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your thoughts on idolism's effects on an inferiority complex hit hard. i do the same exact thing. i always think of everyone as infinitely better than me in every way, and on low days, that always leads to trouble. it's been the hardest conceit for me to get rid of.

""Babygirl, you can't be stimming with Instagram Reels"" lmaoooo too real... felt on that blurb, to the point where i even use *discord* strictly via browser even on phone cos that too has been too much for me for a while, and left a few servers and all, and sworn off nitro, for less overwhelm too

the like... "idealised person to bitter hated person" pipeline is too real for me

"To idolize is to idealize; it is projecting this perfect image onto someone and it doesn't acknowledge their personhood." also fax..... i got long experience being fuckass hogwild for some music artist or another since i was like 12 (now 28), but increasingly theres the motto of "theyre just some guy" cos really they Are (and sometimes it can be a mundanely beautiful thing) ~ just a tangent rlly

& true abt the socialmediaesqueness bullshit engagement numbers put me OFF!! ok that is All

@sneekrealm I also think about that saying, "never meet your heroes," for the same reasons. I like your descriptor too, "mundanely beautiful," and I appreciate you commenting! Brightened up my day considerably

@sneekrealm lol the numbers drive me bonkers. I understand how bad they are but sometimes I also get so sucked in and I can't look awayyyy because sometimes it feels so good

@badgraph1csghost I really appreciate you commenting!! Makes me feel less alone

never meet ur heroes or at least be very careful!!! a friend and i admin this server for my current hugest fav who himself strolled into there the other week so spontaneously it's crazy, been having to temper myself a bit HAHA but handling it much better than 12yo me or even 22yo me would. the internet can be crazy w these directish connections sometimes