i love my website. not because it's good or anything but because it's a safe place (relatively, i know) (but it's the only space i can even pretend is safe) for me to express myself and meet people as myself without needing to mask who i am. i love this stupid little website. i love you guys. i love that some of you seem to like me. some of you have emailed me. i don't even know why. i don't think i deserve it