Latest Activity on Neocities
All the latest Neocities site news!
Neocities allows anyone to create a free web site to express themselves. Want to create your own awesome site? Join us!
1 like
1 like
do you ever just look at an unfinished page on your site and go "when are they gonna finish this.." and then you just "wait that's me"
yeah that's what I'm feeling rn
2 likes
first of all, i really enjoy how you write. there's something raw and real to it, something that i really admire in a writer, and something i see you value as well. personally, i feel that it doesn't matter whether you're 'good' at writing or not- as long as you're expressing yourself, finding that catharsis that you need in creation, isn't that all that matters?
3 likes
denpatenshi
2 years ago
i think we approach writing in different directions, and with that, there's something i can learn from you and your approach. i used to never be satisfied in expressing myself, i've always felt the need to turn it into something poetic, weave something out of it, like you said. and i think there's a power in expressing it in metaphors and allusions, exploring the full extent of how you feel and how it affects you.
3 likes
denpatenshi
2 years ago
but sometimes, i find a form of catharsis in just plainly saying that "i am sad" too. the example you shared is something i felt almost constantly when i was younger, feeling simultaneously unimportant and too important at the same time. i think eventually, it comes to a point where no amount of descriptors can describe that piercing agony. there's value in both, and it ties into emotional honesty and vulnerability.
2 likes
denpatenshi
2 years ago
i think this ended up devolving into a ramble ten minutes in- but, i enjoyed your entry, i enjoy your blog, and i'm looking forward to seeing more of your site!
2 likes
alicebluef0f8ff
2 years ago
Thank you so much for your kind words <333. I also think i can learn from your approach to writing too :) . I definitely get caught up in the details & the language a lot of the time, and sometimes miss the underlying emotion (shoutout english not being my first language).
alicebluef0f8ff
2 years ago
I think neither ways of writing are any worse than the other, and they're both important in their own ways. In fact, there is nothing more refreshing seeing someone saying how they feel outright sometimes, especially when you're in that same mood. I've read books that are written like masterpieces, each line expertly crafted & each chapter a revelation. But it completely falls flat compared to feeling seen by another
alicebluef0f8ff
2 years ago
a blogpost about the same condition you have. All words have their place, and their time. I also look forward to seeing more of your site :)
alicebluef0f8ff
2 years ago
(also i really liked your muse post! the part about being your own voyeur ever since childhood... i'm glad you put it to words cause it really resonated with me.)
your comment on my response made my absolute day- i'm glad that my writing struck a chord in you! your writing is wonderfully theatrical- it captures well the idea of being a conduit for words, rather than the conductor. i understand the feeling of feeling like the words carry you rather than the other way around.
2 likes
denpatenshi
2 years ago
it feels almost religious, in the way one is humbled before divinity, fearful and yet brave enough to do so anyway. it's really hard to write, especially when you feel like what you have to say or how you have to say it isn't good enough. but i, for one, am looking forward to more of your magical writing. ☺
2 likes
swiftred
2 years ago
Oh my, I feel overwhelmed! This made my whole week. I squealed with joy as I read it. It means the absolute world to me that you took the time to say what you said. To have my writing be described as magical, theatrical, and almost religious? What a gift you've given me. I'm glad my writing was evocative of something. Thank you thank you thank you!!
2 likes
im planning to be more active on here and i have a lot of stuff planned :)! gonna try and finish my most recent page today
4 likes
5 likes
i loved every second i was reading your first response to the writing club prompt. writing as an extension of thought and wanting to think of something new is something i can relate to all too well. the mundane is so hard to write about, but i'm glad to find someone who finds beauty in it, the inherent surrealism of day-to-day life, especially in this day and age.
2 likes
denpatenshi
2 years ago
a quote i really resonated with was this: "one yearns for a new kind of pain, new kinds of ambiguities, that force the mind to confront other possibilities." sometimes, other people succintly put into words an idea you had no clue on how to capture. i really enjoyed your insight- and your commentary on mou tun-fei intrigues me. i never really thought about creation through abstract theory, but it sounds magical.
1 like
denpatenshi
2 years ago
creation on the foundation of interpretation and original thought- i think it ties everything together well. writing as a conduit for understanding the workings of one's mind and ideas. thank you for sharing. i feel seen through you. ♥ can't wait to see your response next week!
1 like
saddleblasters
2 years ago
Thank you so much for reading! When I wrote that yesterday, I had just finished Kazushi Hosaka's "Plainsong", which has character he mentions that as a kid he wanted to be a novelist, but that he gave up on it to become a filmmaker because writing always has to be about something, whereas when making a film you can just turn the camera on when talking to friends and let it captures what it captures.
saddleblasters
2 years ago
The paradox was that Hosaka's novel somehow also manages to feel like a camera dropped into the lives of its characters, capturing glances at their daily routines and snippets of their conversations without making it about anything. Seeing him so successful at it makes me wish I could be a camera — some kind of psychological camera, that captures more than just light, that somehow meditates without judging.
saddleblasters
2 years ago
I read your response as well, and you mention that your writing has shifted from fantasies about other lives to more directly confronting reality. But I don’t think there needs to be a conflict between the two. I think that in recording and contemplating our reality, we can still meditate on our fantasies and why they exist inside of us. The contrast between fantasy and reality can allow us to look at both closer.
saddleblasters
2 years ago
This is one of those things that we could both spend thousands of words writing about, so I’ll leave at that for now. Anyways, it just passed midnight here. I’m not sure what time zone you’re in, but happy new year!
100 followers :-) thank you dearly for listening to me yap 24/7......and if someone unfollows and it goes down to 99 this will be really embarrassing haha. read little busters!
8 likes
Popular Tags
art music videogames programming anime games food personal writing cats blog movies books gaming fashion photography comics design animation horror game drawing coding arte manga portfolio furry reading ocs poetry cute technology musica kpop history education animals film fun programacion roblox literature sports philosophy html nature science programing tech videogame travel politics minecraft web gamedev retro school life love videojuegos youtube cartoons computers 2000s pokemon blogging diary video illustration fantasy pink dogs random idk comic gardening internet videos memes oc cooking linux ai y2k queer test kawaii nostalgia webcomic tv arg fandom journal aesthetic emo worldbuilding business news cars crafts fanfiction vocaloid media learning films health silly stuff space math fiction website cutecore 90s stories culture etc arts scifi cat painting football journaling graphics baking css homestuck punk marketing goth software crochet 3d lgbt commissions cinema sanrio psychology sport archive pixelart artist program digitalart diy dance me shows series comida makeup dnd characters funny trans metal religion lgbtq graphicdesign creativity lifestyle editing cool fanart indie aboutme entertainment clothes streaming rpg friends sonic code development javascript scene plants story webcomics roleplay comedy guitar languages rock everything weird zines electronics sewing webcore ttrpg study community gay aesthetics engineering reviews hacking cyberpunk beauty webdesign educacion basketball fnaf it originalcharacters computer soccer informatica vintage social weirdcore oldweb spirituality vtuber photos discord pets deltarune blogs project architecture vaporwave storytelling shop flowers clothing movie coffee information thoughts biology language hobbies undertale about shopping japan nintendo mlp testing cosplay magic lore book creative fitness html5 digital radio ttrpgs money crypto fandoms nothing experimental blinkies chat physics alternative info websites astronomy tecnologia site singing cybersecurity juegos birds japanese bugs wip furries witchcraft anything research autism occult band other finance crafting theatre tvshows sleep personalwebsite sleeping resume futbol dolls moda television projects profile gamedevelopment lain events work vr system knitting all vampires genshin interests linguistics photo yaoi apps fish gatos transgender dreams splatoon ghchs webdevelopment astrology meme python free rap collecting wiki romance puzzle fanfic carrd poems mentalhealth toys aliens developer windows frutigeraero app pixels dancing animations drawings coquette cartoon visualnovels stamps bio fortnite family animes robots english tarot gothic dog marvel touhou deportes intro a essays pizza skateboarding medicine gym modding humor gamedesign osc security online links hiking interactive characterdesign teaching adventure gyaru journalism chess mystery mathematics data dragons fnf roleplaying gallery no hobby puzzles creepypasta zine lol rp fansite popculture objectshows jfashion yuri birthday resources zonelets musicals pixel mythology gifs twitch vkei myself ocean dreamcore meow home traveling law blender breakcore novels audio jogos tf2 piano introduction peliculas ffxiv libros hiphop recipes scenecore noise pjsk death graphic privacy dark bfdi stars style progamming danganronpa podcast rpgs indiegames communism swag plushies twine studying robotics ecommerce shrine socialmedia paranormal hellokitty production amor android pictures activism car wrestling spanish awesome none omori christianity running utau foods pinterest bunnies jewelry craft cine lesbian boardgames things student educational electronic lolita filmmaking volleyball songs deporte vent anarchism god unblocked travelling girls misc scratch grunge geography designing feminism outdoors dev maths 3dmodeling mario webdev sharks blue store old clowns realestate bitcoin 80s brasil bl computing dinosaurs collage jpop environment doom transformers pc images tools vtubers college help stickers starwars jazz acting novel flash fotografia creepy alt tumblr cafe services bts jesus construction event chemistry java yoga trains computerscience tea baseball epic programar theater plurality args translation mcr cyber warriorcats collection escuela lego multimedia pastel manhwa persona vlog retrogaming whatever programmer videoediting southpark horses pop supernatural historia therian yes cozy programas tcc f1 trading weed gamer js monsters podcasts whimsy videography skating draw medical techno tabletop truecrime weather forum tiktok literatura miku dc hardware people drama dj girly otherkin insects bsd shoes cricket skincare socialism economics green estudiante kandi angels search lgbtqia homepage ecology restaurant freedom learn opensource sound enstars salud swimming maps modeling surrealism kirby hi filmes nerd ideas ropa turismo animales digitalmarketing tattoos vhs trinkets cleaning curso animanga world kidcore artwork kdrama text bible edm petz analysis service closedspecies cultura conspiracy author tourism halloween healthcare chatting sociology 3dprinting hockey shitposting fishing depression hardcore academia furniture racing videogaming egl brazil homework cv drugs women did surreal sculpture sketching tennis bands thrifting livros knowledge colors friendship scary rats wedding eating programa hair frogs general blockchain plural library networking artes chill visualnovel mobile analog creation ambient programacao aviation writting genshinimpact christian academic sciencefiction alterhuman purple university gacha soft sites practice tutorials society anarchy cryptocurrency mangas quotes server informacion foss mods ux wellness graffiti truth rpgmaker glitch retrogames estudio water species anthropology medieval company webseries cryptids ghosts cycling nails onepiece sustainability forsaken writer batman bot erotica programs garden review magazine talking jjba harrypotter otaku esoteric miriadax rants schoolproject conlang 3dart tattoo ceramics theology yapping class neocities kids archives live character css3 guns startrek building google noticias superheroes theory instagram bikes unblockedgames crocheting camping performance vampire disney notes future illustrations church animal crime revival analoghorror play cards twitter cs os shitpost blood shrines industrial chaos meditation decor spiderman french liminal concerts rhythmgames lostmedia advertising house handmade creating evangelion musicproduction idols articles dating shoegaze training apple viajes originalcharacter kdramas content selfship synthesizers youtuber scrapbooking terror seals vida ultrakill folklore frontend party disability crk voiceacting interactivefiction visualkei sims vlogs new communication animalcrossing prompts desing vinyl doodles mylittlepony jobs zelda embroidery designer calculator satire exercise quiz poesia sanat datascience neopets silliness joke entretenimiento repair paganism tareas spooky vrchat finalfantasy marxism magick tecnology facts sweets creatures shifting halflife something islam rainbow tarea vtubing rambling programmation black animating commission geek hack cult cheese developing spiritual vegan musics daily military scp anthro overwatch adhd jokes download kink creativewriting beach mtg miscellaneous webring underground ranfren ia photoshop happy zombies hotel shoujo mha conlangs bass desarrollo songwriting fanfics club arcane ar more hetalia oldinternet tic studies private vibes christmas dandysworld programm trabajo todo self agriculture secret php tamagotchi glitter gender motorcycles yumeship jeux ui yugioh productivity archival doctorwho projectsekai randomstuff beginner pet edits musician mecha mushrooms tips map stem 1 tokusatsu drinks oldroblox videgames lofi gossip ciencia hosting cottagecore rave tokipona generator dungeonsanddragons blackmetal collections cities
a fellow academic writer! academic and creative writing are so different, aren't they... it's so difficult to juggle between those two tones, and i'm glad that you're giving yourself a space to be free when you write. you're right- time really does make everything fine. maybe time will make you feel more confident in sharing your stories with the world. ☺
i Totally understand the feeling of hating what you write. was putting up a few writing pages and physically cringed at my 2022 pieces.. it's hard, but disliking what we write is often part of the process. wishing you the ability to see what you want to improve & feel proud of yourself instead of upset you aren't perfect :]