Neocities

6 months ago

Hey Blue, just read your dairy entries. I feel the same as you in some aspects about dealing with your own personal thoughts. i love so much the poems you post and the way you express your feelings, i think it's a powerful way for a lot of people to relate with your writings in general. Please take care Blue, we really appreciate you

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velvetblue updated ~ Memories of You ~

6 months ago

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poems/may-clark.html

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wiredphantom 6 months ago

Not having any friends can feel incredibly sad....i feel you

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wiredphantom 6 months ago

I mean real friends

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velvetblue 6 months ago

yeah, its pretty suffocating. thank you for understanding <3

wangwei88 6 months ago

I noticed you seemed frustrated about the diary entries being disorganized or too potent. Idk if it helps, but I didn't feel like that was too big of an issue. Your writings are already good enough. We won't be disappointed or upset if you process things a different way some days. I hope that helps a little at least...

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garudyne updated BACKSIDE OF THE TV

6 months ago

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souyoarchive updated The Souyo Archive

6 months ago

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velvetblue updated ~ Memories of You ~

6 months ago

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cherrylotus 6 months ago

i wish i could hug you, blue. i don't know if this is weird to ask, but do you have access to therapy? i'm trying to start going now before i ruin myself over similar experiences. it's like you said in "Glaciers" — life doesn't slow down for us, but we choose how we respond to it, and that's how we grow.

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velvetblue 6 months ago

ive thought about therapy a lot, but im still not sure if im ready to speak that intimately about my problems to someone irl like that. its just really tense, i guess. but, if im ever ready for it, ill try to give it a chance. thank you for the kind words as always, it means a lot to me <3

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jamieos 6 months ago

I relate a lot to so much of this and the last entry as im going through very similar things. It's been comforting to know that I'm not the only one feeling similarly. And if anything, I hope maybe you can feel a little comfort not feeling alone too.

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nyxsplace 6 months ago

this shit is art

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wiredphantom 6 months ago

I felt so moved while reading your poem.........it’s truly touching.

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velvetblue 6 months ago

@wiredphantom thank you, im happy to know it resonated with you <3

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velvetblue updated ~ Memories of You ~

7 months ago

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velvetblue 7 months ago

q&a page has been updated, have fun

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niicespiice 7 months ago

i, too, regret getting into danganronpa

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wangwei88 7 months ago

yay!

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velvetblue

7 months ago

so 300k views happened?? using this as an excuse to add more to the q&a page i guess. ask me questions or something <3

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laikachannel 7 months ago

opinions on furburbur sakura

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starry-knight 7 months ago

what are some of your favorite pieces of media? it can be anything like games, shows, music, etc :]

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cherrylotus 7 months ago

if you were a drink, what would you be?

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thelesserword 7 months ago

What do you like so much about Persona 3?

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duskspirals 7 months ago

Whos your favorite musical artist if any?

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wangwei88 7 months ago

What's your favorite part about Neocities?

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littlewren 7 months ago

Do you have a favorite scene in movies/books/anime, etc? If yes, which one? Do you have a favorite piece of clothing, or an object that you treasure?

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ingenuo 7 months ago

what's a favorite arcana/SL of yours in any of the persona series?

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wiredphantom 7 months ago

Is there a deeper meaning or personal story behind the site's name?or just your fav color???

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scenemime 7 months ago

if you had to have a different theme for the site what would it be? / do you have a favourite poem you've written (that we can see on the site)?

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blackmagegaming 7 months ago

What drives you to continue to add to your webpage?

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niicespiice 7 months ago

why did you start writing?

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rotbrain 7 months ago

Is there a literary work you particularly enjoy or resonate with? (novel, short story, poem, essay, blog article, pretty much anything that's made of words...)

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jamieos 7 months ago

What other kind of games do you like?

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spuds 7 months ago

thoughts on pickles?

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monachopsis 7 months ago

who's your best friend? (its me dont lie)

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crabbyjade 7 months ago

favorite html tag

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velvetblue updated ~ Memories of You ~

7 months ago

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niicespiice 7 months ago

“part of me truly does hate people who are optimistic.” SAME

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niicespiice 7 months ago

like im fake optimistic because i dont want to see other people complain about nothing. but in my heart im super negative and a bit spiteful actually

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wiredphantom 7 months ago

now i feel like you are me and i am you .........i am feeling the same way in my college nowdays..........

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velvetblue 7 months ago

its nice to know im not alone in these feelings at least. thank you both <3

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cherrylotus 7 months ago

"Glaciers" was a beautiful read. could i ask what inspired that piece? i kind of interpreted it as life always moving, whether you want it to or not. you don't know where it'll take you, but you'll be forced to change along the way—like water to ice. And it's scary at first, but your growth leads you to something beautiful.

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velvetblue 7 months ago

thats basically what its about actually!! ^^ it's meant to sound like someone having a realization that the pain they've endured helped them grow into who they are now, a beautiful person. the main inspirations were both my own personal experience, and a song named 'trial' by the pillows. it has a very winter-y tone to it, and the lyrics cover some pretty similar topics. im glad you enjoyed this one <3

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cherrylotus 7 months ago

also, you're definitely not alone with your recent journal entry. it gets better though, and i really mean that ♡ also, my first impression of you was that you were a very genuine person, and i'm sure others see that too when they're around you.

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cherrylotus 7 months ago

@blue sorry, i just take forever to think and type ToT i love that there's so much of your own experiences put into it though—that makes it much more beautiful. i've been meaning to find more jrock bands too, so that song was a nice surprise :) have a good day blue !!

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velvetblue 7 months ago

hope you have a good day too! and thank you for the kind words as always <3

meowco digital-devil

7 months ago

Do you remember that one manga you asked me about a few months ago? I managed to translate some specials for it. You can read them here: https://wevelocityteampresents-blog.tumblr.com/tagged/Nameneko%20Matakichi%27s%20Strongest%20Legend%20Don%27t%20Mess%20With%20Me%21

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sp3ct velvetblue

7 months ago

such a relaxing website! i love the blue palette which is relaxing... also i love the ramiel pixel and the persona theme,, hope you take care!! <3

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velvetblue updated ~ Memories of You ~

7 months ago

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poetry.html

minidiary.html

poems/autothysis.html

poems/simplicity.html

poems/munitions.html

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niicespiice 7 months ago

nah i don't think it's petty to dislike people objectifying your work. "minor" things can affect people in major ways. it's like how when people listen to depressing japanese songs and say "Wow, this sounds to happy! If only it wasn't for the lyrics..." like I don't get how it sounds happy. In most cases, it's probably not meant to. It's just a weird interpritation that peoples' misery is "so kawaii xdxd"

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monsieurdoll 7 months ago

i completely agree.. i've gotten a lot more stressed about how peole view my site. it feels like people just see it as an aesthetic instead of something i put work into, something that is like an extension of me almost

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rotbrain 7 months ago

Man, that diary entry pulled some complicated feelings from deep within me, ones that I usually bury. But no, wanting to be truly seen, and not just simply looked at, is not hateful, spiteful, or bitchy.

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rotbrain 7 months ago

Big agree on what niicespiice said, all these parts are not at odds with one another, they are part of the same whole.

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rotbrain 7 months ago

I don't like your site *just because* there are bunch of pretty blinkling lights, and not *just because* there is a diary with a lot of venting, I like it because it feels like I'm stepping into someone's home, treating it any other way feels disrespectful.

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rotbrain 7 months ago

At the end of the day, we have to hold those who earnestly try to see us for who we are close to us, and tell the others to kindly piss off.

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inai 7 months ago

not bitter. i get you. theres a large crowd that scrubs the personality out of anything in favor of aesthetics; dont even read the words people write, just admire the layouts etc etc. i cant help but play with code and try to make things look nice, but sometimes it does certainly feel like thatll be the only thing that ever 'matters'

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littlewren 7 months ago

I think it’s like when people only compliment appearance, but not character. Even if you changed your website to just a blank page I would still wait for updates, to know that you are well and for love to your poetry. Your layout it’s beautiful - it showcases your interests and hard work, but it’s not the best nor only part of velvetblue - you are.

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hubbardian 7 months ago

I recently followed your site because I respected your site approach, but knew it and liked it even before that. I think there are more shy people like that than there are the kind of people you're talking about here. :)

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niicespiice 7 months ago

also for the record, i don't care for the "old web revival" stuff. i look at neocities to see peoples' personal thoughts, but i don't care about it as some sort of "let's bring back the old internet." i don't LIKE modern social media but i also don't care about the old internet either, ykyk? they have their own flaws, and it feels very "owo im quirky," obsessing over retro things.

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visualculture 7 months ago

when an artistic work is released to the public, it inevitably becomes an entity with a life of its own separate from its creator. this happens with novels, paintings, and yes websites. for better or worse, this is just the reality of art let out into the world

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visualculture 7 months ago

i guess you just have to determine whether the good connections you make by going public outweigh the reactions you perceive as negative, and just enjoy the process of creation

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rotbrain 7 months ago

I have a lot of mixed feelings about Neocities' social-media features (follows, view counts, stats, number of likes), and I could do without them, I've been thinking of dusting off my coding skills to make a userscript to hide that stuff.

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rotbrain 7 months ago

However I do appreciate the message & comments feature, in some ways it feels like a slightly more exclusive guestbook, since you know that these are other webmasters who are more likely to appreciate and engage with what you put out, instead of passersby who are just in it for the c00l aesthetic.

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soulbox 7 months ago

I understand. I'm conflicted about this too. I want my next web project to be a very personal thing for me. At the same time, I lament about how people are going to receive it. Eventually my website starts to feel awkward. Like I don't know where to put it. Or if I should host it anywhere at all.

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soulbox 7 months ago

For everybody here, web design is another art form. Can't say the same for other people though. No matter what you do, just know that you have my support. Expressing yourself, especially like this, takes a lot.

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rotbrain 7 months ago

reply to soulbox: I also used to feel conflicted about wanting to make my art for myself but also wanting it to be received well by others, I eventually landed on "creating not just for personal expression, but for communication, not to be liked by people, but to be understood", that mindset sort of resolved that for me, personally.

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roybutty 7 months ago

While I don't usually reply to site updates, I do remember to check them every week. I don't think most people separate someone's personality and their site on here maliciously, but it is 100% valid to be frustrated at that. I love aesthetics as much as the next person, but it's really the authors' words and expression of themselves that ultimately makes me keep checking back in on their sites, including yours.

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ghostsjogging updated ghostsjogging

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