i've been holding back on deleting/archiving my website because i figured i had to at least wait until i could tell the maybe-three people here who actually care about me i got out & i'm living a better life. and so i'm so sorry to those maybe-three people
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but i see no reason to hold out until that point anymore because it was always a hypothetical and i just don't think it's coming anymore. i just don't think a better life is coming. i think this is it
my father has taken to throwing turkey -- lunch meat -- into my bed before i'm awake to get the dog to jump up & wake me up. i told him i thought it was gross and he laughed and my parents said it was my fault for not waking up sooner. he said he wouldn't do it again but instead they're talking about taking my phone away during the day again
and i did call the community center again to ask for another link that might actually work and they sent me another that didn't
venting like this doesn't even help anymore. it doesn't count as venting, not really. i'm not expressing or releasing anything. i'm letting the few friends i might still have here know i don't think there's a point to me continuing on
that's all. thank you