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Part of my job is customer support over the phone, and I suspect some people expect that if they are talking to someone following the golden rule, it’s their privilege to take advantage of it. Being kind is still important, I think, but I agree with your conclusion here pretty thoroughly.
Ugh, this is such a good post and such a hard lesson to learn, I feel you. My partner and I had to sit down and talk about this because I kept operating under this rule, but the way I wanted to be treated wasn't necessarily the way she did, and vice versa. I hope you can get back some of the kindness you put out into the world, even if it's expressed differently.
This is a wonderful entry, one I (and I'm sure countless others) really feel. I was actually talking earlier to a friend about something related; our ways of masking our autism often comes out as extreme politeness, and for me specifically, submissiveness. It is hard for me to identify sometimes that when I laugh at a stranger's joke I don't find funny, or smile and nod my agreement, etc., if that is -
- me wanting to be kind and acting out of my heart, or simply the way I feel I must behave. It's certainly a nuanced thing, especially when taking into consideration what you've said about how everyone loves and needs differently. Commencing my yapping now!
It made my day to hear that you both enjoyed and related to my post, and it's nice knowing I'm not the only one <3 thank you for commenting. @iztopher thank you for the well wishes!!
@phi1l1y I honestly think masking is such a bigger part of this than I give credit for. I've been trying to unmask in small ways, like trying not to be overly emotive, or compulsively smile all the time at everyone and, like you said, not laugh at unfunny things, and I realize just how deeply ingrained it is!! You're right that it's hard to separate. Thank you again for sharing your thoughts!
My second entry for muse is now out =) I'm letting out a deep sigh as I release this one
I'm proud of you for finding that way out and holding tight to it. It's okay to be scared of the unknown, but it says a lot about a person's strength when they continue alongside their fear. I believe in you. Sending all the best wishes- may life be an upwards arc of things getting better for you from here.
I'm proud of you for making it this far, and I'm excited for the next chapter of your life! may it give you the breathing space you need to find out how to be yourself as an adult. i definitely relate to feeling like you've lost your younger fire
Wishing you all the peace and space to heal and grow. I'm so glad you made it to a safe place <3
Wow! I've got chills. You're a very clear and emotive writer. And I'm so very excited for you, with the end of this dark winter in sight. Sort of like a yule celebration--you're halfway through this long dark. :)
@owlroost that means so so much, thank you for the well wishes and kind words. I definetely viewed my fear as a weakness, so this is a beautiful, empowering reframe
@kph that's very evocative imagery, thank you for the thoughtful message. It's about time, it's been night for so long! It touches me that you find my writing to be clear and emotive. I will hold that close to me for a long time <3
wow, this piece was so intense and wonderful. so proud of you for how far you've made it. it's always okay to be scared, and i'm wishing you luck as time goes on!
So many wonderful additions to the button wall. I'm so grateful for all the new, positive interactions <3
YOOOOO IM THERE HI BUTTON ME (I honestly really want to make a mutals page maybe thats what ill tonight hrmm yes i think I will) ALso I listened to ctrl by sza because you said it was one of your favourite albums on your about page and it is just so damn good!!!
YOOOOOOO HI =D I can't believe you listened to it because of me :,3 I'm really glad you liked it!! It brought me so much comfort, I had it on repeat for at least four months
omg thank you! i honestly never expected anyone to read any of my work lol, but i'm glad it resonated :)
super kind of you to reach out whaaaa ..... thank you so much, it's been getting better ! love your art as well, hope the your imposter syndrome gets better too
Thank you so much! I appreciate the follow from you as well, your site is full of so much you've created and it's awesome getting to see it all, you're really talented!
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GOD, that's so real. Grad school really made me forget I have the kind of neurodivergence where monotony feels like I'm dying. I've been planning to travel a lot. Learning to juggle, reading really hard books, starting ambitious projects. Looking for jobs when all that doesn't work. I do think you should keep an eye on jobs in Toronto if that's where you want to be!