Man, this diary entry hit me really hard. Self-loathing is a bitch, and I struggle to overcome it on a daily basis, to the point where I get no work done, which leads to an endless downward spiral of hate and anger. I do my best to not lash out at others, but it comes across as me bottling up these feelings.

If I could, I’d give you a hug right now.

I don't really suffer from self-loathing myself but I can relate to the idea of being worried that everything will come crashing down soon. I know nothing about mental health so I can't really help much, but I hope things improve for you. Sorry that I'm pretty useless.

The constant pressure to have to perform "sociability" is easily the thing that scrapes away the most at my sanity in my day-to-day, abstract and indirect cruelty. Glad you are able to find consistent reprieve at night, away from the judgement of others.

By the way, I'm fairly certain the site-closing scripts only change the index, I usually just bypass them by just appending "/about" to the url, lol.

I read your diary, and I just want you to know that I’m here. You’re not alone.

thank you, that means a lot to me <3

"i have this really tense fear of being misunderstood, but at the same time, i dont want anyone to understand me." NOOOO NOT THE RELATABLE CONTRADICTIONS AGAIN STOP IT STOP IT UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGHHHH UAO OODNU ONUONU DONAPOUN I think it's probalby a sense of vunerability or something. Personally I want to be understood, but like... Not by NORMIES or whatever. I want a clone, is what I'm sayuing I think. Hmm.

They clearly knew your birthday was the perfect occasion. What better gift than an entire game dropping just for you?

I'm not some exotic fantasy You won't remember my face. I love these lines 🫠

thank you!! i had a lot of fun writing that one ^^