Latest Activity on Neocities
All the latest Neocities site news!
Neocities allows anyone to create a free web site to express themselves. Want to create your own awesome site? Join us!
13 likes
1 like
5 likes
Popular Tags
art music videogames programming anime games food personal writing cats blog movies books gaming fashion photography comics design animation horror game drawing coding manga arte portfolio furry reading ocs poetry cute technology musica kpop history education animals film programacion fun roblox literature sports philosophy html nature science programing tech videogame travel politics minecraft web gamedev retro school life videojuegos youtube cartoons computers love pokemon 2000s blogging diary video illustration fantasy pink dogs random comic idk gardening internet memes videos oc linux ai cooking test y2k queer kawaii nostalgia webcomic tv fandom arg journal aesthetic emo business worldbuilding news fanfiction crafts cars vocaloid media learning health films silly stuff space math fiction 90s cutecore website stories culture scifi etc arts cat painting football graphics journaling css homestuck baking punk marketing software goth crochet 3d lgbt commissions sanrio cinema sport pixelart archive psychology artist digitalart program dance diy me comida series shows makeup dnd characters trans funny metal religion graphicdesign lgbtq lifestyle creativity editing cool fanart entertainment aboutme indie clothes streaming rpg friends sonic development code javascript scene story webcomics plants roleplay guitar comedy languages rock everything weird electronics zines webcore ttrpg sewing study community aesthetics gay hacking reviews engineering cyberpunk webdesign beauty educacion basketball fnaf computer it originalcharacters informatica soccer weirdcore social vintage oldweb vtuber spirituality photos discord pets project deltarune blogs vaporwave architecture shop storytelling flowers clothing movie information coffee thoughts about language biology hobbies shopping undertale japan nintendo testing mlp cosplay magic html5 book lore creative fitness digital crypto radio money ttrpgs fandoms experimental nothing blinkies chat physics info alternative websites astronomy tecnologia singing cybersecurity site juegos japanese birds furries bugs wip witchcraft autism occult anything band finance other research tvshows crafting theatre resume futbol sleep television profile projects sleeping dolls lain personalwebsite moda gamedevelopment events work vr system linguistics vampires knitting genshin interests apps all photo yaoi fish gatos dreams ghchs splatoon transgender python webdevelopment free astrology meme carrd rap collecting aliens puzzle toys wiki fanfic mentalhealth developer app poems romance windows dancing coquette animations visualnovels pixels drawings cartoon fortnite english family robots frutigeraero dog bio stamps touhou tarot deportes animes gothic intro a marvel medicine skateboarding pizza essays security humor online gym modding gamedesign osc links hiking mathematics characterdesign adventure gyaru interactive data teaching fnf journalism dragons mystery no chess gallery roleplaying creepypasta lol hobby fansite zine puzzles rp jfashion objectshows zonelets birthday popculture gifs pixel yuri resources mythology twitch vkei musicals meow myself dreamcore home law ocean breakcore ffxiv traveling tf2 novels blender introduction audio scenecore piano peliculas jogos libros hiphop noise graphic privacy death bfdi recipes stars dark pjsk progamming danganronpa rpgs podcast style twine swag plushies ecommerce indiegames studying communism hellokitty shrine socialmedia paranormal robotics android production pictures activism car spanish omori awesome wrestling running bunnies foods none amor christianity utau pinterest jewelry boardgames lesbian lolita educational craft anarchism student cine vent electronic things deporte filmmaking volleyball god travelling girls unblocked misc songs scratch feminism grunge geography sharks 3dmodeling store designing mario webdev maths bitcoin dev clowns outdoors 80s blue old realestate computing doom jpop bl transformers dinosaurs collage pc vtubers environment brasil help images flash college stickers starwars jazz tools fotografia jesus acting java tumblr bts cafe creepy novel services chemistry trains construction event computerscience alt epic yoga baseball programar tea translation mcr escuela warriorcats plurality lego pastel cyber args collection theater retrogaming persona southpark multimedia manhwa whatever tcc videoediting yes therian programas programmer cozy horses pop js weed historia supernatural vlog monsters tabletop skating podcasts trading gamer medical truecrime weather forum f1 techno literatura tiktok miku draw people videography whimsy hardware girly otherkin shoes dc insects drama dj bsd estudiante cricket economics skincare green angels salud opensource socialism homepage enstars restaurant lgbtqia ecology search modeling learn freedom maps hi sound kirby ropa surrealism kandi turismo swimming ideas animales nerd digitalmarketing curso kidcore trinkets tattoos animanga vhs artwork text world petz kdrama filmes cleaning bible closedspecies halloween tourism conspiracy edm author cultura analysis hockey chatting depression service fishing 3dprinting healthcare shitposting sociology racing hardcore furniture academia cv videogaming brazil did egl homework surreal bands drugs sculpture sketching scary women friendship blockchain colors tennis rats knowledge frogs wedding hair eating mobile chill thrifting visualnovel plural general livros artes programa networking library sciencefiction aviation analog academic soft christian ambient creation practice writting gacha cryptocurrency genshinimpact society alterhuman informacion quotes anarchy server foss university tutorials programacao rpgmaker purple mods sites cryptids graffiti species truth ux water anthropology mangas estudio retrogames wellness glitch company ghosts sustainability batman erotica onepiece review programs bot medieval magazine webseries miriadax writer cycling nails jjba forsaken harrypotter conlang garden schoolproject esoteric theology css3 otaku yapping character live class google neocities tattoo talking rants 3dart noticias guns archives superheroes theory startrek kids ceramics unblockedgames camping building crocheting revival crime bikes instagram notes cards twitter cs animal advertising future disney vampire performance illustrations shitpost analoghorror church os rhythmgames french shrines lostmedia play blood idols industrial dating shoegaze decor spiderman articles evangelion creating meditation musicproduction viajes handmade house synthesizers originalcharacter liminal training kdramas chaos apple concerts youtuber ultrakill selfship interactivefiction frontend party content scrapbooking folklore voiceacting disability vlogs new desing terror sims seals communication jobs visualkei satire prompts animalcrossing crk embroidery mylittlepony designer vida vinyl datascience neopets silliness entretenimiento finalfantasy repair tareas exercise calculator poesia zelda doodles sanat vrchat tecnology shifting magick spooky tarea halflife facts quiz creatures joke paganism something marxism rainbow geek sweets rambling black islam developing cult commission hack download anthro vtubing overwatch cheese animating spiritual daily adhd kink beach jokes military musics hotel scp programmation creativewriting photoshop webring vegan miscellaneous mtg ranfren desarrollo underground bass arcane ia songwriting club conlangs happy tic zombies shoujo christmas private ar mha fanfics agriculture more php trabajo self projectsekai todo motorcycles productivity tamagotchi dandysworld doctorwho gender archival beginner glitter secret oldroblox studies mushrooms yugioh drinks tips mecha tokipona hetalia map edits oldinternet pet musician jeux 1 randomstuff cottagecore ciencia tokusatsu generator rave ui gossip dungeonsanddragons lofi vibes hosting red collections words faith programm stem cities
You seem to have a complex relationship with gender and sexuality. It might be good to evaluate why you feel that way about girls though, might be rooted in some internalized misogyny.
did I ghostwrite this
Yeah, a lot of what you wrote about wondering if you're not a girl because you're not pretty enough--this sounds like the result of the ridiculously high expectations society places on girls and women. That unless you do all the work of performing feminity with makeup, fashion, hairstyles, etc., you aren't really a girl. You are! You don't have to look like a model to be a girl.
No one fits that definition of girl unless they put in hours of work--that's a performance, not the natural state. You're still a girl. Girls don't have to be sought after, prizes to be won, or pretty little things set up to admire. You don't have to do what you don't want to do just to prove to the world or yourself you're a girl.
It sounds like you're looking for external validation because you're having trouble giving yourself that... I think it would be very good to read about objectification, the male gaze, etc., to understand how you may have internalized this from society and the media. Comparing yourself to other girls as if they're all competition is also an unfortuate part of how so many people raise their girls.
But if it makes you feel happier, you could *also* try to explore things that would make you feel happier and more comfortable with your appearance. Maybe a change in clothes or something else easy/not too labor-intensive or time-consuming (unlike makeup or hair, etc.), and dress a bit more like your ideal girl. If it comes naturally, maybe you just want that!
No matter what kind of bone structure, face, body type, there are nice and flattering styles to dress in, see the Kibbe body types. That said, even if they're a bit dated, reading The Beauty Myth by Virginia Woolf or Margaret Atwood's writing should give you perspective regarding the male gaze and the way industries profit off of women's insecurities.
... that's Naomi Wolf! Sorry, got the authors mixed up.
relate a bit to the straight girl thing. for some time i questioned whether or not i was faking being queer and all and i figured it out some time. i wish you luck on your self discovery and identity!