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8 months ago

One who plays video games all day is probably closer to Buddhahood than anyone else.

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saddleblasters 8 months ago

my friend who plays the most video games works at a defense contractor, developing Massive Murder Machines, since it's a low-stress job that allows him plenty of time to come home and game all evening

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saddleblasters 8 months ago

though i also know another guy from the forums i posted on that lived in a van, worked part time jobs or made money repairing old consoles and doing mods, and spend as much time as he could to playing the oldiest wonkiest nes games

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saddleblasters 8 months ago

i don't know if the second guy has attained anything approaching buddhahood, but i always admired him. since he actually played retro games on original hardware over and over rather than merely talk about CRTs (what most retro gamers do), he had all sorts of insights about the endless wonders hidden in these tiny pixel worlds

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saddleblasters 8 months ago

(also i feel obligated to spoil the fun by pointing out the buddha explicitly discouraged his followers from playing games: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_games_that_Buddha_would_not_play)

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benny1548132 8 months ago

i need to play all those Buddha-hated games

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letslearntogether 8 months ago

Now, if you were to make a composite of those two people, you would end up with something like Palmer Luckey's life. Lol Maybe a Buddha discouraged game playing because they can disconnect one from reality sometimes, in the same way that a drone weapon tends to remove one from the consequences of their own decisions. When you automate killing with a disposition matrix, you end up with Ellison's AM.

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daliwali 7 months ago

unemployed people seem to possess the hidden knowledge of life; the wagecage wrecks the body, mind and soul.

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projectc190 8 months ago

mantou is a pleasant name for a dog and whisky goes hard as fuck; it's asian americans naming their dog shit like "boba" that makes me cringe. i think there's an inherent beauty in letting yourself just be, without trying to find a greater theme or narrative to it. or maybe i just think that because it has not been long enough since i wrote my last college application essay

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saddleblasters 8 months ago

i feel like my whole life is this conflict between wanting to fit my life into a narrative and being disgusted by any attempt at "definition"... narratives often allow for community and self-understanding, but over-committing to one can be soul-sucking. i think this ultimately is one of those things with no easy answer, requiring one to walk the middle path...

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saddleblasters 8 months ago

also, mantou the dog is big, white and fluffy, so the name makes sense... far better than "小黑“, i.e. "little black." (though in my defense he was already named that long before either xiaoxi or i had ever met him.)

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projectc190 8 months ago

@saddleblasters that's a good point! living life aimlessly doesn't feel great, but neither does overanalyzing. it can definitely be tough finding a satsifactory balance between the two

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balckwell 8 months ago

I had this same experience with Western philosophy. Once I started to feel like I was just "filling in gaps" in a narrative I'd already been told, my interest started to wane. It's a lot more fun when you're reading each work as if it might secretly contain Absolute Truth.

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saddleblasters 8 months ago

I think this goes back to the tendency you and I have to see writing as, above all else, a form of communication. We're always looking for the individual personalities and beliefs behind the words. If one is the kind of person who sees literature as, say, the cultural heritage of a nation/ethnicity, then maybe this grand historical narrative approach to it is more interesting

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mouseling 8 months ago

I'm somewhat relieved to see someone else who had the same experience with coffee, although I still haven't gotten into drinking it yet. My caffeine vice is energy drinks, which is funny because I swore off anything with bubbles as a kid, and still largely don't drink soda..

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saddleblasters 8 months ago

Late reply, so you might not see this, but I don't really like normal soda either. one of the reasons I like energy drinks is that they come in a million different flavors that all have a peculiar taste to them. i always feel like a child whenever i drink them though, and definitely not healthy...

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balckwell 8 months ago

I often think I want to game when what I really want is a ritualized activity I can start without thought. "When it's game time, I game." This immediately crumbles when I actually choose a specific game and get bored within a week or two.

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