Neocities

axayacatl

9 months ago

weird trauma response i have is claiming my spiritual experiences are fictional expressions after growing up in religion. it's not a fear of no one believing me as much as it is a fear of being banished by the world

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expressionless 9 months ago

do you have any advice for people who are growing up in those types of environments?

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axayacatl 9 months ago

@expressionless get in touch with your subconcious mind at all cost and experience raw reality. there will be many distractions along the way but keep persisting. *this* is the life you've been waiting for

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axayacatl 9 months ago

@expressionless also, meditate on the nature of occult vs cult vs culture. some information including your own experiences want to stay hidden because it's the nature of them. people cannot understand what they don't know, so abandon the desire to hold onto resentment. even at their worst everyone is trying their best. we're all just souls trying to survive

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expressionless 9 months ago

sorry for the late repllyy, I've been ruminating on what you've said for the past day and I think I've just gotten what you mean. I realised from what you said that forming compassion is so hard, but necessary in moving past the situation you face

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9 months ago

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axayacatl

9 months ago

i lost the usb for my scanner and cant afford a new one rn :((

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axayacatl 9 months ago

and i pulled the tower today, exciting things ahead

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axayacatl

9 months ago

websites are a lot like ARGs but the realities aren't scripted

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madesuki 9 months ago

Explaining the concept of real life: "It's like an ARG except it isn't alternate or a game."

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axayacatl 9 months ago

@madesuki i cant stop thinking about this this is so funny

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krystalspalace 9 months ago

your diary entries never cease to gut me and give me a profound feeling of emotion, I cant quite decipher what emotion but it's definitely there

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axayacatl 9 months ago

@krystalspalace it's love

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expressionless 9 months ago

"Everyday I still struggle with what is instead of what could have been" killed me. I think the two go hand in hand: "what is" hurts so much because it isn't "what could have been" :(

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axayacatl

9 months ago

an angel put a curse on me in my dream. hope your day is going better than mine

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axayacatl

9 months ago

i am more than 2 weeks weed free!!

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bigmanjames 9 months ago

Great news to hear, keep up the good work man.

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axayacatl yourcreativeblog

9 months ago

i really enjoy your blog post about vision boards! ˖ִ ࣪⚝ really cool to see more people openly blogging about the subconcious mind

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yourcreativeblog 9 months ago

thank youu! :3

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axayacatl

9 months ago

psychiatric industry has convinced people they have the right to diagnose strangers online, for some reason

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9 months ago

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axayacatl

9 months ago

i think working myself over becoming a specific kind of artist was working against me its silly to get so worked up over making drawings and strumming strings. things will b ok and then they wont and then they will again

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expressionless 9 months ago

Just like in life, there will be creative highs and lows. There's never any pressure to achieve all the time, so the best thing to do is to wait the lows out without any worry

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axayacatl

9 months ago

i had a peaceful day. if u are reading this u too have been cursed to have a peaceful day soon. my virus spreads

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tuffedthing 9 months ago

.. hopefully. . 😄 i have shift tonight so hopef ully….

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expressionless 9 months ago

just one peaceful day is all I need 🙏

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axayacatl

9 months ago

just realized a girl was flirting with me at the museum the other day im going to lay down and die now

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bigmanjames 9 months ago

Every single time a girl has ever flirted with me, it has taken weeks to years to realize. Many such cases indeed

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axayacatl aforest

9 months ago

hey fiendling do you have a main site? i know this site is a project for you but i love the catharsis of your writing and wanted to know if you have one place where we can keep up with everything you end up making

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aforest 9 months ago

hi!! I do have a new site that I am working on (which is kinda my main site now) :) It's not particularly artistic, rather an open diary for people to explore. The link is https://expressionless.neocities.org/

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aforest 9 months ago

Thank you for checking in by the way, means a lot <3

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axayacatl

9 months ago

websites with recipes are so cute i was thinking of doing that but tbfr i eat like a doomsday prepper

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bigmanjames 9 months ago

If a recipe has more than 8 ingredients my head explodes. I don't believe in 1/2 Tsp. Coriander Seed (Whole).

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