Do I need to watch the source material to read your fan fics?

It helps. At least to get an understanding of the setting, side characters but you can just find a summary of the series and get a general idea. Basically Schools in Japan have girls only tank battles and most schools represents a theme based off a Country in WW2 or history in general. Oarai Girls' Academy is on the verge of being shut down and an underdog team has to compete in these tank tournaments in order to

save their school (an aircraft carrier with an entire city and school on board) from closing down. There's a bunch of spin off manga that's somewhat considered canon to the main anime series that are also worth looking into as they cover other schools or events prior to the anime. Anzio High is supposed to be based off Italy in WW2 and just like irl history, they are kind of a mess compared to other tank teams.

It's a crappy situation to be in. I was the same way in college but you gotta try to break the mold and talk to someone. You'll be suprised on how little someone actually cares that someone is awkward. The most they'll do is talk bad for a bit but go back to focusing on themselves.

If people project, it's because they're insecure. Guys who know the struggle will understand.

when I first came across this post I was going to divulge that sustaining friends or romance is (mostly) unfounded after college; for that light at the end of the tunnel means a parting of ways. for some, maybe not, but often is the case from my observations. but if you're worried of an inability to form connections with others, I understand. connections are difficult when they're arbitrary (or built upon proximity)

Socialising can cost money.

Do you have these dreams when you are close to wake up?

I have them the moment I fall into a deep slumber. That's usually when I am so tired, I kind of feel knocked out and don't wake up as easily. Usually after a dream, I wake up either real early in the morning or far too early like after midnight. It's just my awful sleeping behavior.

The only time I dream is when I have a fucking nightmare, or some weird ass shit, otherwise it is black.

I am an introvert and socializing is tough for me as well, a good memory I have is this: I was working and the boss' son came by, he showed me 3 dice in his hand, 2 white 1 green, he said the green dice was the "lucky dice" and put it in front and asked me to pick one. I picked one of the white ones in back, he laughed and said I was the first person to do that. We had a conversation about magic and slight of hand.

Is this the fanfic? https://archiveofourown.org/works/26937709/chapters/65743036

Yep. That's it.

Agreed that feeling like you owe people is the worst.

"We live in one of the most antisocial times in our lives." ikr. even as an "introvert" it feels weird lol

I have noticed that even in friendship if you care more about the relationship than the other side does, then it gets too tiresome and irritable. Probably a consequence of caring about friendship too much.

Contacts are a miracle. It really is like being able to see again. I am a bad boy and just leave my dailies in my eyes until they bug me. Sleep, everything. Kek.

My eye doctor told me I have dry eyes and prescribed me some drops but I never bothered them with. I did fine wearing contacts all day when I was in my last years of high school and college so...

Where can I listen to your album? Also added your website buttons to my site.

It's on the Goodies Page in a mega link under the My OC Album Collection or right here: https://mega.nz/folder/QgIRXAZA#jEH40qnddIvx9ZIlRhOPDQ

Though I seriously need to update my Bandcamp page.

Nice, gave it a listen and I liked it. Me and some other guys on my discord server are making a Visual Novel for fun. Mind if I used your music in it? I will give you proper attribution but I can't pay you. It's not a commercial VN anyway, it'll be all released for free.

Here's the discord server btw: https://discord.gg/kphfZqf5 . It's the sos brigade server. I think you used to be on there.

I guess you have consistently worked on this site, but yeah I have too resigned to writing about whatever I feel is interesting rather than finding one topic to be an expert in.

Thanks for the offer. In all honesty. I don't mind anyone using my music for projects. I'm not going to put some kind of copyright or anything on it since music as it is is built upon the foundations of works from the past just like architecture, art, or anything of that sort.

Yeah I used to be on your discord server but I wasn't really active on it. Plus the whole discord term of service thing is kind of a turn off. Maybe I might reconsider. School has me mostly busy sometimes though not really. The Visual Novel idea sounds briliant. I would be honored to have my music used for such a project if I had to be hoenst.

Thank you for your permission, we'll be using your music. Also based take on copyright I can get behind in my little projects too.