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melchi0r

3 years ago

good trans morning

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melchi0r

3 years ago

sorry for being so negative last night. it's just that i'm BARELY starting to realize that my parents are terrible people. i've known for a long time that they were my abusers, but i never went as far as to say that they are just bad people.

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melchi0r 3 years ago

like i gave them so many chances & rationalized their behavior in various different ways. i even told myself that it was my DUTY as their child to take care of them. but honestly, they don't deserve that. they're so bigoted & horrible

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melchi0r 3 years ago

i can't imagine coming out to them as trans. their opinion of trans people is so shockingly low despite the fact that they don't engage with trans people on a daily basis

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misswannabe 3 years ago

Don't worry, when my PTSD amnesia fades, I really become like this as well!! So it's alright!!

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melchi0r

3 years ago

being trans—at least in my experience—means loving oneself & one's world to such an extent that one would rather be hated by all the world than convert. i think this is what the contemporary trans community has in common with the early Christians

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melchi0r 3 years ago

sorry, i'm kinda rambling rn and my thoughts aren't very cohesive. i think i am going to go to bed now

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maxwellmacarthur 3 years ago

I’m not trans, I’m gay, and I wholeheartedly agree. It took me a very long time, but finally I’ve recently come to actually like the fact that I’m gay after years and years of wishing I wasn’t, and then accepting it with neutrality. I’m 26 now and only maybe a year ago did I come to the place where I wouldn’t change things given the opportunity.

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maxwellmacarthur 3 years ago

The early Christians, the christians living under Tokugawa Ieyasu, many Muslims in the world today, pretty much any religious person in North Korea, all love their god enough that all the hate in the world couldn’t sway them and that’s a beautiful thing. I love my god as much too, but I finally also love myself enough to say the same.

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maxwellmacarthur 3 years ago

Thank you for talking about this I think it’s important for people who aren’t in that place yet. And sorry for rambling myself lol

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melchi0r

3 years ago

all of the things my parents have said about queer people hurt me so bad now. even before discovering i was trans/enby their words hurt. but now they feel like being stabbed over & over again

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melchi0r 3 years ago

sorry, i've been making many, many realizations about my past relationships these past few days. i think Providence allowed me to become trans so that i could, finally, love myself for who i am. but this form of intense self-love involves some temporary, immediate pain. that usually takes the form of abandoning destructive friendships & reevaluating my relationship with my parents

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melchi0r

3 years ago

the amount of times my parents have compared themselves—essentially white middle class Americans—to Jews in the Holocaust (bc of the "woke" left) is absolutely disgusting to me.

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melchi0r 3 years ago

& I'm sure they wouldn't care about the oppression of LGBTQ+ under the Nazi regime. For people that talk so much about preserving history, they really know nothing about it

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melchi0r 3 years ago

I've tried humanizing & empathizing with my parents my whole life (bc they literally made me to be this way), but thinking about all of the ridiculous statements they've made makes it really hard to be compassionate torwards them. In fact, I would rather be anywhere else than with them

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melchi0r

3 years ago

want my website to look more cutesy now but i don't feel like remodeling it aaaaaa

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melchi0r

3 years ago

can u have gender dysphoria but also feel content with urself at the same time

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melchi0r 3 years ago

idk i want a bigger ass & larger hips so i can feel more "feminine." however, also i am extremely relieved to just be me—not a man or a woman, but me—without the hindrance of having a static gender identity

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melchi0r 3 years ago

like i see my body for what it is & while i definitely want to improve some things (with execise & maybe hormones at some point), but i don't hate myself anymore for not meeting some arbitrary standard

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melchi0r 3 years ago

perhaps some of this will make more sense later on. i'm still trying to understand what it means to be both nonbinary & trans at the same time after all

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melchi0r 3 years ago

damn i think i need a gender therapist lmao

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microsynthera 3 years ago

yes. i feel like this sometimes too.

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melchi0r

3 years ago

i love mami tomoe so much

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melchi0r

3 years ago

thinkin about the time St. Jerome wore a dress & how abba Marina disguised herself as a male monk for years

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melchi0r

3 years ago

is God trans

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datura 3 years ago

Well I would say that God is a genderless entity and agenders fall under the trans umbrella so yeah

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melchi0r 3 years ago

@datura was really thingken abt this all day...& how the Holy Spirit is referred to in the feminine in Hebrew/Syriac, neuter in Greek, & masculine in Latin...so so true bestie

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melchi0r

3 years ago

GIRLS. i love girls. that's it.

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melchi0r 3 years ago

sometimes i feel like im lesbian but. am nonbinary. but also that's totally valid.

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melchi0r 3 years ago

i would say that i'm pan but i'm definitely in love with feminine ppl rn

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misswannabe 3 years ago

You know what?? Yes!! Sometimes... Girls!!

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melchi0r

3 years ago

i have not been very active on here :(( sorry, i've been caught up with trying to figure myself out lmao

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