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I revamped the entire dream diary experience + added visuals to one dream (27-10-2025) + one new dream about returning to an old home that never existed

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two strange, lore-heavy dreams

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People will literally put anything in my guestbook why tf is emmanuel macron there

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i kept putting off updating this, because I've been writing so much and i just keep having to paraphrase reviews I've already written (sigh... self-imposed yet wouldn't change it for the world etc) . reading the carnivorous lamb now.

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ANOTHER dream that featured noel and liam gallagher in it? they haunt my dreams

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94673 1 month ago

three new dreams, an older one about liam gallagher, one about Racist Bug Twitter and one about a movie about lesbians.

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1 month ago

what do you MEAN you don't have a dream diary. start one right now. we can have fun and play and frolic forever

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meandmygun 1 month ago

idk how yall be remembering ur dreams i legit cannot after five minutes

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94673 1 month ago

you're supposed to write it down the second you wake up. and the more you write them down, the more you remember them

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emptygod 1 month ago

dream diaries are so much fun!! i wish i had a full collection of dreams over my entire life tho

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94673 1 month ago

same :(( I only have a few left over from like 2017 that I saved and only really started the one on my website in 2021.. I guess it's like how they say "the best time to plant a tree is twenty years ago, the second best time is now"

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94673 1 month ago

dream that started fun and then turned into a fucked up nightmare near the end. what the hell

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94673 1 month ago

also i did NOT read pale fire because of reading my dark vanessa just before it. that was INCIDENTAL

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ashavedbear 1 month ago

I simply must know, how did you fare reading Kinbote's commentary?

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94673 1 month ago

@ashavedbear I thought it was SO funny. took me a bit to get through of course but I loved how he managed to turn everything back to his own story. It was really fun to read but I feel like in real life he'd probably be a pretty annoying person to talk to lol. kind of reminds me of how if you're really into something suddenly everything you see/listen to seems to have some relation to that thing

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94673 1 month ago

....which is also probably how, embarassingly, kinbote and shade kind of reminded me of liam and noel gallagher respectively, what with liam claiming all songs noel wrote were always about him, and all.

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ashavedbear 1 month ago

I wouldn't consider it embarrasing, or otherwise odd, humans are very referential, and pattern-seeking, by nature. When I was reading the commentaries I ended up skipping large swaths of the Zembla ramblings. I was very interested to read more on events and such surrounding the poem, and interested in Zembla as it relates to Kinbote - but not enough to read such an excessively intricate account. I don't think there's

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ashavedbear 1 month ago

... been another work where I've skipped such large sections. Which is interesting in contrast to the poem wherein I'd reread sections frequently.

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94673 1 month ago

hmmm I don't know, I think there's merit to the zembla bits especially if you read it as (and this is an option that might not be the most 'accepted' one but it is fun) being about being gay. the Charles from the Zembla bits is quite openly gay or at least into men, and near the end Kinbote tells Shade that he has a secret to tell him to which Shade replies he's pretty sure he already knows the secret. What if

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94673 1 month ago

... Shade thought that the secret Kinbote was going to tell him that he was gay? What if the Zembla story was indeed a fiction, but one Kinbote genuinely believed in, to soften the blow of his own homosexuality, something he found difficult to come to terms with? I don't know, I just think it's kind of compelling.

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ashavedbear 1 month ago

I could see that. Though, I skipped/skimmed the [later] Zembla sections because they were unavoidably, dreadfully, uninteresting to my sensibilities.

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ashavedbear 1 month ago

... Which is to say that my reason for skipping was not due to lack of merit, but of the way it was written.

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94673 1 month ago

yaya I get what you mean. I'm one of those people who feels like I "cheated" when I don't fully read a book I'm afraid >_< but it was fun in this case. And since my friend recommended it to me I really wanted to like it too, for his sake. so I'm glad I did :)

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ashavedbear 1 month ago

Indeed, that is much better justification to have read it than my own (it's referenced in Blade Runner 2049, which is how I learned of it at all). It felt like I was cheating at the time, but I was faced with either cheating or getting none of the parts that interested me. I should probably give it a proper reading eventually

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