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projectc190

11 months ago

anyone wanna bet on whether i get a research internship this summer (im scared)

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palmistshouse 11 months ago

Good luck! That sounds really exciting so I hope it works out for you

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101-flaws-in-his-requiem 11 months ago

No need to bet on something that's guaranteed, good luck!

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featherfae updated faerie glen

11 months ago

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waifulibrary updated Waifu Library

11 months ago

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waifulibrary

11 months ago

Soon: https://youtu.be/I5CoqGofBME?feature=shared

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dear-cam

11 months ago

I have a bunch of one-shots so I'll have those up soon. Expect the about me page to be completed by next week if I ever get better from the flu

projectc190

11 months ago

the urges to redo my layout

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projectc190 11 months ago

complete site overhaul over winter break: real?

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virtuagirl 11 months ago

gasp... if you do keep the current one as archive bc it;s very pretty

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xiokka 11 months ago

same

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dear-cam updated ♥ welcome!!

11 months ago

saddleblasters updated saddleblasters

11 months ago

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siqu 11 months ago

wondering if you ever found something as meaningful as newpants in your searchings of new music. It seems like there's a wall after a certain age where one is fated to keep playing the same tunes

pleasureimp6912 updated LittleImpCYOA

11 months ago

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pandurso updated Bear Den

11 months ago

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moheb-rofail

11 months ago

My latest Article: I deleted my operating system by mistake. https://moheb-rofail.neocities.org/post?p=I_deleted_my_operating_system_by_mistake

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featherfae updated faerie glen

11 months ago

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projectc190 updated project c190

11 months ago

project c190

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saddleblasters

11 months ago

I added a new saddle record today, though the update's been suppressed because I was editing some old posts this morning and (foolishly) thinking I wouldn't post anything else today, I'd deleted the update notification. Read it here: https://saddleblasters.neocities.org/records#twentytwo

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siqu 11 months ago

Games are strange to think back on for sure. That tendency to try to pull more meaning out of it is pathological probably since it was an all-encompassing presence. And that if you somehow figure it out you could recover the joy from it -- also, I wonder if there's a term for what you described: those trying to hype and slather makeup on something that feels hollow

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daliwali 11 months ago

i've checked out some of those bands you linked to, you have quite the interest in "no-audience underground" music. i honestly don't know much about Chinese rock beyond Cui Jian, or more recently, Chinese Football (and that is only because i'm a fan of American Football).

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saddleblasters 11 months ago

@daliwali thanks for looking at the bands i link to -- at least 50% of why i write on this website is to trick other people into exploring the music i like. cui jian is great, especially his lyrics, and chinese football is definitely a big part of the zeitgeist in shanghai: i feel like that's become the default sound for college students starting their first band to imitate.

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saddleblasters 11 months ago

i do like some popular rock bands! thanks to your comment, i spent some time today cleaning up this essay i wrote last year about New Pants, which is simultaneously one of China's most popular rock bands and is (or at least once was) very good imo: https://saddleblasters.neocities.org/essays/231130

saddleblasters 11 months ago

@siqu yeah, i think a lot of the issue for me is the gulf between what was once "an all-encompassing presence" for my childhood and even early 20s, and the fact that now video games have come to more or less a dead end for me emotionally. a lot of the other things i cared about as a kid did continue to grow into something that still has relevance to me now, yet video games still seem to lie dormant inside of me

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siqu 11 months ago

it seems like the only way to extend videogames is to make videogames, but it's just such an endeavor

saddleblasters 11 months ago

and that was precisely the problem I had with making games: I was ultimately just trying to turn all of that emotional investment accumulated over the years into something "valuable". By it's very nature this forced me to constantly be empathising with my previous selves, taking all their feelings seriously, which was too exhausting (though maybe this is just an excuse)

siqu 11 months ago

don't think there's anything wrong with trying to get a return on investment. it'd be cool to make a videogame, and that alone is enough justification. it's just frustrating since it's a multi-disciplinary product -- music, sprites, sounds, design, story and then the actual programming. you'd have to _really_ want to make a videogame to push through all of those roles, to where it makes more sense to invest elsewhere

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dear-cam updated ♥ welcome!!

11 months ago