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ocrevol
8 months ago
I don't mind if you screenshot, I do remember where I saw it but would take some digging to find the actual post
ocrevol
8 months ago
(continuing the thread here) tbh I'm probably being a lil too mean re: Pete Walker I think he's a good guy with some good advice but the book has got some triggering elements for sure + yeah very therapy focused, which has not er been very helpful for me anecdotally either
swiftred
8 months ago
Ah, understood! And thank you for commenting on this, by the way :) I've been delighted, and your voice is very much valued
mustikas
8 months ago
resonates with me soooo muchhhhh. i often feel "too explicit" for the most of online spaces. like there's a "bourdary" of negativity i can talk about. i mean, on personal pages and accounts. even if i put tw, i still feel...... strange and anxious. THANK YOU for writing this
swiftred
8 months ago
@mustikas I write this as much as a persuasion to myself as well. I still get freaked out sharing, feeling like I’m not allowed to be “too” mentally ill in a public space (online) even though it is my personal website, mirroring what you said.
vesperings
8 months ago
Had a lot of fun reading through your word collection and testing how they felt spoken.
badgraph1csghost
8 months ago
My goal in life is to be everyone's cool lesbian auntie (something something japanese twitter)
badgraph1csghost
8 months ago
Also, one of the things I had to really teach myself when i was planning my site was: if I don't write about me, who will?
swiftred
8 months ago
Thank you, Tina :) I'm going to remember that for the future. You've eased my mind some.
ocrevol
8 months ago
re:44 reminds me of a post I saw the other day that said "sick people should have a right to congregate and discuss our illness without worrying about doing it in a way that doesn't upset the healthy people, it shouldn't be shameful or offensive to be visibly ill""
ocrevol
8 months ago
also i lol'd at the surviving the thriving reference man I was told to read that book a few months ago and while it was eye opening in some regards it was exceptionally unhelpful in others and I found myself overall wishing I had skipped it and read psychomagic instead
swiftred
8 months ago
@ocrevol I really enjoy the quote you shared and I agree with it wholeheartedly. I feel like I've been hurting lately, not entirely feeling there's an acceptable place to be visibly ill-- but that may be more self-imposed than anything, I'm not sure though.
swiftred
8 months ago
And, hah, I forgot that was the title of the book. I have it on a shelf and wanted to get back to it, actually. I feel "going from surviving to thriving" has become a sort of colloquial phrase and is expected of us, otherwise we're doing life wrong. I did find Pete Walker's '13 Steps for Managing Flashbacks' on his website to be insightful, so I hope to find good stuff in the book. Not in the mood to read it rn tho
swiftred
8 months ago
New page for Persona 3 Reload screenshots, rawr. Take a look at it if you're cool ;3
niicespiice
8 months ago
i wanna play this game so badly but i dont know where to find it. thats not like reload which costs a billion dollars
niicespiice
8 months ago
35: perhaps the world is just a forest. sometimes there is a gap where the light comes through. sometimes there are so many trees you cannot see anything. but there is no exit from the forest like people proclaim. there's just different ways to process it (COUGH COUGH AVE MUJICA COUGH COUGH sorry hyperfixation got me there)
inkcaps
8 months ago
WOW the art for the Death Note inspired deck is so cool!! And not gonna lie, I'm really tempted by that oracle deck too, it looks so fun!
swiftred
8 months ago
Right?? I was really digging that artist's work, then I saw that Death Note deck in their shop! The oracle deck is cute, appeals to the inner child (and girlhood imo), if you subscribe to that sort of thinking. Been meaning to write a description for each deck, that one included. Haven't gotten much use out of it yet. It's almost too positive for me, lol.
miela583
8 months ago
Coffee makers deserve thanks. Mine gurgles when I take too long to finish a pot on a work from home day, and I imagine it is pouting at being ignored.
saddleblasters
8 months ago
What you wrote in the edit to #37 is so true. The "meaning" of the past is never fixed. Maybe this is a corny metaphor, but if we imagine the past as soil and ourselves as plants growing out of it, in the short term it might seem the soil is always static and only plants change, but in the long term, the plants break down rocks in the soil, insert nutrients (or use them up) and so on.
saddleblasters
8 months ago
I encountered this quote from the historian E. H. Carr in the epigraph to Hua Hsu’s (excellent!) book Stay True: “Only the future can provide the key to the interpretation of the past; and it is only in this sense that we can speak of an ultimate objectivity in history. It is at once the justification and the explanation of history that the past throws light on the future, and the future throws light on the past.”
wichitalk
8 months ago
tech rules rule (for lack of a better word), and i love the noticing page. both in terms of design and observations. reminds me of this quote that reality will suprise you if you pay attention to it. really cool to hear your thoughts on tech and you're right - we can just keep picking ourselves up again <3
phi1l1y
8 months ago
Deeply relating to your 37th microblog; my family dynamic sounds very similar to yours , unfortunately for the both of us. I recently found out my sister is having another baby through the grapevine , as she has not spoken a word to me in months, and while my father lamented over it.. I found I didn't care much! If there's little seed planted, there's even littler Grief to sprout. Love from another black sheep..
niicespiice
8 months ago
ngl i havent seen enough media to see EITHER a trans struggle story or a trans instant acceptance story /srs. i have only seen characters that aren't properly confirmed trans but vaguely implied
ocrevol
8 months ago
re:33, this was part of my impetus to create my trans books page. even as someone who enjoys horror and otherwise dark/fucked-up stories, it's really disappointing that transphobia (external or internal) is so often the main conflict any time a trans character is featured. many authors don't seem to grasp that transphobia is an ADDITIONAL problem that trans people have to deal with, not the ONLY problem
ocrevol
8 months ago
I was so blown away when I watched Talk to Me (2022) and it featured a character that was openly transmasc and this was treated as a non issue. They were just another character in the film, in their own words "not a theme, just a person"
niicespiice
8 months ago
in terms of my own story, the main character is nonbinary and depending on your reading you can see how this impacts their sense of isolation. however their story isn't really explicitly about being trans, it's about a bunch of other things instead. it's just a background element. so i suppose it's being accepted..? but they're lonely so hmm
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very relatable about the "i COULD rest but i don't want to" thing. like people say stuff like "take a break when you want." i hate that, they don't understand at all. because if i let myself at the very least have excuses like that, i'll never do anything. i'd rather work until i'm drained and forcibly must rest, that's probably the best option
Lol, yes same 😭😭. I also hate when people tell me to take a break. If I took a break whenever I was tired, it’d be 90% breaks 😐
i think it's a very "not mentally ill" take to have? because they don't understand mentally ill people they assume we're exactly like them, even though our tolerance is FAR FAR lower. so because of that they go "take a break when you want" and it's like. yeah. i do that and i get called "lazy" or "wasting my life" so what do you guys want 😭