Neocities

3 years ago

I wonder if I would want to be understood or considered a funny person. I think for a while I really wished to be especially charismatic, like the archetypal wisecracking fellow you'd have introduced in an opening scene in some now-overly-nostalgiafied movie/TV show, but a few days ago I felt quite at peace with myself, with being on the quieter side and only occasionally (maybe once in a while) contributing ...

7 likes

yardonthirdstreet 3 years ago

... to the conversation and people laughing intensely. I think for a while I wanted so desperately to be considered an interesting person, someone people would talk about when they're not around, but now I wonder if I need chase the label or notion of "interesting" at all... boredom and boring is important too.

5 likes

yardonthirdstreet 3 years ago

I wonder if the search for "interesting" is similar to the way some feel towards "youth" and "beauty" — a few weeks ago I shared on the social media site of which will not be named that I'm excited to grow older, and today part of me wonders if that's my relative youth and naivety speaking.

5 likes

yardonthirdstreet 3 years ago

I think back to that comment someone left on a video, how their loved one grows so much more beautiful with age, and I feel content again.

5 likes

yardonthirdstreet 3 years ago

Time feels like it moves faster (or maybe it feels like you're moving faster in time) as you grow older because [xyz science and relativity], but is the Old Geezer trope, the jaded adult (start training early at 23! free trials with discount code PESSIMISTER22), the "drown my sorrows in coffee / alcohol" trope so prevalent also because we forget how to access wonder and awe? Because we forget how outright bonkers...

5 likes

yardonthirdstreet 3 years ago

... it is to be alive at all? (Insert 16 disclaimers about privilege, appropriately self aware statements covering all possible and fictional bases to ever exist)

5 likes

celebritymonkey 3 years ago

I think your site is very unique and interesting. I know validation from outsiders is probably not the solution, but I felt the need to say that I really like your design and I think it shows that your mind works in ways I wish to understand. I liked reading your thoughts.

2 likes

bmh 3 years ago

I've come to realise that watchable people on Youtube are generally charismatic and I've kind of wished I could present myself that way. In my head I'm interesting and funny, but presenting this to others regularly feels like hard work to me.

1 like

splattacks gnomes

3 years ago

hi again!! just wanted to let you know that i frequently have one of your weather pages open when i'm writing in my physical diary or just when i need to relax ^-^ it's like a little routine now. so thank you for them !!

4 likes

gnomes 3 years ago

oh my gosh, this made me smile so big! i'm so glad my weather pages can be relaxing for even one other person, that's seriously made my day! and also reminded me i need to work on that area of my site a little more, haha. thank you so much for writing to tell me this ;_; <3!! your site is one of my favourites on all of neocities, for real!

2 likes

splattacks 3 years ago

aaah thank you too !! T-T<3

1 like

kriemhilds aurelia-aurita

3 years ago

mash! thank you so much for the lovely comment in my guestbook <3 please!! let me know when you have your guestbook up and running! i want to leave a cute comment for your cute site too!

2 likes