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swiftred
11 months ago
Hey π A friendly note for this one-- I'm not looking for advice; just wanted to share this story about how my anxiety manifests.
badgraph1csghost
11 months ago
oh that is unsettling. those articles are written by analysts, rather than the people who actually experience the disorder. "it's nothing to worry about", yeah great, well how would YOU like it, sigmund?
swiftred
11 months ago
Lmfao, right. An extra dose of irrational anxiety for breakfast πππ No biggie π
transferns
11 months ago
ough i'm sorry. i unfortunately know what that's like but it is not fun at all... i hope you can find some way to lessen the frequency of those :/
soulbox
11 months ago
I hope it gets better soons. :c I've dealt with some prettty bad psychosis and also experienced some wild shit before and after sleeping. I don't have much to say in the way of treatment. Stress worsens it, though. Like nightmares, sometimes its a sign that I need to relax. Not that its easy lol but yeah.
draggianuniverse
11 months ago
Plus, in my experience, SIM cards are software-dependent, so I'm pretty sure that under most phone plans, a third party Android client wouldn't work as a phone. Which, like, I'm sorry, but "dephoning" is a lot of extra expense and e-waste and simply not practical. It's posturing, not an activist statement.
draggianuniverse
11 months ago
I looked into the "sustainable smartphones" before settling on Moto for being a relatively low-nonsense Android fork, but found that they don't work on reasonably priced North American phone plans, or in some cases, any at all. Plus if you need to order the replacement parts from overseas, that kinda removes the environmental benefit.
draggianuniverse
11 months ago
good news is that you should still be able to download things direct from APK if you load them in browser / on your desktop long as sideloading apps is enabled in phone settings, which even iOS still lets you do I think with direct download if you know where to look
draggianuniverse
11 months ago
I know that most android phones (even google pixel), you can open as drives and copy files directly to / from on Windows and Linux, so that's always an option as long as you can download APKs directly on desktop. hopefully APKMirror and pals step up to preserve emulators, F-Droid, etc.
draggianuniverse
11 months ago
if you want to be able to install apps straight from web browser, you should be able to enable "install unknown apps" or something of that sort in app settings for your browser of choice. you may need to also enable installing apps from APK in developer options depending on your specific phone model. on most droids, if you go into "about phone" and click the build number a bunch of times it'll enable developer option
draggianuniverse
11 months ago
Do we have a date for when the verification is happening, so folks know to install emulators etc. before then? (thinking about flappy bird getting kicked off the app store back in the day and the market in phones with it already installed)
draggianuniverse
11 months ago
while this indisputably sucks, since that's the main thing Android had over iOS, I suspect that direct APK downloads will continue to work indefinitely because of their importance to development, so get your faves onto APK Mirror and other databases if they aren't already!
discopotato2
11 months ago
Looks like it will be implemented september 2026 for users in Brazil, Indonesia, Singapore, and Thailand, then globally in 2027.
alvaniss
11 months ago
I felt like I needed to take it down. gonna bring it back some time in the future but for now it's better this way
badgraph1csghost
11 months ago
you're welcome swift ^^ it's hard to stay optimistic some days, but i try. im glad to know some of that optimism might be rubbing off on people, because we could all use a little hope for the future these days. π
miela583
11 months ago
Keeping your blog posts is impressive! I kept piles of notebooks worth of journals when I was living overseas, when I was not mentally doing my best, and had a friend in a different town where they burned trash dispose of them for me for max destruction. I know I should regret erasing that record, but it was fantastic. Anyway, this is probably a very bad comment, but I admire your resolve to keep things around!
swiftred
11 months ago
Thank you! <3 <3 On the contrary!! It means a lot. It's so on point, I used to have a very early blog post about how good I am at destroying things like diary entries and blog posts. But I did a lot of writing this year and it was valuable to me. I think if I were to put them back up, I would end up culling some of them... I don't know. I cringe at past me a lot. Sometimes destruction is the answer, I feel.
badgraph1csghost
11 months ago
that's a common thing in the legit detrans stories I read: the hormones didn't really help them with anything, it just made stuff more confusing, either for them or the people around them. i agree, living in a label-driven, mostly binary society truly sucks ass.
I feel this a lot. Since society mostly tends to want people into man/boy or woman/girl, non-binary people end up being boxed into people's "best guess" the vast majority of the time. Even though I'm probably somewhat non-binary, I don't like the label, and also although some other types of terms like demiboy and agender adjacent like terms seem to fit a bit better, none of them actually do. I prefer he/him though.
Also I don't pass lol, despite 2 years of testosterone, people just tend to refer to me as she/her or seem confused or act awkward or unsure when I tell them my preferred name (binary male sounding name). Kind of annoying but 2 years is still kinda early in the scheme of second puberty. I'm hoping I pass more than 10% of the time in future. I feel somewhat reassured I'm not the only one having similar thoughts.
It's possible people think I'm a trans woman though rather than a cis woman? I have no idea. I'll never know because my estimates of passing if purely based on the reactions of strangers. (sorry for the ramble just thought I'd share my thoughts!)
swiftred
11 months ago
@pixelgade It's more than welcome!! :) Thank you for sharing <3 Heh, and on the gauging passing thing-- sometimes I wish I could ask strangers flat out, "What do you see when you look at me???" But I also expressly don't want to know πππ because it may hurt my feelings lol
marufunland
11 months ago
also i js drew the concept art for the oc, hope u like it when im done!! <3
elite784
11 months ago
oh no i pushed an update early 12 hours ago... dont worry i'll fix In Due Timeβ’ (^^"
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