what you're going through really hits home for me, it's genuinely such a horrible backed-into-a-corner feeling and i really hope it gets easier for you soon :( i always have to remind myself not to let those experiences and fears colour my perspective on life. shit happens sometimes but if you didn't know, it's not your fault :/
Thank you for your kind words :[ I think I have figured out the issue but it's still very daunting and nauseating nonetheless. I will be ok in the end though :]
thank you, it makes me happy to know that they mean something to you. and melonne is very dear to me, that's nice to hear
Fantroll document i havent updated since 2022 is insane i guess i'll add to it now