i feel so stupid. i'm so used to being puppeted around i can't do anything by myself. i keep waiting on the people who pull my strings to keep pulling, and they're getting angry i can't do things for myself, and i'm getting hopeless. i haven't checked out the opprtunities i may or may not have to speak to a therapist because nobody told me to and nobody's taught me how. i'm thinking of contacting the one that works

for my school first, do you guys think my school's website would have more information on that? should i text the friend that first told me about this being a thing & ask about it? what do i do?

i wish that either someone would tell me what to do or that i somehow intrinsically knew

i mean, it's not really that nobody commanded me to do it. it's that i forgot it was a thing. because nobody commanded me to do it

you may have executive dysfunction or depression! and no your not stupid... I don't know ur school (do not tell me your school tho I'm just some random person on the internet), for what to do, i don't know.. maybe search up what you're feeling on forums (such as reddit, it's a forum) and read the comments, helped once.

First of all, as hard as it might be to believe, you are not stupid. You're simply a victim of your circumstances. Your inability to act independently stems from having a puppeteer controlling you your whole life. It’s unreasonable for a puppeteer to expect a puppet to move on its own. It's not stupidity but maybe Fear that holds you back??

You might think, “What if I finally decide for myself and end up doing wrong and everyone will get mad at me?” But if they’re already mad when you haven’t done anything yet, you might as well do something for yourself since they’ll talk shit anyway. But It’s understandable too maybe relying on the puppeteer feels safer right now, which is why you haven’t moved yet.

Finding a therapist can be tough, and it's great that you’re reaching out. In the meantime, while you’re still on the search, consider free alternatives. Talking to a trusted friend or a guidance counselor on your campus can be really helpful. Even speaking with a priest can offer a nonjudgmental space, regardless of whether or not you agree with their teachings. And hey, writing your thoughts down in a journal works

Who knows? You’ll finally get the help you need!! or You might stumble across a friend who eventually betrays you, a counselor who claims it’s all in your head, or a priest who suggests you need an exorcist. And notebooks filled with evidence of your misery. But the good news is, you’ll get that emotional release and gain different perspectives. You can just filter out their nonsense & take what resonates.

At least you’ll be doing some great self-reflecting!! Things will get better, i promise!!!

And please ignore a random clown commenting six times on your post, you might ruin your life.