"eventually being so beautiful it makes me cry" – after some thought, I don't think this is acquired through physical means. you probably have to change something in your head, https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Glenn_Gould
"It was Hofmann. It was, I think, his last performance in Toronto, and it was a staggering impression. The only thing I can really remember is that, when I was being brought home in a car, I was in that wonderful state of half-awakeness in which you hear all sorts of incredible sounds going through your mind. They were all orchestral sounds, but I was playing them all, and suddenly I was Hofmann. I was enchanted."
now that you bring this up, head stuff prob does have a good amount to do with this. perception (if thats the right word to use) *is* a lot and really the quality of it through my headphones is just a complement (unless its like 144p quality lol). like i think if anything part of that feeling id want to get is similar the feeling i get after seeing a sick performance, kind of like the example you provided w gould
still wnna try to figure out *some* Audio Stuff since i hear a lot ab like really good sound but. eh. that's a later thing i am not going broke today. maybe i am just falling for the meme lol.
perception is the right word definitely. may be falling for a meme, but going down the audiophile rabbit hole clues you in on the intricacies of music production, processing (maybe? not sure). but whatever music knowledge you discover could develop into admiration within your next experience, of artists, hardware, how it all comes together. this may lead to those tears of beauty that you want. something like that
it's a worthy pursuit and one I've never considered, it's a good idea, as long as its not too burdensome :~)
i swear im going to work on something else eventually.