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axayacatl

1 year ago

i made a webpage that lets you use your monitor as a lightbox for drawing. you can check it out xxxtras > lightbox ! im in the middle of making it cuter as i post this lol

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axayacatl

1 year ago

i b fucking with bananas

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dragontalez 1 year ago

yo bananas are the shit

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1 year ago

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axayacatl 1 year ago

sobriety and self forgiveness

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axayacatl

1 year ago

my least favorite take in the arts is criticizing a work for being "edgy shock factor with no substance" imagine going up to a drawing of a smiling flower and saying "mindless toxic positivity dribble". this has always bothered me its so hypocritical

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axayacatl 1 year ago

how are people even defining substance? are things that do not illicit positive feelings void of substance? i feel that motivates the arts to be a form of consumption instead of experience

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

*hides doodle of smiling flowers on art page*...I joke, but the implied quaternary there is interesting: 1. All shock, no substance 2. Toxic positive, no substance 3. Tragic, but meaningful 4. Hopeful, but deep...Rarely is anything so rigidly defined though. 1 and 3 can overlap, 2 and 4 can overlap, and opinions differ depending on who you ask. Lol

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

And therein lies the distinction: Opinions often differ from experience. A piece could be deeply meaningful to the "artist", but mean absolutely nothing to a "critic", or maybe even elicit a repulsion in them. One's feelings about a piece can also change as they hear an "artist" explain their work, or when they learn more about the "artist" themselves.

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

All personal perceptions and preferences, especially in someting as interpretive as "art". The nuances make things interesting don't they? :D

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axayacatl 1 year ago

it does and i think about a lot how the audience is part of the experience of art in the micro and macro even the internet as the audience changes how we interpret a piece. i'd go as far to say other external elements including price change interpretation. i think there is something to be said about embracing all elements of the experience outside of black and white, and even accepting (cont.)

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axayacatl 1 year ago

our morals and feelings of disgust and misery as part of this "substance" that is sought after. art is powerful because it summons and invokes things. i think people tend to rob themselves of the "substance" they seek by seeing themselves as separate from it

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

Indeed. We could say the same about the relationship between judgment and compassion in general. Condemnation makes one indifferent to another's suffering and simultaneously becomes a repression of one's own.

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axayacatl

1 year ago

sometimes i post sketches on bluesky that i don't post here either right away or at all, my blsky domain is the same as my neocities if youre interested ⛧_< link is also in my about page

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axayacatl

1 year ago

if ur interested in a 20 dollar character sketch commission hmu through my email ! need the $ so i can get my guitar out of the shop for neck repairs

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axayacatl 1 year ago

my zine "the resin" is also still available on itch.io for 5 smeckles

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1 year ago

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axayacatl 1 year ago

my self care routines

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

Careful reflection upon virtue brings Self-awareness, and each moment presents an opportunity to act from that constructiveness. Thus, life itself becomes a meditation...heh, I sound like a fortune cookie.

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

Personally, "a fool focuses on what he lacks, while the wise accomplish much with little," is a lesson that I continue to learn. I do not want to squander or take for granted even the seemingly smallest of treasures, like time.

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

...Anyhoo, thank you for sharing your thoughts and routines! Helpful stuff.

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axayacatl 1 year ago

@letslearntogether i agree on your take! i think a reflective life is the core of mindfulness. i think it's good to fully saturate yourself in the present by falling into the mind and body, meditation helps me open up neural pathways that make that easier on a day to day

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axayacatl mental-labour

1 year ago

can u recommend me a book to read tht u think i'd enjoy

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mental-labour 1 year ago

i'd have to see what books you like first lol

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axayacatl 1 year ago

i want to read something that feels like i am living in a medieval plague either literally or esoterically

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mental-labour 1 year ago

Hard to Be a God but you might actually like the film more

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sleepydawgs 1 year ago

@mental-labour that movie is insane

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

Haha! Mission accomplished. That is the most accurate recommendation I've ever seen.

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axayacatl

1 year ago

im rlly pleased with my progress in traditional art after a year it's making me want to keep going

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axayacatl

1 year ago

i am looking at you thru ur webcam. u look nice today. i've posted a new drawing

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axayacatl 1 year ago

+ took down the last one it was just too personal

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axayacatl

1 year ago

hehehehe hahaha haha!! teeheehee

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mental-labour 1 year ago

real

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labyrinth-limbo 1 year ago

heard

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axayacatl

1 year ago

blue period is my favorite ongoing manga rn it really pushes me to go against the odds

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

On blog of the 23rd: Fantastic insight about apologizing in public! Any action that is performative, done simply to be seen, often seems to lack sincerity doesn't it.

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

Is it because, rather than true reconciliation, it seeks to inflate one's own ego through other's pity or praise? While intentions should not be assumed, they can often be felt, for intentions influence the quality of the actions extending from them.

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

I strongly agree that forgiveness can be freeing for both the giver and receiver when they are genuine. However, I also think that it is important to be able to let go when one feels like they are "owed" an apology, to "close the loop" as you so eloquently put it.

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

While I desire to give mercy for its own sake, I also do not want to be taken advantage of. Finding that balance has been tricky...and misplaced trust can literally be dangerous or deadly.

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

On blog of the 24th: While much lies outside of our control, there is incredible power in every choice that we make. What is the vision that you have for your own life and what constructive steps are you taking to get there?

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

Sometimes rejection can be a blessing in that it keeps us from situations where we will not be genuinely appreciated. Inversely, being lusted after is to be objectified, not actually cared for. Both situations feel like garbage.

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

You are strong, discerning, aware...not to mention, your art is cool. Your miracle(s) will come. Be steadfast in those constructive ways.

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axayacatl 1 year ago

@letslearntogether thank u for ur feedback i can tell a lot of thought went into it. on being objectified the pressure cooker feeling it leaves in the air keeps me independent. it leaves me feeling thankful for my talents in a way i never have as there is this sudden need to constantly humanize myself for no reason other than my own sanity

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

Not so much feedback as it is dialogue. I enjoy what you write and I try to show everyone care whenever I am aware enough to do so...Sis, you will never be anything less than human. Likewise, all human beings deserve dignity, so you have nothing to prove. To express gratitude for one's skills and to carefully hone them in order to help everyone in addition to oneself is always good though.

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letslearntogether 1 year ago

Also, you are already sane. We simply live within an insane society...But of course, I state this as a feral man-beast living out in the wilderness at the edge of the city. Society is filled with that "pressure cooker" feeling in various guises. I had to get away from it, even if it meant being homeless. Yet my love of humanity kept me engaged so that I might help to transform it in some small measure.

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axayacatl

1 year ago

i went on an apology tour and wrote about it in my latest diary entry, lmk what u think if u read it

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