kyle neocities you WILL make thumbnail previews for my offsite page updates I COMMAND THEE.... anyways, go read my new blog https://vivarism.net/diary/24/1125 goodnight <333

i forgot the clickbait? the clickbait is i beat the bpd allegations

congrats on beating the bpd allegations! i empathise a lot with some of the stuff you've written here, especially since I was on tumblr when the BPD self-dx thing was really going around and wanted an answer for why i was Like That:tm:. cheering on your efforts towards being your vivariest (if it works as an adjective, lol) self as always!

Im always wishing you the best floone! I'm so happy you have support system to help you. You know i'm always here for you 🩵🧡

I feel torn on the concept of personality disorders because on one hand, it's a pretty modern concept and a bandaid diagnosis for what can easily be described as environmental behaviors that cause PTSD/C-PTSD + the whole trope that women are branded as "BPD" by professionals for any little thing. Some autistic traits can be considered BPD. But the specific patterns of behavior attached to "the big ones" are real.

And the trendiness of it in certain communities makes people actively want to "be" that, reshape their behavior to "fit" it, or weaponize it to justify actual abusive behavior... I'm guilty of throwing around the phrase derogatorily and have gone under fire for it in private, but how it's kind of a meme-y trendy dx is why. I don't know where I'm going with this.

I've read this entry twice now, it's both very accurate and insightful.

Floone, you are so strong, resilient, brave, and kind. I'm incredibly proud of you. Never forget the world is a better place with you in it. <3

@kiley omg my vivariest... that absolutely took me out. thank you for that and for your encouragement too <333 @poom, i love you so much 🥺💚 thank you for everything!!! @capy whoa im glad that you found my entry so interesting!!! labels can only be so useful. it's interesting how they influence our perceptions of others. & @robyn I LOVE YOU!!!!! my world is better with YOU in it 💖

DONT LOOK YET. IM... FIXING THINGS.

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┏ (゜ω゜)=☞ https://vivarism.net/ ☆☆☆(o゜▽゜)o EVERYONE PLEASE LOOK AT VIVARISM 3.0!!!!!! (it wont show up on neocities... im working on it)

vivarism 3.0 looks amazing, i'm loving all the changes!!

The return of Flonne wahoo!! New layout is super cute, and congrats on self employment!! Also your flonne.net layout is gorgeous (reminding me i need to play more disgaea ahhh)

This is stunning!!!!!! Congrats on 3.0 <3

oh hey!!! you're back!!! nice to see you!!

Happy birthday and happy 3.0!!!

thank you everyone for taking a peek at my hard work <333 It's great to see you all again!

Good to see you back on here. Have a lovely time !

so so so so very cute! I had fun looking through everything... adorable and impeccably designed as always. Welcome back! ^^

This is so cute!! I will forever be impressed with your design skills. Everything is always so clean and cohesive. S-tier layout.

Cutest update yet! Your aesthetic taste for kidcore is unmatched. I love browsing Vivarism so much. Truly, the CSS princess ヽ(✿ﾟ▽ﾟ)ノ

awww ahhh youre all so sweet to me! thank you so much!!!

https://vivarism.net/diary/24/july here we are... another new day another flonne diary...

rip computer ;_; its not out of the realm of possibility that the computer got bopped around in the move and unstuck the thermal paste off the cpu. hopefully you can fix it soon!

Reading about your history with the Story of Seasons games was so heartwarming! I think I picked up a story of seasons game in an eshop sale (one of the more recent ones.. I was excited that one of the bachelorettes is vietnamese) but I have a habit of abandoning farming games LOL. I’ll have to pick it back up! And I’ve been listening to Dusk to Dawn too, it’s especially pleasant on walks ^^

I follow one site that's php (on another host) but the Neocities mirror of the front page auto-updates when it does. (Also WTF!! Hope the fan gets fixed..)

so glad to catch an update from you!! missed you a lot and always love reading your entries!

Ah I'm so happy you're working hard on your site and enjoying php!!!

i hope you can find one you like sussuri!! the shelf space is a game changer :+D here's an easy link for my diary entry https://vivarism.net/diary/24/june and a clickbait title...? how about VIVARISM GRAND RETURN!

nice to see you back, and great new setup!! :D man, I can totally feel you on the refreshing feeling of "I live here! I get my own space!" - I've been feeling that a lot since I moved to my new place too. I'm glad everything arrived safely!

Oh, that explanation of mental events being like weather was really interesting! Lovely desk setup and hope you have fun decorating the rest of the house!

Two Of Him o_o

Your desk is super cute all decorated and guarded by two Sans. Ahhh, Bart though!! Make sure he keeps you well hydrated this summer, it's been sooo hot lately ♡

welcome back flonne and congrats on your puter making it safe and sound!! i can't wait to see what you do with your room, it's already off to a great start! bart ♥ and i hope you will give yourself the patience and grace you deserve. i'm sorry june has been so hard, but i think anyone would have a tough adjustment period after uprooting like you did!

that feeling of your safety being lost is growing pains. it's scary when you try new things!! but afterwards, you realize hey, that wasn't so bad. or if it was difficult, you have the experience to handle it better next time. sometimes we need the rug pulled out from under us in order to move forward, as terrifying as it is. just know we're all rooting for you and support you ♥

I really like your Computer setup <3 and i agree June was wait until it gets better type feeling :( But hey July is gonna get better I Hope lmao

@gatari, tysm!! i'm glad your move went smoothly, too. here's to new beginnings for both of us, yeah? @celeste, im glad my weather metaphor made sense to someone else lolol. let's both pay more attention to the clouds passing through ☁︎ @pom ... TWO!!!

@bree, trust me, me and bart are an inseparable pair. you cant rly see it in the photo but he has yellow horn things that are good to chew. @arachne, youre so right about growing pains. whatever hardship im enduring is just exp points that will help me on my next adventure and, in my new home, i'm certain i'll have tons more. thank you for coming along for the ride ♡!!!

@johnny, yes, we'll definitely have lots more happy moments in July. thank you for your optimism!

hi! today's clickbait title: is 'brave' a feeling or a character trait?

"Someday, surely, I'll recognise my humanity." - important words. Thank you for sharing a part of your day, and wishing you the best for the near future ! Proud of you.

good job confronting your fears, Flonne! I’m proud of you! A really good cafe that you can walk to and from will give you a lot of opportunities to practice, too.. not to mention a delicious incentive. “Do it scared” is a good sentiment, I’ll remember it… whenever I’m scared but have to push through I’m comforted when I repeat the words “fuck it we ball” lol

i love the new blog look for june!! it's like i'm gently being caressed by the tide at sea to my ankles and the gentle breeze that accompanies it at the same time. i'm really proud of you for pushing yourself as far as you have and sans is too!! do it scared is a good motto, that's how we grow and begin to see that hey, this isn't so scary after all. i hope you're enjoying all that delicious food. ♥

congrats on the steps you've made towards overcoming your phobias, flonne! im glad that you got to have a tasty treat as a good reward for it also

I'm so proud of you for going outside! The blueness of the sky, the breeze, the sun, the firm earth, take all of it in! You are human, and we're all connected by land and sea. Deep blues really signify the depth of change and nature, don't they? I hope you can enjoy the mountains and beach maybe one day, Sans will be with you!

ahh gosh you're all so kind to me, thank you;; your encouragement lifts my spirits and makes me want to try a little harder. i'm glad that this month's layout gives everyone the cerulean summer vibes i was hoping to convey! && lune i LOVE "fuck it we ball," remind me to show you the sans version

It's also useful to think of "bravery" as like a muscle- If you keep using it, it'll get easier. I carry one of my Ivy keychains with me on a carabiner now to make going out less boring...

Good luck having time away from your PC for awhile! It can be a good soft reset on your brain.

Update pushed from the NC editor on my freaking phone... ;;__+;; LOL. Thank you to everyone who replied to my prev update too, i wrote a whole response but like a clown forgot to hit post 🤡 & ty capy! Taking a break from Big Screen to be with Little Screen heh

oh man it's so hard to be without a computer!! but i hope your transition to your new home will be filled with new experiences and the beginning of a new era!! we'll see you soon!

good luck with everything - we'll miss your updates while you're gone! wishing you the best on ur computer-free journey :P

Being without a computer is really annoying, but enjoy the break! It's good to take internet breaks... I think it should be a very normal thing

Thank you everyone!!! This period isn't quite the digital detox you may be picturing, more like rattling the cage that keeps me from my beloved web design..... So I really will need "luck" to get thru this heh. Still, it's been nice to get out and Do Moving Things, & I'll keep up with everyone's updates even when I'm trapped on mobile!!

good luck with your move Flonne! ^o^ I sent you an email about iphone icon customization which could be fun to do while you’re away from your computer. if your switch isn’t packed away yet we could also play ACNH together like we planned on a couple months ago lol!

Lune!! I loved your Flonnecore Finds, thank you 🥺 you'll be the first to see my phone after I cuten it up! And my switch is unfortunately packed away too;; Hopefully we can still play further into the summer!

my last diary entries for may (probably). they're so normal, i can't think of a clickbait title...

I know the clickbait: "science cannot explain this simple trick to softer hair. click to find out." I exclusively use mint soaps, relatable vibes. I use ACV on my hair and it does make it softer for me too. Think of it this way, when you're back with a comfy desktop, you'll have a lot to post about with art you made, fic recs, have tons to say about books you read.

Right? Maybe... I hope you can at least do a little June work from the laptop though. I love your diaries ;;

im the complete opposite, i need my pc to do anything productive and its impossible for me to write anything on phone lmao.. im so happy you found a good space for yourself to socialize in and i hope the feeling of guilt for dipping in and out will slowly wane with time. i think it's pretty normal to pop in and out of convos, especially in group settings.

i do understand the guilt though, i tend to do the same with 1 on 1 conversations...

best of luck with the moving mish! i remember how much of a hassle it was when I moved houses having to pack up all my stuff and be hobby-less for a while due to setup :^( i hope you can push forward with the socialising, too! it can be pretty difficult to get back into the swing of, but it's nothing to be ashamed of if you can only do it in set bursts~

aw, i'll miss seeing you for a while. but i get it, moving is such a difficult time in which you have to decide what and when to pack things up - not to mention the stress of it all, and the blank period where... you can't really do much. but i do hope the upcoming time will do you well! <3

the accidental confession!! way too cute

It wouldn't exist without your input!!! You gave me a vision that I had to make reality ꒰✩’ω`ૢ✩꒱