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badgraph1csghost 2 months ago

there's no inherent chemical component to being trans. if you dont feel good on hrt (or you havent even got onto it) then don't do it. you're still trans if you want to be. that's the fun bit about gender, you're in complete control of what you want to be! also im jealous you're able to write so much lol

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swiftred 2 months ago

Hi, Tina! I knew you'd get it 💜 I'm just weary for silly reasons. And for what it's worth about the writing, thank you! I always have to be creating *something* or I don't feel well

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pixelglade 2 months ago

To me the only "bad trans" people are those who go weirdly right wing and start supporting/funding terf campaigns and political ways that end up hurting the lgbtq community overall. I do relate a lot to the pressures of presenting male because it's easier for people to grasp / I like it / but also feeling very feminine inside. Yet I'm nearly 3 years on T and think it's right for me, it's a personal decision to stop.

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pixelglade 2 months ago

1/2 I know a non binary masc presenting person in a Discord group I'm in they're on T and have had all the traditionally trans masc experiences yet they say they're non binary because they feel like their brain is female and they feel mostly feminine inside. I'm trying to make sense of this myself, but I think one thing I know is what society wants a male to be and who I am is actually different. Plus...

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pixelglade 2 months ago

I think society and people because they have internalised societal / cultural expectations, is actually much more genderfluid and non-binary than most people will want to admit. So part of the backlash to trans people is actually (in my opinion) internalised discomfort to breaking the gender binary. Anyway all this to say, you're not a bad trans person and if you think you're still trans then you are. :)

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swiftred 2 months ago

@pixelglade I loved hearing your thoughts, thank you!! I'm not sure if it helps to say a part of me knows I'm not actually "bad". It's all greater than me and I agree about the internalized discomfort to breaking the gender binary.

lakestheguy updated their site.

2 months ago

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2 months ago

i tried to download the marxist internet archive as a zim file for offline reading in kiwix and it confused me for a bot and the ip address i set my vpn set to got BANNED! i'm sorry. i guess it's good they have anti-ai measures, but the onion address wasn't working for a while. so i thought it'd be a good idea at that time

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lakestheguy 2 months ago

i forgot how huge that website was

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lakestheguy

2 months ago

Thinking of moving off neocities. I like the people on here and will probably keep my account just to follow people. BUT I got a message weeks ago, saying they found my site through an AI. While I appreciated the compliments they gave my site & that they found my site, it kinda has me worried.

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lakestheguy 2 months ago

There's a case where an AI was asked about who a random adult performer with a stage name was and basically doxxed her. Now I'm not sure if I'd be doxxed per se. But I don't feel safe if AI can see my website even with the robots.txt.

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lakestheguy 2 months ago

I'm not sure whether I'd move to codeberg pages, nekoweb or only self host over I2P after the bot net situation gets sorted out. (There was a massive bot net attack over I2P recently which sucks but I2Pd works. So maybe I'll host my site over there? I'm not sure.)

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benny1548132 2 months ago

oh yeah, that's a good reason to get off neocities. that's why i changed hosts. AI is fucking scary

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marufunland 2 months ago

ai is so disgusting.. im gonna be so fr thats a completely valid reason to leave neocities

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lakestheguy updated their site.

2 months ago

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k9ightess updated their site.

2 months ago

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klunsgod updated their site.

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lakestheguy updated their site.

2 months ago

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1904 updated their site.

2 months ago

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lakestheguy

2 months ago

i might take a break from here. that guestbook comment and then the following argument with a mutual here got me stressed out on top of my cat's kidney stones, the country getting even worse than it was before and fucking i2p having a ddos attack. peace

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marufunland 2 months ago

hey so please take a break as long as you need if you're feeling overwhelmed. i hope things will get better for you soon and pls just remember your mental health always comes first so please dont pressure yourself to constantly update your site either.

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benny1548132 2 months ago

man, i'm so sorry about your cat

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lakestheguy

2 months ago

btw i'm gonna switch to i2pd until the botnet attack on i2p is over, since that seems to work better. i'm gonna try and figure out how to host my website over there tomorrow, just in case.

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klunsgod updated their site.

2 months ago

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lakestheguy

2 months ago

i decided to add a section about my ideology to my about page. since there was some confusion and someone thought i supported north korea, china, and the ussr even tho i also have anarchist in there too

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lakestheguy 2 months ago

i think a lot of people who only have a rudimentary understanding of leftist history see "anarcho-communist" and think i'm like a fusion of a ML and an anarchist when anarcho-communism is its own ideology with its own history and movements. it often criticized how some of the left relied too much on electorialism and wielding state power directly for socialism

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lakestheguy 2 months ago

this is not to say i think state socialists are bad people. just that i'm critical of all power structures that rely on authority to get things done

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benny1548132 2 months ago

so you believe exactly what the United States' propaganda tells you, but for a woke reason this time?

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benny1548132 2 months ago

yeah, i know about anarchy. i'm one of those too. i don't think we should be saying shit about what might be the only successful communist country ever until the United States has dissolved

lakestheguy 2 months ago

@benny1528132 idk which one you're referring to as the only successful communist country. also i didn't say anything about the specifics. to me, the idea that they're "communist" IS the american propaganda

lakestheguy 2 months ago

i only said something because someone in my guestbook was really aggressive about how "i should be a socialist not a communist" nvm that most communists are socialists. the truth is i feel like i can't win with these discussions because if i try to have a nuanced opinion of "yes, the usa exaggerated certain things about these countries, but they're still not communist imo", i get backlash from multiple groups of ppl

lakestheguy 2 months ago

if the american propaganda thing is about me mentioning rojava in my guestbook, i always had a bad feeling about them relying on the american military. plus ir a kurdish person complaining about how the western media ignored them being genocided in favor of this "spreading democracy" narrative. so no, that isn't me buying into western propaganda either

lakestheguy updated their site.

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klunsgod updated their site.

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