had a nightmare last night one of my mother's friends was chasing me through a house that wasn't the one i live in, shouting my [deadname] over and over swearing she wanted to help me, but when i said not to call me that & i needed time to myself she didn't listen. she kept chasing me, and when i tried hiding in a closet, she pried the fucking door open, still shouting. i didn't have a good grip on the door
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thank you to virtually-isolated, pirahxcx, onlytrichromatic, and thecountrybat for directly or indirectly helping me figure out something with iframes. my new index looks great, i think, and my opinion is the only one that matters. i am very grateful
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Disco Elysium really is a great game -- of my favorites -- but the more time you spend trying build it up in your mind as the great*est* or spend around people who do, the worse it gets. it's a game about a cop. it's pretty not awful politically despite that, and it's really funny. but it's not the work of God
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USA is evil
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benny1548132
4 days ago
and so are you ngl and so am i. anyone worrying about a future nuclear war or the future of amerikkka or its citizens than for the 83+ iranians that were murdered today is evil. does anyone want to take me by the hand and we can work together to be less evil or are you all just going to chalk this up to schizoposting
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benny1548132
4 days ago
and it didn't even start today, we've been starving people over there with sanctions for years
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benny1548132
4 days ago
i know i'm an asshole to remind everyone that the USA is evil & has always been, but i'll be that asshole. i know i may not have the right to be because it's not my country being bombed, but i'm so fucking pissed off
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someones-insane
3 days ago
i'm pissed off at the news as well. the USA is incredibly stupid, vile, and other unkind words that i know better than to say here. youd have to be on some columbian speedball to think this makes anybody happier
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i wish there was a way i could tune into cable (TV) occasionally without having to pay for it or connect some kind of account. just so i could see what people who watch cable are watching these days
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oscarspage
5 days ago
mostly ED pills, hair loss treatments, and gambling ads. TV is awful the rare times I catch it
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i love watching Windows Powershell work. i feel like a genius hacker when in fact i am just updating a program in a very simple way lmfao. but how it looks and functions does bring me great joy. i am almost sexually attracted to watching it
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will installing grapheneOS onto my new (used) phone fuck up my computer?
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benny1548132
6 days ago
https://grapheneos.org/install/web i'm reading this and believe it or not i'm stupid enough to be a little lost on which steps i specifically need to follow, and what will happen to the computer i'm using to install grapheneOS.
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benny1548132
6 days ago
i'd follow all the steps, but the phone i'm getting comes unlocked, so i don't think i need to do that part.
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i hate money -- i mean, i hate needing money, i hate capitalism -- but i love cash. the feel & smell of it. if there was a cologne that made me smell like cash i'd wear that shit 24/7
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i had to literally beg my parents for extra time on my computer tonight, to write. and as i did i felt so small & infantile & whiny
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sometimes i pull up a photo of an ex just to prove to myself i was seen like that once. i've gotta stop doing that, especially because my camera roll doesn't reset to recent photos by default, i...took a look at someone from a few years ago last night, and i opened my phone again this morning and whaddya know? there he was again. the photo, i mean. i know, i've really gotta stop that. if i hadn't done it last night,
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benny1548132
1 week ago
though, i would've done something worse. i feel like complete shit. i hate myself and everything else. nothing's notably worse and things might finally be getting better if i stop being lazy, but i just feel awful. hell. i need other ways to prove to myself i'm a real person.
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benny1548132
1 week ago
....i mean, even he wouldn't want me to do that. i've gotta find another way.
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lotus-cube
1 week ago
We luv you, find a picture of some flowers and look at that pls. It's okay to hurt.
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and my fingernails were breaking and my fingers hurt like shit but that just made me angrier, and the angrier i got the less seriously she took me, and in not a long time at all, she got the door open. i don't remember anything after that. i guess i woke up. it was frankly a gross nightmare to have because it's so fucking accurate. she wouldn't literally chase me because she's too old lol but the rest is very her