i'm moving to nekoweb for my host because they don't allow AI/data scrapers, but i'm going to use a redirection script to take you there from my neocities (thank you barndoors) so we can all pretend i still have a reason to be active here. because i will be. i will be here
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I REMEMBERED SOMETHING IMPORTANT TONIGHT!!!
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benny1548132
1 month ago
i am a sadomasochist whose into some fucked up shit. pain doesn't scare me anymore. BECAUSE I REMEMBERED IT TURNS ME ON. AND I WILL WRITE ABOUT THIS TOMORROW
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benny1548132
1 month ago
...i did try to write about that yesterday but it was really hard with what felt like my mother breathing down my neck
i hope you're still alive, even though you might not feel the same way, mostly for a selfish reason; i still haven't seen Donnie Darko yet, i need time to watch it and i want to be able to tell you what i think of it. i think about you often, which surprises me. if you are no longer alive, you will have to wait for me to join you. i have a duty to God & to people that i haven't fulfilled yet.
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benny1548132
1 month ago
...sometimes i think about the fact that the message directly after mine, at least last i checked, is someone doing the "thanks for following me! how'd you find my site?" bit, that people do, when they care a lot about followers & how to keep them and gain them. if you aren't with us anymore, that's the last thing a lot of people will see when they check your page.
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my controversial opinion is that not every site has to or should be accessible because that would put serious limits on what art you can or cannot make. my also controversial opinion (but i hope not) is that if your site is inaccessible you need to provide a warning detailing in what ways. not for purity culture. fuck that. people have epilepsy & shit, dawg
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i want -- need? -- a better bag and a better wallet and a good watch and a better phone but when i say better/good i mean functional and i don't want to pay more money than i absolutely have to for any of this
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wow!! i love my mother so much. she cooks for me and takes me out on drives and she knows how to not let me get sicker and i owe her so much and she might really be the only person who knows how to take care of me and would do it willingly and *remembers the rest* FUCK SHIT FUCK FCUK FUCK FUCK *starts throwing poop like a cornered ape* FU CK YOU FUCK FUCK SHIT FUCK SUCK MY DICK AND BALLS
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thecountrybat
1 month ago
hey, so, I'm a mother, and all the stuff in the first part is stuff mothers are supposed to do w/o question for our kids. you don't owe her anything for it bc it was her choice to have you and, therefore, her choice to do all those things for you. you deserve to be treated *well*, not simply kept alive. be strong <3
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why are you moving there?
because of K*le Dr*ke's stance on AI vs Nekoweb's (he allows AI & data scraping, they don't), and also because i'm still thinking about divinicide -- plus a few secret, subjective personal reasons
did something happen 2 divinicide>??
no, i'm talking about a while ago, when they got temporarily taken down and had to switch hosts because they were mass-reported and K*le just went along with it