"there are so many different ways to write about just one feeling, or experience, and none of those ways feel adequate enough". i think that's such a beautiful way to describe your relationship with poetry ˊᗜˋ i love everything you published this update, especially "Breathless".

yeah, now that i think on it a little more, i think the inadequacy of words is what makes writing beautiful, too. maybe its not such a bad thing after all ^^ glad you enjoyed the poetry for this update btw, breathless was so fun to write, i'm happy you really like that one <3

I love this wine poem 🥹... It feels like I’m right there in the moment.....💗💞

thank you <3

you really got to that feeling when it comes to making a script for a video essay, or debating someone. no matter what i say, i'll never get the true feeling out. words aren't enough. lyrics are almost enough - that's it.

Words are a very complicated thing, you can never fully relay everything you mean no matter how many words you use. While its more about the concept of relaying memory, im reminded of this exchange in Metal Gear Solid 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SdiDL19JWAI . Its one of my favorite moments from the series.

I noticed that 'slow evening' has rhymes, and ut suprised me, in good way. Out of the three of them, 'metronome' caught my attention the most - your storytelling is amazing, as always.

Why can't you have a normal, happy life?

Experimental pages are a great idea. Also if you don't thing your sites finished and theres more you want to do, thats the truth.

I really respect how honest and open you are. It takes a lot of courage to show your true self, and not everyone can do that. It's something I really admire about you.

thank you, those words genuinely mean a lot to me <3 i just try to be myself, i guess. im happy to know my words mean that much to you ^^

That end part of the diary entry hit too close to home this time brother, lol. It's okay, I'm 25 and still figuring out how to be an adult :)

Indeed, with hardship comes ease. Year 2025 will be better.........keep going blue

Wow, the poems are amazing! I love the poem "Orphan."

@wiredphantom thank you for the kind words as always. i hope 2025 is a good year for you too <3

Not having any friends can feel incredibly sad....i feel you

I mean real friends

yeah, its pretty suffocating. thank you for understanding <3

I noticed you seemed frustrated about the diary entries being disorganized or too potent. Idk if it helps, but I didn't feel like that was too big of an issue. Your writings are already good enough. We won't be disappointed or upset if you process things a different way some days. I hope that helps a little at least...

i wish i could hug you, blue. i don't know if this is weird to ask, but do you have access to therapy? i'm trying to start going now before i ruin myself over similar experiences. it's like you said in "Glaciers" — life doesn't slow down for us, but we choose how we respond to it, and that's how we grow.

ive thought about therapy a lot, but im still not sure if im ready to speak that intimately about my problems to someone irl like that. its just really tense, i guess. but, if im ever ready for it, ill try to give it a chance. thank you for the kind words as always, it means a lot to me <3

I relate a lot to so much of this and the last entry as im going through very similar things. It's been comforting to know that I'm not the only one feeling similarly. And if anything, I hope maybe you can feel a little comfort not feeling alone too.

this shit is art

I felt so moved while reading your poem.........it’s truly touching.

@wiredphantom thank you, im happy to know it resonated with you <3

q&a page has been updated, have fun

i, too, regret getting into danganronpa

yay!