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pondering

11 months ago

I am very tired. I hope I may rest easy.

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saltuarium updated The Menagerie

11 months ago

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pondering

11 months ago

I would cry out for a savior so much that I eventually learned that if I wanted to be saved, then I must save myself; so I would put in the effort that no one else would give me because I cared, I really truly cared and loved; but then it began to hurt too much that I had to step back and breathe and think. I want to believe that I did what I could to be kind.

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wraithglade

11 months ago

Besides the planned updates for today, I also have a request for the community and/or my readers: What do you think of the items I have on my Payhip and Ko-fi, such as the new texture pack and my books? So far, nobody is actually buying them directly from me (though a few probably went to Amazon for the books to do so) and I am wondering why. Do you guys not trust Payhip or Ko-fi? Just not interested in the items?

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wraithglade 11 months ago

All of the items I have available are widely useful and/or deeply interesting and effortful. I have: (1) a massive research textbook in formal logic, (2) a small and broadly applicable game dev book, (3) an indie license agreement that is more flexible and useful than Creative Commons, and (4) a massive 500 seamless texture pack that could be applied to countless different things. All of these are very widely useful.

wraithglade 11 months ago

Moreover, all of the items are also extremely cheap as of the current costs I've set for them. I also supposedly receive views ranging from ~25 to 300 per day from Neocities and yet the numbers don't seem to add up in terms of analytics on the other sites, not even accounting for how low "conversion rates" are across the whole web. So, that has struck me as quite odd for a long while now. Any thoughts on that?

wraithglade 11 months ago

I like the Neocities community and the strength in numbers it potentially provides, but without the ability to trace where the views are coming from I have become increasingly skeptical of the nature of them and have begun to think of my view count as essentially a random number generator with no connection to reality. I like the community here, but I am afraid I may soon need to move someplace with real site stats.

badgraph1csghost 11 months ago

i manually counted the number of images on my homepage (currently the page with the highest number of images since i disabled my gallery) and the numbers don't add up. it says on the stats tracker that if a page has 6 files, 6 hits will be counted, but the hit count is WAY too low assuming people are coming in through my index page. i'm not even a subscriber and my numbers make no sense.

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wraithglade 11 months ago

Thanks for the info badgraph1csghost. 😎 It's always good to hear from you. I hadn't even thought about the image loading inconsistencies but was largely fixated on inconsistencies in traffic numbers associated with links on my site that do (unlike Neocities) have a greater degree of analytics or at least different data sets. It still doesn't make a lot of sense. Either way though, I'll need to find a way forward.

wraithglade 11 months ago

I picked quite an inopportune time to try to start making a living on the internet it feels like. Either that, or I just haven't found a good approach to getting more real traffic yet. I'll just have to keep making new attempts and alterations until I get there I guess. Perhaps I am just clueless about what most people do. I do somewhat "live under a rock" and am often swamped trying do so many different things.

wraithglade

11 months ago

I've done some reorganizing of the "My Creations" page today and I think you will find it clearer and easier to navigate. One section was split in two and another new section is added and will recieve its first entry soon. I've also added a link to my index page for a charity I support and regularly donate to (The National Forest Foundation).

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rottiedollheart updated rottie dollheart's homepage

11 months ago

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rottie dollheart's homepage

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pondering

11 months ago

I want to die. I was trying so hard to be good, to do good. People I thought were my friends, who would be patient and understand me called me an asshole and saying I should get lashed over something I genuinely did not know I did wrong. And I don't know what to do. I don't know how to repent other than die like they want me to. I don't know.

pondering 11 months ago

I'm so sad. I was sad over losing my friendship with them. And then they were so quick to hate me. So quick to say I should get beaten. It's like we were never friends. I would have never thought that of them. I was just so sad to lose them. It's all my fault

pondering 11 months ago

If I went away for good, will they finally be happy? All I ever wanted was for them to be happy.

pondering 11 months ago

I often think about how careful I was at choosing christmas gifts for them. Some were easy, some were not. One was a garfield doll, a vintage one. I bought it for her because I remembered how much she loved garfield, how much comfort it gave her. I remember the time when I streamed the garfield cartoon for her so she may feel better. It made me so happy to be there for her like that

encounters-ltd 11 months ago

i know i've not heard of you or your website until now, and that i don't have a full understanding of your situation, but please, please don't harm yourself. self harm is not the answer.

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wraithglade updated Wraith Glade: The Intersection of Creativit...

11 months ago