~ Memories of You ~

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blackmagegaming's avatar blackmagegaming 6 months ago

Man, this diary entry hit me really hard. Self-loathing is a bitch, and I struggle to overcome it on a daily basis, to the point where I get no work done, which leads to an endless downward spiral of hate and anger. I do my best to not lash out at others, but it comes across as me bottling up these feelings.

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wiredphantom's avatar wiredphantom 6 months ago

If I could, Iโ€™d give you a hug right now.

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theclocktower's avatar theclocktower 6 months ago

I don't really suffer from self-loathing myself but I can relate to the idea of being worried that everything will come crashing down soon. I know nothing about mental health so I can't really help much, but I hope things improve for you. Sorry that I'm pretty useless.

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hi your site is super cool! and super blue!! it burns my eyes but in like, a good way. and i love the persona 3 theme! pretty much everything about it is a treat to my eyes
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Hope you're doing good
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velvetblue's avatar velvetblue 6 months ago

i'm doing well, thank you <3

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rotbrain's avatar rotbrain 6 months ago

The constant pressure to have to perform "sociability" is easily the thing that scrapes away the most at my sanity in my day-to-day, abstract and indirect cruelty. Glad you are able to find consistent reprieve at night, away from the judgement of others.

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rotbrain's avatar rotbrain 6 months ago

By the way, I'm fairly certain the site-closing scripts only change the index, I usually just bypass them by just appending "/about" to the url, lol.

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wiredphantom's avatar wiredphantom 6 months ago

I read your diary, and I just want you to know that Iโ€™m here. Youโ€™re not alone.

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velvetblue's avatar velvetblue 6 months ago

thank you, that means a lot to me <3

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niicespiice's avatar niicespiice 7 months ago

"i have this really tense fear of being misunderstood, but at the same time, i dont want anyone to understand me." NOOOO NOT THE RELATABLE CONTRADICTIONS AGAIN STOP IT STOP IT UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGHHHH UAO OODNU ONUONU DONAPOUN I think it's probalby a sense of vunerability or something. Personally I want to be understood, but like... Not by NORMIES or whatever. I want a clone, is what I'm sayuing I think. Hmm.

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wiredphantom's avatar wiredphantom 7 months ago

They clearly knew your birthday was the perfect occasion. What better gift than an entire game dropping just for you?

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your site is so cool !! :D
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wiredphantom's avatar wiredphantom 7 months ago

I'm not some exotic fantasy You won't remember my face. I love these lines ๐Ÿซ 

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velvetblue's avatar velvetblue 7 months ago

thank you!! i had a lot of fun writing that one ^^

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Thank you for the follow <3 I loooove your site, it's a big inspiration for me!
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Omg! Thank you for following :] your page is such a huge inspiration for me
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