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inkcaps 11 months ago

Late night rambling! Let me know if you can connect with any of this, I'd love to talk about it!! <3

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inkcaps 11 months ago

OH and I changed the background of this month's diary! I like the light twinkling effect ; __ ;

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vashti 11 months ago

I think it's very natural that you'd want there to be little discrepancy between how you perceive yourself & how others perceive you & you shouldn't think too hard about it. I normally feel the opposite of the feeling you've described & feel as though I'm in a perpetual state of change.

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inkcaps 11 months ago

@vashti I agree on both accounts tbh!! It's something I should let go and not feel I have to justify to others. It's something I've been trying to unlearn, but for a whole time I lived like I had something to prove and I can fall into those patterns sometimes. The last few years I feel like I've changed a lot to, but mostly for better. It's fascinating to watch yourself grow over time, just like everything else does!

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vashti 11 months ago

I think rather than seeing it as some sort of justification, you should frame it as authenticity; You're wanting to be authentic & true & there is nothing wrong with that. In fact, it's commendable & shows that you have self confidence.

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ophanimkei 11 months ago

I feel really similarly. I often want people to know the truest version of myself, but I let the worst parts of myself out due to mental illness or sleep deprivation or some other silly thing. And then I feel like I have to work really hard to let people know the "truest" version of myself again even if the part of myself I displayed is technically me too.

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ophanimkei 11 months ago

It's very obvious with family and friends I've known for years. My tastes and interests and personality evolved quite a bit within the last two years, and as a result, I get a lot of recommendations for things I would've liked as a teenager that I've outgrown now.

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inkcaps 11 months ago

@vashti, you are very kind and I appreciate your thoughtful insight. This is a beautiful way to reframe and you're right! At its core it's all about wanting to express the most authentic version of yourself, huh? Thank you, I will keep this in mind!! ♡♡

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vivarism 11 months ago

Are you perhaps worried that others won't accept your changes? Like someone might say, "oh no, I liked the old version better!" Do you need reassurance that, no matter how your beliefs evolve, you can still be loved for the Essence of Sarah at your core? You dont have to answer here and maybe I'm totally off the mark. Just something to think about.

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inkcaps 11 months ago

@ophanimkei the shift from your teen years into emerging adulthood can especially be rife with change imo. It's a big time for exploring your identity and since others aren't privy to your internal world, they still have that particular impression of you. It can be hard!!

inkcaps 11 months ago

@ophanimkei it can be hard feeling like you're being authentic when burdened with things like mental illness and sleep deprivation too... it's easier said than done, but I think it's important to be forgiving of yourself for the times you've been hurting ♡

inkcaps 11 months ago

@vivarism hmm, this is interesting food for thought, I appreciate your questions!! That might be a part of it, and I have felt that fear of rejection in the past, but I think in this example it's like the fear of being perceived as flakey lest I "justify" myself?

cygnet updated garden

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cygnet whirlwind

11 months ago

i am absolutely smitten with your site theme and layout. GORGEOUS!!

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whirlwind 11 months ago

TY! rlly in love w yours, it reminds me of spring <3

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cygnet 11 months ago

thats so lovely thank you

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loneliwish 11 months ago

Oh sorry, I accidentally deleted your comment Vashti

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loneliwish 11 months ago

Anyway, thank you so much, I really appreciate it. I'm looking forward to reading your Q&A !!

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velvetblue 11 months ago

just wanna say that your diarys always so insightful and fascinating to read, thanks for sharing it

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nymphblood 11 months ago

@humanityisnotbeautiful thank you so much. you are such a kind soul. i enjoy reading your diary as well. ♥

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hatsu 410

11 months ago

wtf i didn't even realize your tweaked your layout? its so cool!!!! gotta update your button then!!

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410 11 months ago

THANK YOU!!!!!! LOL i only made it a month before deciding to change the layout......i love ur new button btw!!!!! ! ! !

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cybercentre gamergirlgumi

11 months ago

A Yume Nikki background? Very cool

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gamergirlgumi 11 months ago

thank you! i've loved yume nikki for a long time, and the visuals are beautiful to me so i tend to default to something from that game with most site design i've done, or music choices hehe

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blissnet cloverbell

11 months ago

Cute cute site, me like!