a reason to be active here. because i will be. i will be here
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benny1548132
2 weeks ago
because of K*le Dr*ke's stance on AI vs Nekoweb's (he allows AI & data scraping, they don't), and also because i'm still thinking about divinicide -- plus a few secret, subjective personal reasons
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benny1548132
2 weeks ago
no, i'm talking about a while ago, when they got temporarily taken down and had to switch hosts because they were mass-reported and K*le just went along with it
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I REMEMBERED SOMETHING IMPORTANT TONIGHT!!!
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benny1548132
2 weeks ago
i am a sadomasochist whose into some fucked up shit. pain doesn't scare me anymore. BECAUSE I REMEMBERED IT TURNS ME ON. AND I WILL WRITE ABOUT THIS TOMORROW
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benny1548132
2 weeks ago
...i did try to write about that yesterday but it was really hard with what felt like my mother breathing down my neck
i hope you're still alive, even though you might not feel the same way, mostly for a selfish reason; i still haven't seen Donnie Darko yet, i need time to watch it and i want to be able to tell you what i think of it. i think about you often, which surprises me. if you are no longer alive, you will have to wait for me to join you. i have a duty to God & to people that i haven't fulfilled yet.
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benny1548132
1 week ago
...sometimes i think about the fact that the message directly after mine, at least last i checked, is someone doing the "thanks for following me! how'd you find my site?" bit, that people do, when they care a lot about followers & how to keep them and gain them. if you aren't with us anymore, that's the last thing a lot of people will see when they check your page.
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yeah, dude, it mattered. but so does putting one foot in front of the other. i just gotta keep putting one foot in front of the other
I understand the sentiment. The systematic creation of Unicursal Mazes can be frustrating due to its pace but slow and steady progress always yields results in the end.