sometimes i pull up a photo of an ex just to prove to myself i was seen like that once. i've gotta stop doing that, especially because my camera roll doesn't reset to recent photos by default, i...took a look at someone from a few years ago last night, and i opened my phone again this morning and whaddya know? there he was again. the photo, i mean. i know, i've really gotta stop that. if i hadn't done it last night,
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though, i would've done something worse. i feel like complete shit. i hate myself and everything else. nothing's notably worse and things might finally be getting better if i stop being lazy, but i just feel awful. hell. i need other ways to prove to myself i'm a real person.
....i mean, even he wouldn't want me to do that. i've gotta find another way.
We luv you, find a picture of some flowers and look at that pls. It's okay to hurt.
what's your favorite flower? ...is it the lotus? i'll look at that.
mine is the goldenrod. kinda basic but i love it.
basic is okay (nothing is basic, everything is). i like dandelions