Wow, what a video! I was talking to my sister about this last night. She is under the impression that I am aloof with everyone. I don't have any fear of meeting or interacting with people, and I care about everyone very deeply as fellow human beings, but at the same time, I often feel disconnected and not very intimate.
It is strange with how hyperconnected everything is nowadays that people still feel alone in a crowd. Communication technology is to no avail if it acts as an intermediary instead of a facilitator of human connection. Ironically, so much of our culture fosters a sense of objectification and competition when our hearts need the exact opposite. Hope you are well.
"Somehow, it feels harder to decide to fix yourself and your own behavior than it does to decide to fix things that are difficult, but external." I can fix my bike, but I can't fix my heart
I'm not dead, just having a bit of a rough time finding myself while still managing the responsibilities of being alive. Hopefully back soon!
of course! all the best to you