goodness This is so so relatable.There is comfort in hopelessness and tragedy.I think it always made me feel different and special. For me I think self harm reinforced that idea. Doing stuff for *attention* does not at all diminish any suffering including the suffering of self harm.When we are taught we canโt rely on help from others, finding comfort in and furthering it is only natural as harmful as it may be. (1/2)
Everyone deserves help, and Itโs human to want it.I guess for me it got better. I still struggle sometimes but I have started to separate myself from that identity of endless tragedy and trust the love and support I receive from others. no matter how much I convinced myself I deserved it then, going through that sucked. I have great hope that it will get better for you just as it did for me. Best wishes for you (2/2)
thank u sosososo much ... It is such a tough thing to separate yourself from when ur whole life has been set against a backdrop of hopelessness and a Desire to not Live anymore .. but It is nice to hear I am not alone..<3
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goodness This is so so relatable.There is comfort in hopelessness and tragedy.I think it always made me feel different and special. For me I think self harm reinforced that idea. Doing stuff for *attention* does not at all diminish any suffering including the suffering of self harm.When we are taught we canโt rely on help from others, finding comfort in and furthering it is only natural as harmful as it may be. (1/2)
Everyone deserves help, and Itโs human to want it.I guess for me it got better. I still struggle sometimes but I have started to separate myself from that identity of endless tragedy and trust the love and support I receive from others. no matter how much I convinced myself I deserved it then, going through that sucked. I have great hope that it will get better for you just as it did for me. Best wishes for you (2/2)
thank u sosososo much ... It is such a tough thing to separate yourself from when ur whole life has been set against a backdrop of hopelessness and a Desire to not Live anymore .. but It is nice to hear I am not alone..<3