Oddie, there is no reason to punish yourself. Everyone deserves a decent life, including you. Constructive changes take awhile to manifest sometimes. It is good that you take steps to heal, to grow, and to get whatever help that you need along the way. 🌻
Sometimes things feel "off" to me too, where I stress out and I cannot put my finger on "why?" exactly. It is good that you have the presence of awareness to recognize it...
...Usually a little bit self-care will ease it, and one should only be concerned if such stress starts to become chronic. Either way, lots of joy and peace unto you! 😊
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Oddie! You are appreciated!
Ah, thank you sage!