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cherrylotus
1 year ago
i wish i could hug you, blue. i don't know if this is weird to ask, but do you have access to therapy? i'm trying to start going now before i ruin myself over similar experiences. it's like you said in "Glaciers" — life doesn't slow down for us, but we choose how we respond to it, and that's how we grow.
velvetblue
1 year ago
ive thought about therapy a lot, but im still not sure if im ready to speak that intimately about my problems to someone irl like that. its just really tense, i guess. but, if im ever ready for it, ill try to give it a chance. thank you for the kind words as always, it means a lot to me <3
jamieos
1 year ago
I relate a lot to so much of this and the last entry as im going through very similar things. It's been comforting to know that I'm not the only one feeling similarly. And if anything, I hope maybe you can feel a little comfort not feeling alone too.
nerpa
1 year ago
UMM SOMETHING LIKE THAT YES! Basically when you follow someone and they follow you back (+ adding your button too/showing support) that classifies you as neighbours! :3
niicespiice
1 year ago
like im fake optimistic because i dont want to see other people complain about nothing. but in my heart im super negative and a bit spiteful actually
wiredphantom
1 year ago
now i feel like you are me and i am you .........i am feeling the same way in my college nowdays..........
cherrylotus
1 year ago
"Glaciers" was a beautiful read. could i ask what inspired that piece? i kind of interpreted it as life always moving, whether you want it to or not. you don't know where it'll take you, but you'll be forced to change along the way—like water to ice. And it's scary at first, but your growth leads you to something beautiful.
velvetblue
1 year ago
thats basically what its about actually!! ^^ it's meant to sound like someone having a realization that the pain they've endured helped them grow into who they are now, a beautiful person. the main inspirations were both my own personal experience, and a song named 'trial' by the pillows. it has a very winter-y tone to it, and the lyrics cover some pretty similar topics. im glad you enjoyed this one <3
cherrylotus
1 year ago
also, you're definitely not alone with your recent journal entry. it gets better though, and i really mean that ♡ also, my first impression of you was that you were a very genuine person, and i'm sure others see that too when they're around you.
cherrylotus
1 year ago
@blue sorry, i just take forever to think and type ToT i love that there's so much of your own experiences put into it though—that makes it much more beautiful. i've been meaning to find more jrock bands too, so that song was a nice surprise :) have a good day blue !!
niicespiice
1 year ago
nah i don't think it's petty to dislike people objectifying your work. "minor" things can affect people in major ways. it's like how when people listen to depressing japanese songs and say "Wow, this sounds to happy! If only it wasn't for the lyrics..." like I don't get how it sounds happy. In most cases, it's probably not meant to. It's just a weird interpritation that peoples' misery is "so kawaii xdxd"
monsieurdoll
1 year ago
i completely agree.. i've gotten a lot more stressed about how peole view my site. it feels like people just see it as an aesthetic instead of something i put work into, something that is like an extension of me almost
rotbrain
1 year ago
Man, that diary entry pulled some complicated feelings from deep within me, ones that I usually bury. But no, wanting to be truly seen, and not just simply looked at, is not hateful, spiteful, or bitchy.
rotbrain
1 year ago
Big agree on what niicespiice said, all these parts are not at odds with one another, they are part of the same whole.
rotbrain
1 year ago
I don't like your site *just because* there are bunch of pretty blinkling lights, and not *just because* there is a diary with a lot of venting, I like it because it feels like I'm stepping into someone's home, treating it any other way feels disrespectful.
rotbrain
1 year ago
At the end of the day, we have to hold those who earnestly try to see us for who we are close to us, and tell the others to kindly piss off.
inai
1 year ago
not bitter. i get you. theres a large crowd that scrubs the personality out of anything in favor of aesthetics; dont even read the words people write, just admire the layouts etc etc. i cant help but play with code and try to make things look nice, but sometimes it does certainly feel like thatll be the only thing that ever 'matters'
littlewren
1 year ago
I think it’s like when people only compliment appearance, but not character. Even if you changed your website to just a blank page I would still wait for updates, to know that you are well and for love to your poetry. Your layout it’s beautiful - it showcases your interests and hard work, but it’s not the best nor only part of velvetblue - you are.
hubbardian
1 year ago
I recently followed your site because I respected your site approach, but knew it and liked it even before that. I think there are more shy people like that than there are the kind of people you're talking about here. :)
niicespiice
1 year ago
also for the record, i don't care for the "old web revival" stuff. i look at neocities to see peoples' personal thoughts, but i don't care about it as some sort of "let's bring back the old internet." i don't LIKE modern social media but i also don't care about the old internet either, ykyk? they have their own flaws, and it feels very "owo im quirky," obsessing over retro things.
visualculture
1 year ago
when an artistic work is released to the public, it inevitably becomes an entity with a life of its own separate from its creator. this happens with novels, paintings, and yes websites. for better or worse, this is just the reality of art let out into the world
visualculture
1 year ago
i guess you just have to determine whether the good connections you make by going public outweigh the reactions you perceive as negative, and just enjoy the process of creation
rotbrain
1 year ago
I have a lot of mixed feelings about Neocities' social-media features (follows, view counts, stats, number of likes), and I could do without them, I've been thinking of dusting off my coding skills to make a userscript to hide that stuff.
rotbrain
1 year ago
However I do appreciate the message & comments feature, in some ways it feels like a slightly more exclusive guestbook, since you know that these are other webmasters who are more likely to appreciate and engage with what you put out, instead of passersby who are just in it for the c00l aesthetic.
soulbox
1 year ago
I understand. I'm conflicted about this too. I want my next web project to be a very personal thing for me. At the same time, I lament about how people are going to receive it. Eventually my website starts to feel awkward. Like I don't know where to put it. Or if I should host it anywhere at all.
soulbox
1 year ago
For everybody here, web design is another art form. Can't say the same for other people though. No matter what you do, just know that you have my support. Expressing yourself, especially like this, takes a lot.
rotbrain
1 year ago
reply to soulbox: I also used to feel conflicted about wanting to make my art for myself but also wanting it to be received well by others, I eventually landed on "creating not just for personal expression, but for communication, not to be liked by people, but to be understood", that mindset sort of resolved that for me, personally.
roybutty
1 year ago
While I don't usually reply to site updates, I do remember to check them every week. I don't think most people separate someone's personality and their site on here maliciously, but it is 100% valid to be frustrated at that. I love aesthetics as much as the next person, but it's really the authors' words and expression of themselves that ultimately makes me keep checking back in on their sites, including yours.
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