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oopsiedoodle
1 year ago
Giving a retroactive Furby to Materialists. It provoked a lot of discussion for my husband and me, which makes it worthy I think. (Also, I'm now seeing the flaws of my Furby rating system but no plans to change it.) Also saw 28 Years Later last night. I liked it.
oopsiedoodle
1 year ago
Saw the Wizard of Oz in 35mm technicolor. Fun experience at my favorite movie theater. :) Also saw Materialists. Still deciding what I think about that one.
badgraph1csghost
1 year ago
i understand completely about being left behind. occasionally i see someone i used to go to high school with around town, being a functional human being, while i'm just... doing whatever the hell it is i do. for that reason, i actually hate august.
niicespiice
1 year ago
you say you feel off path but i wonder in what way-- like if your life was "on path," what would that look like? (just a thought /srs, even though i often use that phrase as a joke) because i m yself often find myself thinking "this is wrong" without knowing what i think is right
swiftred
1 year ago
@niicespiice I'm mostly alluding to the "path" that everyone is told is "right." be cishet, fall in line, do high school > college > career start > marriage > house > kids etc. which is not even the path I want, but that means my path is undefined. I'm just kind of wandering right now, and I think the wandering itself feels wrong, personally and societally
slatch-bat
1 year ago
I understand this feeling completely honestly... as someone whos going to college and has career plans, it still feels like its not the "right path" . its compounded by physical and mental disability and just. life. i think it gets easier as you get older, maybe. My moms 47 and she seems much happier than she did even when she was 30, and she didnt pick the "right" path either. so maybe theres hope?
swiftred
1 year ago
I manually duplicate every time :) I'm not even sure how I'd go about automating/it's not something I've even thought about
skeltrr
1 year ago
I relate a lot to your blog post, it's crazy how listlessness and longing for change can make us think the most extreme things are a good idea. Wrestling those dangerous thoughts into submission is so exhausting, too, but I'm inspired by how deeply you think about it all. I hope you feel better soon, and that some positive change finds its way into your life that helps you forget what this chapter felt like.
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on minimalist sites and overhauling: although unintentional and definitely not always the case, minimalist aesthetics have slowly become synonymous with conservatism. i totally relate to the fear of being seen too. of course it's your site and you're free to do what you want with it, but imo your variety of writing pages and hobbies really give it character!
@limivars thank you so much! That means a lot. I think I know what you mean regarding minimalist aesthetics, and I’m not sure changing the site would even make me feel better lol. Just not sure how to resolve this pressure (tightness, stress, fear) of existing on the internet.
I don’t want to make my sight dimmer, but I guess sometimes I feel too loud and out there anyway, lol. I don’t know what to make of anything.
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truly a lifelong lesson, learning to take up space in the world (i also wanna hide from the world at times - comes in ebb and flow really)