~ Memories of You ~

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niicespiice's avatar niicespiice 9 months ago

โ€œpart of me truly does hate people who are optimistic.โ€ SAME

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niicespiice's avatar niicespiice 9 months ago

like im fake optimistic because i dont want to see other people complain about nothing. but in my heart im super negative and a bit spiteful actually

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wiredphantom's avatar wiredphantom 9 months ago

now i feel like you are me and i am you .........i am feeling the same way in my college nowdays..........

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velvetblue's avatar velvetblue 9 months ago

its nice to know im not alone in these feelings at least. thank you both <3

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cherrylotus's avatar cherrylotus 9 months ago

"Glaciers" was a beautiful read. could i ask what inspired that piece? i kind of interpreted it as life always moving, whether you want it to or not. you don't know where it'll take you, but you'll be forced to change along the wayโ€”like water to ice. And it's scary at first, but your growth leads you to something beautiful.

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velvetblue's avatar velvetblue 9 months ago

thats basically what its about actually!! ^^ it's meant to sound like someone having a realization that the pain they've endured helped them grow into who they are now, a beautiful person. the main inspirations were both my own personal experience, and a song named 'trial' by the pillows. it has a very winter-y tone to it, and the lyrics cover some pretty similar topics. im glad you enjoyed this one <3

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cherrylotus's avatar cherrylotus 9 months ago

also, you're definitely not alone with your recent journal entry. it gets better though, and i really mean that โ™ก also, my first impression of you was that you were a very genuine person, and i'm sure others see that too when they're around you.

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cherrylotus's avatar cherrylotus 9 months ago

@blue sorry, i just take forever to think and type ToT i love that there's so much of your own experiences put into it thoughโ€”that makes it much more beautiful. i've been meaning to find more jrock bands too, so that song was a nice surprise :) have a good day blue !!

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velvetblue's avatar velvetblue 9 months ago

hope you have a good day too! and thank you for the kind words as always <3

such a relaxing website! i love the blue palette which is relaxing... also i love the ramiel pixel and the persona theme,, hope you take care!! <3
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niicespiice's avatar niicespiice 9 months ago

nah i don't think it's petty to dislike people objectifying your work. "minor" things can affect people in major ways. it's like how when people listen to depressing japanese songs and say "Wow, this sounds to happy! If only it wasn't for the lyrics..." like I don't get how it sounds happy. In most cases, it's probably not meant to. It's just a weird interpritation that peoples' misery is "so kawaii xdxd"

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monsieurdoll's avatar monsieurdoll 9 months ago

i completely agree.. i've gotten a lot more stressed about how peole view my site. it feels like people just see it as an aesthetic instead of something i put work into, something that is like an extension of me almost

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rotbrain's avatar rotbrain 9 months ago

Man, that diary entry pulled some complicated feelings from deep within me, ones that I usually bury. But no, wanting to be truly seen, and not just simply looked at, is not hateful, spiteful, or bitchy.

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rotbrain's avatar rotbrain 9 months ago

Big agree on what niicespiice said, all these parts are not at odds with one another, they are part of the same whole.

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rotbrain's avatar rotbrain 9 months ago

I don't like your site *just because* there are bunch of pretty blinkling lights, and not *just because* there is a diary with a lot of venting, I like it because it feels like I'm stepping into someone's home, treating it any other way feels disrespectful.

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rotbrain's avatar rotbrain 9 months ago

At the end of the day, we have to hold those who earnestly try to see us for who we are close to us, and tell the others to kindly piss off.

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inai's avatar inai 9 months ago

not bitter. i get you. theres a large crowd that scrubs the personality out of anything in favor of aesthetics; dont even read the words people write, just admire the layouts etc etc. i cant help but play with code and try to make things look nice, but sometimes it does certainly feel like thatll be the only thing that ever 'matters'

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littlewren's avatar littlewren 9 months ago

I think itโ€™s like when people only compliment appearance, but not character. Even if you changed your website to just a blank page I would still wait for updates, to know that you are well and for love to your poetry. Your layout itโ€™s beautiful - it showcases your interests and hard work, but itโ€™s not the best nor only part of velvetblue - you are.

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hubbardian's avatar hubbardian 9 months ago

I recently followed your site because I respected your site approach, but knew it and liked it even before that. I think there are more shy people like that than there are the kind of people you're talking about here. :)

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niicespiice's avatar niicespiice 9 months ago

also for the record, i don't care for the "old web revival" stuff. i look at neocities to see peoples' personal thoughts, but i don't care about it as some sort of "let's bring back the old internet." i don't LIKE modern social media but i also don't care about the old internet either, ykyk? they have their own flaws, and it feels very "owo im quirky," obsessing over retro things.

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visualculture's avatar visualculture 9 months ago

when an artistic work is released to the public, it inevitably becomes an entity with a life of its own separate from its creator. this happens with novels, paintings, and yes websites. for better or worse, this is just the reality of art let out into the world

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visualculture's avatar visualculture 9 months ago

i guess you just have to determine whether the good connections you make by going public outweigh the reactions you perceive as negative, and just enjoy the process of creation

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rotbrain's avatar rotbrain 9 months ago

I have a lot of mixed feelings about Neocities' social-media features (follows, view counts, stats, number of likes), and I could do without them, I've been thinking of dusting off my coding skills to make a userscript to hide that stuff.

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rotbrain's avatar rotbrain 9 months ago

However I do appreciate the message & comments feature, in some ways it feels like a slightly more exclusive guestbook, since you know that these are other webmasters who are more likely to appreciate and engage with what you put out, instead of passersby who are just in it for the c00l aesthetic.

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soulbox's avatar soulbox 9 months ago

I understand. I'm conflicted about this too. I want my next web project to be a very personal thing for me. At the same time, I lament about how people are going to receive it. Eventually my website starts to feel awkward. Like I don't know where to put it. Or if I should host it anywhere at all.

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soulbox's avatar soulbox 9 months ago

For everybody here, web design is another art form. Can't say the same for other people though. No matter what you do, just know that you have my support. Expressing yourself, especially like this, takes a lot.

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rotbrain's avatar rotbrain 9 months ago

reply to soulbox: I also used to feel conflicted about wanting to make my art for myself but also wanting it to be received well by others, I eventually landed on "creating not just for personal expression, but for communication, not to be liked by people, but to be understood", that mindset sort of resolved that for me, personally.

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roybutty's avatar roybutty 9 months ago

While I don't usually reply to site updates, I do remember to check them every week. I don't think most people separate someone's personality and their site on here maliciously, but it is 100% valid to be frustrated at that. I love aesthetics as much as the next person, but it's really the authors' words and expression of themselves that ultimately makes me keep checking back in on their sites, including yours.

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Thanks for the follow ๐Ÿ’™
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I really like the way you've laid out your site. Each page is different, but they're all using the same cohesive aesthetic. It's really beautiful!
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velvetblue's avatar velvetblue 9 months ago

thank you! ^^

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thx for motivating me ....love you
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velvetblue's avatar velvetblue 9 months ago

thank you!! <3 youre so sweet, im glad i could help you out like that ^^

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velvetblue's avatar velvetblue 10 months ago

pokemon shrine got updated <3

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rotbrain's avatar rotbrain 10 months ago

man, been a while since I played a pokemon game. I have fond memories of playing heartgold on my DS, and pretty much just using my level 100 Typhlosion. I also remember the mix between 2D sprites and 3D environments blowing my mind as a kid ยฐuยฐ

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possumriver's avatar possumriver 10 months ago

Looks amazing! I love that you included the sprites of your favorite Pokemon for each gen.

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inai's avatar inai 10 months ago

if you've never played crystal clear, that is a god tier rom hack. i cant play vanilla gen 2 ever again lol

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signal-garden's avatar signal-garden 10 months ago

ilex forest shrine :>

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legit one of the most beautiful websites i've ever seen
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