"An observer of all things," hm? I've begun to feel similarly in these past years. I thought my life's purpose was to pursue happiness, but that is often unattainable to me, so now I see my life as a catalog of expereiences; good & bad, I just want to feel, to experience & observe. I understand what you're saying & see nothing sad about it.
I think you're right that writing comes from loneliness. Writing is just talking to ourselves at the end of the day. I wonder if I'd have started writing if I'd had a many friends growing up? Anyways, pleasure to read.
@vashti I don't really see anything sad about it either, but i find it interesting how people interact with what i say or do, especially if i don't really get where they're coming from, like in the case of that teacher. I'm glad you relate, you put it very well! I've always said my ultimate dream is being human, which means to observe and feel in earnest and experience [x]
I agree that changing after work is so worth it! Peeling off my grease smelling fast food uniform & immediately putting on even just sweats & baggy shirt makes me feel so much better: 1) It feels like telling them that they don't own me & 2) It's just comfortable. Best of luck to you in all of your endeavors!
treasure trove!!