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ocrevol
1 year ago
(continuing the thread here) tbh I'm probably being a lil too mean re: Pete Walker I think he's a good guy with some good advice but the book has got some triggering elements for sure + yeah very therapy focused, which has not er been very helpful for me anecdotally either
swiftred
1 year ago
Ah, understood! And thank you for commenting on this, by the way :) I've been delighted, and your voice is very much valued
mustikas
1 year ago
resonates with me soooo muchhhhh. i often feel "too explicit" for the most of online spaces. like there's a "bourdary" of negativity i can talk about. i mean, on personal pages and accounts. even if i put tw, i still feel...... strange and anxious. THANK YOU for writing this
swiftred
1 year ago
@mustikas I write this as much as a persuasion to myself as well. I still get freaked out sharing, feeling like I’m not allowed to be “too” mentally ill in a public space (online) even though it is my personal website, mirroring what you said.
vesperings
1 year ago
Had a lot of fun reading through your word collection and testing how they felt spoken.
badgraph1csghost
1 year ago
My goal in life is to be everyone's cool lesbian auntie (something something japanese twitter)
badgraph1csghost
1 year ago
Also, one of the things I had to really teach myself when i was planning my site was: if I don't write about me, who will?
swiftred
1 year ago
Thank you, Tina :) I'm going to remember that for the future. You've eased my mind some.
ocrevol
1 year ago
re:44 reminds me of a post I saw the other day that said "sick people should have a right to congregate and discuss our illness without worrying about doing it in a way that doesn't upset the healthy people, it shouldn't be shameful or offensive to be visibly ill""
ocrevol
1 year ago
also i lol'd at the surviving the thriving reference man I was told to read that book a few months ago and while it was eye opening in some regards it was exceptionally unhelpful in others and I found myself overall wishing I had skipped it and read psychomagic instead
swiftred
1 year ago
@ocrevol I really enjoy the quote you shared and I agree with it wholeheartedly. I feel like I've been hurting lately, not entirely feeling there's an acceptable place to be visibly ill-- but that may be more self-imposed than anything, I'm not sure though.
swiftred
1 year ago
And, hah, I forgot that was the title of the book. I have it on a shelf and wanted to get back to it, actually. I feel "going from surviving to thriving" has become a sort of colloquial phrase and is expected of us, otherwise we're doing life wrong. I did find Pete Walker's '13 Steps for Managing Flashbacks' on his website to be insightful, so I hope to find good stuff in the book. Not in the mood to read it rn tho
swiftred
1 year ago
New page for Persona 3 Reload screenshots, rawr. Take a look at it if you're cool ;3
niicespiice
1 year ago
i wanna play this game so badly but i dont know where to find it. thats not like reload which costs a billion dollars
niicespiice
1 year ago
35: perhaps the world is just a forest. sometimes there is a gap where the light comes through. sometimes there are so many trees you cannot see anything. but there is no exit from the forest like people proclaim. there's just different ways to process it (COUGH COUGH AVE MUJICA COUGH COUGH sorry hyperfixation got me there)
inkcaps
1 year ago
WOW the art for the Death Note inspired deck is so cool!! And not gonna lie, I'm really tempted by that oracle deck too, it looks so fun!
swiftred
1 year ago
Right?? I was really digging that artist's work, then I saw that Death Note deck in their shop! The oracle deck is cute, appeals to the inner child (and girlhood imo), if you subscribe to that sort of thinking. Been meaning to write a description for each deck, that one included. Haven't gotten much use out of it yet. It's almost too positive for me, lol.
miela583
1 year ago
Coffee makers deserve thanks. Mine gurgles when I take too long to finish a pot on a work from home day, and I imagine it is pouting at being ignored.
saddleblasters
1 year ago
What you wrote in the edit to #37 is so true. The "meaning" of the past is never fixed. Maybe this is a corny metaphor, but if we imagine the past as soil and ourselves as plants growing out of it, in the short term it might seem the soil is always static and only plants change, but in the long term, the plants break down rocks in the soil, insert nutrients (or use them up) and so on.
saddleblasters
1 year ago
I encountered this quote from the historian E. H. Carr in the epigraph to Hua Hsu’s (excellent!) book Stay True: “Only the future can provide the key to the interpretation of the past; and it is only in this sense that we can speak of an ultimate objectivity in history. It is at once the justification and the explanation of history that the past throws light on the future, and the future throws light on the past.”
wichitalk
1 year ago
tech rules rule (for lack of a better word), and i love the noticing page. both in terms of design and observations. reminds me of this quote that reality will suprise you if you pay attention to it. really cool to hear your thoughts on tech and you're right - we can just keep picking ourselves up again <3
phi1l1y
1 year ago
Deeply relating to your 37th microblog; my family dynamic sounds very similar to yours , unfortunately for the both of us. I recently found out my sister is having another baby through the grapevine , as she has not spoken a word to me in months, and while my father lamented over it.. I found I didn't care much! If there's little seed planted, there's even littler Grief to sprout. Love from another black sheep..
niicespiice
1 year ago
ngl i havent seen enough media to see EITHER a trans struggle story or a trans instant acceptance story /srs. i have only seen characters that aren't properly confirmed trans but vaguely implied
ocrevol
1 year ago
re:33, this was part of my impetus to create my trans books page. even as someone who enjoys horror and otherwise dark/fucked-up stories, it's really disappointing that transphobia (external or internal) is so often the main conflict any time a trans character is featured. many authors don't seem to grasp that transphobia is an ADDITIONAL problem that trans people have to deal with, not the ONLY problem
ocrevol
1 year ago
I was so blown away when I watched Talk to Me (2022) and it featured a character that was openly transmasc and this was treated as a non issue. They were just another character in the film, in their own words "not a theme, just a person"
niicespiice
1 year ago
in terms of my own story, the main character is nonbinary and depending on your reading you can see how this impacts their sense of isolation. however their story isn't really explicitly about being trans, it's about a bunch of other things instead. it's just a background element. so i suppose it's being accepted..? but they're lonely so hmm
oopsiedoodle
1 year ago
that balaclava is incredible. i'm a knitter and have no clue how to crochet, but i admire how much easier it seems to freestyle in crochet than in knitting. projects like this really make me want to learn!
swiftred
1 year ago
Thank you!! I find crochet significantly easier, but I learned it first, and I'm under the impression it's a lot more versatile which I appreciate. I hope you do end up trying it :D
badgraph1csghost
1 year ago
the problem i've always had with asking for constructive criticism is that whoever decides to critique my work suddenly becomes the world's foremost authority on art and gives me a lot of criticism without pointing out anything that they liked or offering ways to improve. i say "critique my work", they hear "make me feel bad for creating this".
smokoswebzone
1 year ago
@badgraph1csghost I've kinda had that issue as well. Granted, I'm sensitive as all hell and even the rudest constructive criticism has the potential to be helpful if it's at least given in good faith. However, there definitely are people our there who use it as a bad-faith cudgel to tear people down.
smokoswebzone
1 year ago
re: 30, it sounds like your asexuality is pretty similar to mine. I consider myself aegosexual, i.e. I only find sex enjoyable/appealing when it's third-person, fictional fantasies or scenarios, esp. in drawn or written smut. Otherwise, real-life or self-involved sex seems so boring, if not outright repulsive. It seems paradoxical, but I felt very vindicated to learn that a lot of aspec people experience this.
niicespiice
1 year ago
unfortunately i feel like i'm too young to know my orientation - i did a lot of digging into it and i can't really seem to find concrete answers. i keep flipflopping between pan and ace in my head. probably ace in reality but i like to be in denial because comedy
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