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because you said you were running out of things to put in your diary, couldn't you write about things you DO like? even if there's not many things you like, it's at least something interesting to write about
"there are so many different ways to write about just one feeling, or experience, and none of those ways feel adequate enough". i think that's such a beautiful way to describe your relationship with poetry ˊᗜˋ i love everything you published this update, especially "Breathless".
yeah, now that i think on it a little more, i think the inadequacy of words is what makes writing beautiful, too. maybe its not such a bad thing after all ^^ glad you enjoyed the poetry for this update btw, breathless was so fun to write, i'm happy you really like that one <3
I love this wine poem 🥹... It feels like I’m right there in the moment.....💗💞
you really got to that feeling when it comes to making a script for a video essay, or debating someone. no matter what i say, i'll never get the true feeling out. words aren't enough. lyrics are almost enough - that's it.
Words are a very complicated thing, you can never fully relay everything you mean no matter how many words you use. While its more about the concept of relaying memory, im reminded of this exchange in Metal Gear Solid 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SdiDL19JWAI . Its one of my favorite moments from the series.
I noticed that 'slow evening' has rhymes, and ut suprised me, in good way. Out of the three of them, 'metronome' caught my attention the most - your storytelling is amazing, as always.
Experimental pages are a great idea. Also if you don't thing your sites finished and theres more you want to do, thats the truth.
I really respect how honest and open you are. It takes a lot of courage to show your true self, and not everyone can do that. It's something I really admire about you.
thank you, those words genuinely mean a lot to me <3 i just try to be myself, i guess. im happy to know my words mean that much to you ^^
That end part of the diary entry hit too close to home this time brother, lol. It's okay, I'm 25 and still figuring out how to be an adult :)
Indeed, with hardship comes ease. Year 2025 will be better.........keep going blue
@wiredphantom thank you for the kind words as always. i hope 2025 is a good year for you too <3
I noticed you seemed frustrated about the diary entries being disorganized or too potent. Idk if it helps, but I didn't feel like that was too big of an issue. Your writings are already good enough. We won't be disappointed or upset if you process things a different way some days. I hope that helps a little at least...
i wish i could hug you, blue. i don't know if this is weird to ask, but do you have access to therapy? i'm trying to start going now before i ruin myself over similar experiences. it's like you said in "Glaciers" — life doesn't slow down for us, but we choose how we respond to it, and that's how we grow.
ive thought about therapy a lot, but im still not sure if im ready to speak that intimately about my problems to someone irl like that. its just really tense, i guess. but, if im ever ready for it, ill try to give it a chance. thank you for the kind words as always, it means a lot to me <3
I relate a lot to so much of this and the last entry as im going through very similar things. It's been comforting to know that I'm not the only one feeling similarly. And if anything, I hope maybe you can feel a little comfort not feeling alone too.
what are some of your favorite pieces of media? it can be anything like games, shows, music, etc :]
Do you have a favorite scene in movies/books/anime, etc? If yes, which one? Do you have a favorite piece of clothing, or an object that you treasure?
Is there a deeper meaning or personal story behind the site's name?or just your fav color???
if you had to have a different theme for the site what would it be? / do you have a favourite poem you've written (that we can see on the site)?
Is there a literary work you particularly enjoy or resonate with? (novel, short story, poem, essay, blog article, pretty much anything that's made of words...)
like im fake optimistic because i dont want to see other people complain about nothing. but in my heart im super negative and a bit spiteful actually
now i feel like you are me and i am you .........i am feeling the same way in my college nowdays..........
"Glaciers" was a beautiful read. could i ask what inspired that piece? i kind of interpreted it as life always moving, whether you want it to or not. you don't know where it'll take you, but you'll be forced to change along the way—like water to ice. And it's scary at first, but your growth leads you to something beautiful.
thats basically what its about actually!! ^^ it's meant to sound like someone having a realization that the pain they've endured helped them grow into who they are now, a beautiful person. the main inspirations were both my own personal experience, and a song named 'trial' by the pillows. it has a very winter-y tone to it, and the lyrics cover some pretty similar topics. im glad you enjoyed this one <3
also, you're definitely not alone with your recent journal entry. it gets better though, and i really mean that ♡ also, my first impression of you was that you were a very genuine person, and i'm sure others see that too when they're around you.
@blue sorry, i just take forever to think and type ToT i love that there's so much of your own experiences put into it though—that makes it much more beautiful. i've been meaning to find more jrock bands too, so that song was a nice surprise :) have a good day blue !!
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You aren't alone, and you aren't worthless.......you're someone who matters, who deserves kindness and understanding.
thank you so much, that really means a lot to me <3