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lavender-cowboy
4 days ago
Also REALLY need to update gallery and hoard. Had very little motivation lately.
the-briar
1 week ago
That sounds terrifying. I'm glad you've been able to cling onto reality and I hope you can overcome it! I'm sorry for your recent loss. It just seems like things have been too much. :(
lavender-cowboy
1 week ago
Thank you for your comment! I could absolutely go more into depth on the subject especially with time passed, I've had a lot of time to think on it and many new experiences. I am still firm on not using GLP-1's. Whenever my mind thinks "maybe it would be easier than being my current weight" it feels like a resignation against myself.
lavendercola
1 week ago
Ugh, so relatable. I'd love to hear more of your thoughts on the topic if you're ever up to talk about it! feel free to email me at lavendercola@proton.me, but no pressure of course:)
defiantdandylion
2 months ago
Unfortunately heavily relate, still don't know if I have bpd but I was off the rails for a good few years, made me do stuff I look back on and it's like looking at a very different person. It can be somewhat excused cause I was going and when your young you don't have as much grasp on your emotions or the tools to know how to deal with things. But still feel bad for those I hurt. But anyway I relate alot to-
defiantdandylion
2 months ago
- the chameleon comment and struggle with identity, I still do now. Growing up I just took on the personality of those around me to fit in and belong because being alone was scarier than being with people I didn't even particularly like. Being different as well meant getting bullied but If you were with others that was less likely to happen. But because of that safety stuff I felt like I didn't really know who I was
defiantdandylion
2 months ago
Didn't know my hobbies or even my favourite colour and over the years I moulded myself more to accommodate to others, to be less controversial out of safety. But now Adays I try to be more challenging and confrontational and not care as much about fitting in just because I want to feel safe, when it's uncomfortable to pretend to be something I'm not. I'm still figuring out stuff out though but that's my ted talk
8ballreject
2 months ago
have you tried compressing them? i have the same problem for my archive so i will probably do that (again) oh well..
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I'm so sorry to hear about your friend and finding her killer's substack:( that would be rage inducing for anyone, and it would honestly make me spiral. props for at least getting him to not use his full legal name, but yeah, dude needs to shut up
@lavendercola Thank you, I appreciate your comment. He's got quite a few followers on that substack, too, there's comments on these posts saying it's "insightful," that he's "brilliant." makes it hard to not comment what exactly it is they're praising him for.