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axayacatl

7 months ago

blue period is my favorite ongoing manga rn it really pushes me to go against the odds

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toribytez 14-4ml

7 months ago

OMG another peak site !! I too am a blue enjoyer!

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14-4ml 7 months ago

yessss #blue forever

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letslearntogether 7 months ago

On blog of the 23rd: Fantastic insight about apologizing in public! Any action that is performative, done simply to be seen, often seems to lack sincerity doesn't it.

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letslearntogether 7 months ago

Is it because, rather than true reconciliation, it seeks to inflate one's own ego through other's pity or praise? While intentions should not be assumed, they can often be felt, for intentions influence the quality of the actions extending from them.

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letslearntogether 7 months ago

I strongly agree that forgiveness can be freeing for both the giver and receiver when they are genuine. However, I also think that it is important to be able to let go when one feels like they are "owed" an apology, to "close the loop" as you so eloquently put it.

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letslearntogether 7 months ago

While I desire to give mercy for its own sake, I also do not want to be taken advantage of. Finding that balance has been tricky...and misplaced trust can literally be dangerous or deadly.

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letslearntogether 7 months ago

On blog of the 24th: While much lies outside of our control, there is incredible power in every choice that we make. What is the vision that you have for your own life and what constructive steps are you taking to get there?

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letslearntogether 7 months ago

Sometimes rejection can be a blessing in that it keeps us from situations where we will not be genuinely appreciated. Inversely, being lusted after is to be objectified, not actually cared for. Both situations feel like garbage.

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letslearntogether 7 months ago

You are strong, discerning, aware...not to mention, your art is cool. Your miracle(s) will come. Be steadfast in those constructive ways.

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axayacatl 7 months ago

@letslearntogether thank u for ur feedback i can tell a lot of thought went into it. on being objectified the pressure cooker feeling it leaves in the air keeps me independent. it leaves me feeling thankful for my talents in a way i never have as there is this sudden need to constantly humanize myself for no reason other than my own sanity

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letslearntogether 7 months ago

Not so much feedback as it is dialogue. I enjoy what you write and I try to show everyone care whenever I am aware enough to do so...Sis, you will never be anything less than human. Likewise, all human beings deserve dignity, so you have nothing to prove. To express gratitude for one's skills and to carefully hone them in order to help everyone in addition to oneself is always good though.

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letslearntogether 7 months ago

Also, you are already sane. We simply live within an insane society...But of course, I state this as a feral man-beast living out in the wilderness at the edge of the city. Society is filled with that "pressure cooker" feeling in various guises. I had to get away from it, even if it meant being homeless. Yet my love of humanity kept me engaged so that I might help to transform it in some small measure.

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axayacatl

7 months ago

i went on an apology tour and wrote about it in my latest diary entry, lmk what u think if u read it

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softdays 7 months ago

i found myself agreeing heavily with what you wrote!! and im proud of you too, it seems like such a scary thing! its given me a lot to think about!

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axayacatl 7 months ago

@softdays it is scary but uncertainty is just raw reality and all u can really do is try to find the fun in that

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axayacatl

7 months ago

been mastering the art of eggplant "bacon" will post up soon

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axayacatl

7 months ago

every now and again i receive such a sincere email and it casts a buff on my outlook of life for a few days

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jackiewardmusic updated JACKIE WARD

7 months ago

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axayacatl

7 months ago

im in the midst of organizing all my diary files so some 2024 entries might have broken links but not for long

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d60010 7 months ago

Thoughts, 2025-03-21 23:11:15

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axayacatl krystalspalace

7 months ago

⛤✶👁✶⛤ a blessing is on it's way 2 u ⛤✶👁✶⛤

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krystalspalace 7 months ago

very very much appreciated

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axayacatl

7 months ago

do u guys have any advice on how to conjure more energy? i feel like i have the potential to be a less lethargic person i just don't know how to tap into that in tangible ways other than coffee and breathwork

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goatcvlt 7 months ago

exercise and sleep, unfortunately.

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softdays 7 months ago

the only things that tend to work for me are eating meals-- keeping up my glucose and stuff 😭

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axayacatl 7 months ago

i thought i was eating enough uranium but i guess not

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vinnyvistazo updated Vinny Vistazo - The Vistazone

7 months ago

Vinny Vistazo - The Vistazone

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axayacatl

7 months ago

existential FOMO

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mazapandust isobelsweb

7 months ago

hi hi! question: how do you get your gif backgrounds to load so quickly? the gifs i have on my homepage are smaller but take forever to load so people have to wait to click anything and it drives me nuts >_<

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isobelsweb 7 months ago

im using videos muted and on autoplay! i also add a poster picture in the code in case the video doesn't load. but im pretty sure i compressed those videos too.

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