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your decks are really cool :3

thanks!! 😁💜

WOW the art for the Death Note inspired deck is so cool!! And not gonna lie, I'm really tempted by that oracle deck too, it looks so fun!

Right?? I was really digging that artist's work, then I saw that Death Note deck in their shop! The oracle deck is cute, appeals to the inner child (and girlhood imo), if you subscribe to that sort of thinking. Been meaning to write a description for each deck, that one included. Haven't gotten much use out of it yet. It's almost too positive for me, lol.

Coffee makers deserve thanks. Mine gurgles when I take too long to finish a pot on a work from home day, and I imagine it is pouting at being ignored.

Aww <3<3

What you wrote in the edit to #37 is so true. The "meaning" of the past is never fixed. Maybe this is a corny metaphor, but if we imagine the past as soil and ourselves as plants growing out of it, in the short term it might seem the soil is always static and only plants change, but in the long term, the plants break down rocks in the soil, insert nutrients (or use them up) and so on.

I encountered this quote from the historian E. H. Carr in the epigraph to Hua Hsu’s (excellent!) book Stay True: “Only the future can provide the key to the interpretation of the past; and it is only in this sense that we can speak of an ultimate objectivity in history. It is at once the justification and the explanation of history that the past throws light on the future, and the future throws light on the past.”

tech rules rule (for lack of a better word), and i love the noticing page. both in terms of design and observations. reminds me of this quote that reality will suprise you if you pay attention to it. really cool to hear your thoughts on tech and you're right - we can just keep picking ourselves up again <3

Deeply relating to your 37th microblog; my family dynamic sounds very similar to yours , unfortunately for the both of us. I recently found out my sister is having another baby through the grapevine , as she has not spoken a word to me in months, and while my father lamented over it.. I found I didn't care much! If there's little seed planted, there's even littler Grief to sprout. Love from another black sheep..

ngl i havent seen enough media to see EITHER a trans struggle story or a trans instant acceptance story /srs. i have only seen characters that aren't properly confirmed trans but vaguely implied

re:33, this was part of my impetus to create my trans books page. even as someone who enjoys horror and otherwise dark/fucked-up stories, it's really disappointing that transphobia (external or internal) is so often the main conflict any time a trans character is featured. many authors don't seem to grasp that transphobia is an ADDITIONAL problem that trans people have to deal with, not the ONLY problem

I was so blown away when I watched Talk to Me (2022) and it featured a character that was openly transmasc and this was treated as a non issue. They were just another character in the film, in their own words "not a theme, just a person"

and I shouldn't have been blown away by that! the bar should not be that low!

in terms of my own story, the main character is nonbinary and depending on your reading you can see how this impacts their sense of isolation. however their story isn't really explicitly about being trans, it's about a bunch of other things instead. it's just a background element. so i suppose it's being accepted..? but they're lonely so hmm

THATS SO RELATABLE HHHHHHHHHHHH me when youtube i suppose?

that balaclava is incredible. i'm a knitter and have no clue how to crochet, but i admire how much easier it seems to freestyle in crochet than in knitting. projects like this really make me want to learn!

Thank you!! I find crochet significantly easier, but I learned it first, and I'm under the impression it's a lot more versatile which I appreciate. I hope you do end up trying it :D

the problem i've always had with asking for constructive criticism is that whoever decides to critique my work suddenly becomes the world's foremost authority on art and gives me a lot of criticism without pointing out anything that they liked or offering ways to improve. i say "critique my work", they hear "make me feel bad for creating this".

on 28: become a bandori hyperfixator like me perhaps (or don't)

@badgraph1csghost I've kinda had that issue as well. Granted, I'm sensitive as all hell and even the rudest constructive criticism has the potential to be helpful if it's at least given in good faith. However, there definitely are people our there who use it as a bad-faith cudgel to tear people down.

re: 30, it sounds like your asexuality is pretty similar to mine. I consider myself aegosexual, i.e. I only find sex enjoyable/appealing when it's third-person, fictional fantasies or scenarios, esp. in drawn or written smut. Otherwise, real-life or self-involved sex seems so boring, if not outright repulsive. It seems paradoxical, but I felt very vindicated to learn that a lot of aspec people experience this.

unfortunately i feel like i'm too young to know my orientation - i did a lot of digging into it and i can't really seem to find concrete answers. i keep flipflopping between pan and ace in my head. probably ace in reality but i like to be in denial because comedy

Re: the April 3rd update (I think your profile was disabled at the time), subvocalizing is imo the best way to read for actual enjoyment, for the exact reasons you say: you need to hear the author speaking in your head to really feel what they're communicating. The people who are against it are all deep in the speed-reading world, which I'm sure has advantages for certain types of reading, but...

…you shouldn’t let them make you feel bad. Also, I relate to that weird loneliness that comes after spending a long time with someone. I feel it less now that I have a girlfriend who is always here when I come home, but when she goes on business trips it’s weird how desolate it suddenly feels here. Writing definitely helps — it feels like planting seeds for future connections and communications

I find your comments very valuable, thank you :)

relatable, it feels like making friends is pointless to me because there's always this time when they disappear and i'm just... back how it was before i even met them. it's llike it's entirely pointless if they're not going to be t here for me 100% of the time

@niicespiice Yeah, people coming and going is really difficult. I don’t personally find it pointless if somebody eventually leaves though. Painful? Very. But I’m usually grateful to have had the connection, though I’ve had some really bitter endings